Guest guest Posted November 19, 2008 Report Share Posted November 19, 2008 Dear Jagbir, Violet and allI can't read all your emails on the forum because I'm too busy but I try to keep in touch with most of your "discoveries". Here's a little post to share my latest feelings : First, let me tell you that I share most of the conclusions you reach, I've had similar experiences to yours, and all your postings about spiritual, historical, sociological topics etc...are always a great comfort and a great help to keep a global view of "what's going on out there", and bring proof that our global consciousness is rising.I also enjoy immensly the videos, music, etc.. you share with us on the Forum (thank you so much Jagbir for your post about Khwaja Mere Khwaja (Jodhaa Akbar) :I've become a fan and I regularly listen to that song and other Rahnman's ones : they give me so much joy and put me a great mood for days !!Now, on a more "gloomy" topic, the SY Organization : reading the latest Forum posts, my attention was recently caught by the name "Patrick Lantoin" : he used to be the French "leader" about 20 years ago. He was an absolute "nutter".I saw him and heard him once, in 1994, when he was not the leader anymore, but he had come to the rescue of the new "leader" of the time, another nutter whose name was Antonio. Antonio's leadership was being challenged by a man and his Indian wife (who were my friends and left the collective since, as I did).My friend had found out that Antonio was using SY money for his personal use and threatened Antonio that he was going to tell Shri Mataji. A collective havan was then organised to "destroy" the negativity which was attacking the French leader. My friends were thrown "in the fire"... and Lantoin gave an apocalyptical speech which mesmerized the bleating French SYs : The end of the world was near, and Sahaja Yoga was the new ark which was going to save all the lost sinners from destruction. We had to go on board and be faithful to our "Captain", (who, in his words, was the leader of the French collective). In a vibrant and moving tone, he fell at the knees of the leader and said "Antonio, my Captain, I know you will take us to safe shores. I trust you, I'm your loyal friend..."I was very "new" in SY at the time, and I naively tried to tell a few SYs that in my opinion, the Captain was not "the leader", but our own Kundalini who had been awakened by the grace of our Holy Mother... I was told to keep my thoughts for myself, as what I was saying was dangerous and I could be "thrown out" of SY. I weakly protested that for me, there was no "in" or "out", as the kingdom of God was definitely inside of us...I couldn't undestand either why all those "yogis" were "worshipping" Antonio when I couldn't even get close to him because I was getting so much heat and pain in my heart.We were obviously not feeling the same types of "vibrations"...A couple of years later, Shri Mataji "threw" Antonio out of SY, and he was replaced by Majid Golpur... That's when I decided to leave the Collective because I had finally understood that this "external" organization was a kind of illusion. It was not he real stuff. It had become clear to me that Shri Matajii was keeping all these negative people (the Pauls and Peters etc.. of Christ time) in her web of illusion; she actually once had said it was better for the whole world that she kept them "near her physical being" : that's where they were the less damaging. She also said in a Navaratri Puja talk that the only way for the Goddess to destry the negativity is to let it become "blinded by its own ego and power" . (I feel that's what's happening now. The SY Religion is blinded by itself and has no relation whatsoever with the real "awakening"). It took me years (and the suppport of faithful friends like Nicole and my "oucast" Indian friend ) to fully accept my own inner "understanding" of SY.During those years of inner struggle, I had many visions and dreams in which the Adi Shakti comforted and helped me.Trying to understand what was going on in the SY Organization and why my "view" was so different from "theirs"" was a real torture at times.The las time I saw Shri Mataji at the airport, in Paris (back in 2000 I think) , she told a young "Yogi" who had been Antonio's right nad man : "What's Antonio doing here, still ?"The young man protested ansd said : "Mother, he's not here anymore, you told him to go away". But She insisted : "Antonio is still here".Nobody understood... I did : Antonio was still possessing the minds and hearts of the whole French SY collectivity. They were not free from him. They still probably aren't...So that's why I share your conclusions that we have nothing to do with the SY Organization anymore; bute at the same time, let's not forget that this Organization has a role to play in the global Divine plan. Otherwise, it would not have been created.In one beautiful "vision" I had in my years of doubt and struggle : I was feeling scared and sad because I didn't understand what was going on with the SY collectivity.The Adi Shakti was sitting under a tree, on a throne. She told me to sit in front of Her and She asked me why I was so sad. "Because they're making a mess of your teachinf, of your Advent. And because I feel useless, powerless and scared. She smiled at me and told me to touch the ground with my forehead, by Her feet, which I did. She then put one foot at the back of my head. A stream of liquid Bliss and Light poured down into my whole being. I stayed there, at the Adi Shakti's feet, for quite a while. It was absolute Bliss.When She removed her foot, I looked back up at Her. I was feeling totally cleansed, pure, joyous... She gave me a beaming smile and said : "You see, problems and sadness don't exist !"This is one of the great blessings She gave me. I recall this wonderful vison whenever I forget who She is, and who I am (and that happens all the time !!) : She is the Adi Shakti, I'm Her child, and all I have to do is to keep Her happy by maintaining myself in the Bliss and Joy She wants us all to attain. The rest will get cleared up by Her grace. It's only by maintaining ourselves freely in the position She gave us that we are doing our "job". And that's not easy !! I feel this is also the role of this Forum : to help and support each other in our quest to maintain our faith and balance in these troubled times.With much Love to you all Isabelle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 19, 2008 Report Share Posted November 19, 2008 , Isabelle Morgan <isabelle.morgan wrote: > > Dear Jagbir, Violet and all > I can't read all your emails on the forum because I'm too busy but > I try to keep in touch with most of your " discoveries " . > > Here's a little post to share my latest feelings : > > First, let me tell you that I share most of the conclusions you > reach, I've had similar experiences to yours, and all your > postings about spiritual, historical, sociological topics etc... > are always a great comfort and a great help to keep a global view > of " what's going on out there " , and bring proof that our global > consciousness is rising. > > I also enjoy immensely the videos, music, etc.. you share with us > on the Forum (thank you so much Jagbir for your post about Khwaja > Mere Khwaja (Jodhaa Akbar) : I've become a fan and I regularly > listen to that song and other Rahnman's ones : they give me so much > joy and put me a great mood for days !! > > Now, on a more " gloomy " topic, the SY Organization : reading the > latest Forum posts, my attention was recently caught by the name > " Patrick Lantoin " : he used to be the French " leader " about 20 > years ago. He was an absolute " nutter " . I saw him and heard him > once, in 1994, when he was not the leader anymore, but he had come > to the rescue of the new " leader " of the time, another nutter whose > name was Antonio. Antonio's leadership was being challenged by a > man and his Indian wife (who were my friends and left the > collective since, as I did). My friend had found out that Antonio > was using SY money for his personal use and threatened Antonio > that he was going to tell Shri Mataji. A collective havan was then > organised to " destroy " the negativity which was attacking the > French leader. My friends were thrown " in the fire " ... and Lantoin > gave an apocalyptical speech which mesmerized the bleating French > SYs : The end of the world was near, and Sahaja Yoga was the new > ark which was going to save all the lost sinners from destruction. > We had to go on board and be faithful to our " Captain " , (who, in > his words, was the leader of the French collective). In a vibrant > and moving tone, he fell at the knees of the leader and said > " Antonio, my Captain, I know you will take us to safe shores. I > trust you, I'm your loyal friend... " > > I was very " new " in SY at the time, and I naively tried to tell a > few SYs that in my opinion, the Captain was not " the leader " , but > our own Kundalini who had been awakened by the grace of our Holy > Mother... I was told to keep my thoughts for myself, as what I was > saying was dangerous and I could be " thrown out " of SY. I weakly > protested that for me, there was no " in " or " out " , as the kingdom > of God was definitely inside of us... I couldn't understand either > why all those " yogis " were " worshipping " Antonio when I couldn't > even get close to him because I was getting so much heat and pain > in my heart. We were obviously not feeling the same types of > " vibrations " ... > A couple of years later, Shri Mataji " threw " Antonio out of SY, > and he was replaced by Majid Golpur... That's when I decided to > leave the Collective because I had finally understood that this > " external " organization was a kind of illusion. It was not he real > stuff. It had become clear to me that Shri Mataji was keeping all > these negative people (the Pauls and Peters etc.. of Christ time) > in her web of illusion; she actually once had said it was better > for the whole world that she kept them " near her physical being " : > that's where they were the less damaging. She also said in a > Navaratri Puja talk that the only way for the Goddess to destroy > the negativity is to let it become " blinded by its own ego and > power " . (I feel that's what's happening now. The SY Religion is > blinded by itself and has no relation whatsoever with the real > " awakening " ). > > It took me years (and the support of faithful friends like Nicole > and my " outcast " Indian friend) to fully accept my own inner > " understanding " of SY. During those years of inner struggle, I had > many visions and dreams in which the Adi Shakti comforted and > helped me. Trying to understand what was going on in the SY > Organization and why my " view " was so different from " theirs " " was > a real torture at times. The last time I saw Shri Mataji at the > airport, in Paris (back in 2000 I think), she told a young " Yogi " > who had been Antonio's right hand man: " What's Antonio doing here, > still? " The young man protested and said : " Mother, he's not here > anymore, you told him to go away " . But She insisted : " Antonio is > still here " . Nobody understood... I did : Antonio was still > possessing the minds and hearts of the whole French SY > collectivity. They were not free from him. They still probably > aren't... > > So that's why I share your conclusions that we have nothing to do > with the SY Organization anymore; but at the same time, let's not > forget that this Organization has a role to play in the global > Divine plan. Otherwise, it would not have been created. > > In one beautiful " vision " I had in my years of doubt and struggle: > I was feeling scared and sad because I didn't understand what was > going on with the SY collectivity. The Adi Shakti was sitting under > a tree, on a throne. She told me to sit in front of Her and She > asked me why I was so sad. " Because they're making a mess of your > teaching, of your Advent. And because I feel useless, powerless and > scared. She smiled at me and told me to touch the ground with my > forehead, by Her feet, which I did. She then put one foot at the > back of my head. A stream of liquid Bliss and Light poured down > into my whole being. I stayed there, at the Adi Shakti's feet, for > quite a while. It was absolute Bliss. When She removed her foot, I > looked back up at Her. I was feeling totally cleansed, pure, > joyous... She gave me a beaming smile and said : " You see, > problems and sadness don't exist ! " This is one of the great > blessings She gave me. I recall this wonderful vision whenever I > forget who She is, and who I am (and that happens all the time!!): > She is the Adi Shakti, I'm Her child, and all I have to do is to > keep Her happy by maintaining myself in the Bliss and Joy She wants > us all to attain. The rest will get cleared up by Her grace. It's > only by maintaining ourselves freely in the position She gave us > that we are doing our " job " . And that's not easy !! I feel this is > also the role of this Forum : to help and support each other in our > quest to maintain our faith and balance in these troubled times. > > With much Love to you all > > > Isabelle > Dear Isabelle and all, Just a few days ago i was thinking that it would be nice to hear from you, and here you are! It is a reassuring collectivity over the many miles! Thank-you for relating your beautiful experience of Bliss through the Adi Shakti. i think that relating such experiences helps raise other's awareness of this spiritual Resource that is within us. With this inner spiritual assurance that we have, it is all-the-more-appalling what we see that SY leaders have done to Shri Mataji's Message. It is little wonder therefore, that finally, at this year's Guru Puja, Shri Mataji asked all SYs that are without catches and with the vibrations flowing unimpeded, that they form their own organisations. It was a very clear signal from Shri Mataji, that organisations other than the one She had started, were needed. Before that time, Shri Mataji seemed very much against SYs forming separate organisations. But, the entrenched SY leadership showed that they were going nowhere in particular, least of all with Shri Mataji's Main Resurrection Message, which they refuse to give to the public-at-large to this very day. Now, years later, more details are being revealed as to what the entrenched scribe-and-Pharisee element have done. i am shocked over the 'Patrick and Antonio incident' that you describe: > Now, on a more " gloomy " topic, the SY Organization : reading the > latest Forum posts, my attention was recently caught by the name > " Patrick Lantoin " : he used to be the French " leader " about 20 > years ago. He was an absolute " nutter " . I saw him and heard him > once, in 1994, when he was not the leader anymore, but he had come > to the rescue of the new " leader " of the time, another nutter whose > name was Antonio. Antonio's leadership was being challenged by a > man and his Indian wife (who were my friends and left the > collective since, as I did). My friend had found out that Antonio > was using SY money for his personal use and threatened Antonio > that he was going to tell Shri Mataji. A collective havan was then > organised to " destroy " the negativity which was attacking the > French leader. My friends were thrown " in the fire " ... and Lantoin > gave an apocalyptical speech which mesmerized the bleating French > SYs : The end of the world was near, and Sahaja Yoga was the new > ark which was going to save all the lost sinners from destruction. > We had to go on board and be faithful to our " Captain " , (who, in > his words, was the leader of the French collective). In a vibrant > and moving tone, he fell at the knees of the leader and said > " Antonio, my Captain, I know you will take us to safe shores. I > trust you, I'm your loyal friend... " That is simply shocking and there is no excuse for Patrick Lantoin supporting Antonio in his deceit. And then they had a wrong havan to burn the names of the SYs, who were being truthful, but the truthful SYs got their names burned in the havan. That is really shocking! > I was very " new " in SY at the time, and I naively tried to tell a > few SYs that in my opinion, the Captain was not " the leader " , but > our own Kundalini who had been awakened by the grace of our Holy > Mother... I was told to keep my thoughts for myself, as what I was > saying was dangerous and I could be " thrown out " of SY. I weakly > protested that for me, there was no " in " or " out " , as the kingdom > of God was definitely inside of us... > I couldn't understand either why all those " yogis " were > " worshipping " Antonio when I couldn't even get close to him because > I was getting so much heat and pain in my heart. > We were obviously not feeling the same types of " vibrations " ... > A couple of years later, Shri Mataji " threw " Antonio out of SY, > and he was replaced by Majid Golpur... That is fantastic, that while you were " new " you nonetheless knew the truth! i remember Shri Mataji saying that the " later " yogis, would be greater yogis, than the " first " yogis. Isabelle, you simply and quietly told what you knew to be the truth - and that is all you were required to say: the truth! And yet, when they heard it from you, they said that you might get asked to leave the organisation, so you should be quiet. They were right of course, that you would have been asked to leave the organisation. But how shortsighted, dishonest, and hypocritical an organisation is that, that cannot even face the truth, and when they are faced with it, they have used the long Rope of Liberty that Shri Mataji gave them, to causes these SYs to leave the organisation. Once your name is burned in a SY Fire, you will not want to be in company with them. That is the point where you " know " there is something really wrong there. > It took me years (and the support of faithful friends like Nicole > and my " outcast " Indian friend) to fully accept my own inner > " understanding " of SY. During those years of inner struggle, I had > many visions and dreams in which the Adi Shakti comforted and > helped me. Trying to understand what was going on in the SY > Organization and why my " view " was so different from " theirs " " was > a real torture at times. i am glad that you had Nicole and your Indian friend to help you accept your inner understanding of SY, and that you also had the dreams and visions where the Adi Shakti comforted and helped you. > So that's why I share your conclusions that we have nothing to do > with the SY Organization anymore; but at the same time, let's not > forget that this Organization has a role to play in the global > Divine plan. Otherwise, it would not have been created. That is true. One of the roles was to act as a net to catch the scribes and Pharisees, so that they could not do further damage, outside of the organisation of SY. That is where we are at now - giving Her Message from outside the organisation of SY, because it could not be given from inside the organisation, the way it was supposed to be given. Another role is that we have all been brought together by our common bond of Shri Mataji and Sahaja Yoga. > In one beautiful " vision " I had in my years of doubt and struggle: > I was feeling scared and sad because I didn't understand what was > going on with the SY collectivity. The Adi Shakti was sitting under > a tree, on a throne. She told me to sit in front of Her and She > asked me why I was so sad. " Because they're making a mess of your > teaching, of your Advent. And because I feel useless, powerless and > scared. She smiled at me and told me to touch the ground with my > forehead, by Her feet, which I did. She then put one foot at the > back of my head. A stream of liquid Bliss and Light poured down > into my whole being. I stayed there, at the Adi Shakti's feet, for > quite a while. It was absolute Bliss. When She removed her foot, I > looked back up at Her. I was feeling totally cleansed, pure, > joyous... She gave me a beaming smile and said : " You see, > problems and sadness don't exist ! " This is one of the great > blessings She gave me. I recall this wonderful vision whenever I > forget who She is, and who I am (and that happens all the time!!): > She is the Adi Shakti, I'm Her child, and all I have to do is to > keep Her happy by maintaining myself in the Bliss and Joy She wants > us all to attain. The rest will get cleared up by Her grace. It's > only by maintaining ourselves freely in the position She gave us > that we are doing our " job " . And that's not easy !! I feel this is > also the role of this Forum : to help and support each other in our > quest to maintain our faith and balance in these troubled times. Thanks Isabelle for your beautiful testimony. That is all true. We are here to help and support each other in our quest to maintain our faith and balance in these troubled times. love to you - and all, violet Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 20, 2008 Report Share Posted November 20, 2008 Dear Isabelle, Thank you so much for your message, it is so nice to start the day with a cup of Divine Nectar and Bliss. with Love nicole--- On Wed, 19/11/08, Isabelle Morgan <isabelle..morgan wrote: Isabelle Morgan <isabelle.morgan A little thought from France Date: Wednesday, 19 November, 2008, 5:25 PM Dear Jagbir, Violet and all I can't read all your emails on the forum because I'm too busy but I try to keep in touch with most of your "discoveries" . Here's a little post to share my latest feelings : First, let me tell you that I share most of the conclusions you reach, I've had similar experiences to yours, and all your postings about spiritual, historical, sociological topics etc... are always a great comfort and a great help to keep a global view of "what's going on out there", and bring proof that our global consciousness is rising. I also enjoy immensly the videos, music, etc.. you share with us on the Forum (thank you so much Jagbir for your post about Khwaja Mere Khwaja (Jodhaa Akbar) : I've become a fan and I regularly listen to that song and other Rahnman's ones : they give me so much joy and put me a great mood for days !! Now, on a more "gloomy" topic, the SY Organization : reading the latest Forum posts, my attention was recently caught by the name "Patrick Lantoin" : he used to be the French "leader" about 20 years ago. He was an absolute "nutter". I saw him and heard him once, in 1994, when he was not the leader anymore, but he had come to the rescue of the new "leader" of the time, another nutter whose name was Antonio. Antonio's leadership was being challenged by a man and his Indian wife (who were my friends and left the collective since, as I did). My friend had found out that Antonio was using SY money for his personal use and threatened Antonio that he was going to tell Shri Mataji. A collective havan was then organised to "destroy" the negativity which was attacking the French leader. My friends were thrown "in the fire"... and Lantoin gave an apocalyptical speech which mesmerized the bleating French SYs : The end of the world was near, and Sahaja Yoga was the new ark which was going to save all the lost sinners from destruction. We had to go on board and be faithful to our "Captain", (who, in his words, was the leader of the French collective). In a vibrant and moving tone, he fell at the knees of the leader and said "Antonio, my Captain, I know you will take us to safe shores. I trust you, I'm your loyal friend..." I was very "new" in SY at the time, and I naively tried to tell a few SYs that in my opinion, the Captain was not "the leader", but our own Kundalini who had been awakened by the grace of our Holy Mother... I was told to keep my thoughts for myself, as what I was saying was dangerous and I could be "thrown out" of SY. I weakly protested that for me, there was no "in" or "out", as the kingdom of God was definitely inside of us... I couldn't undestand either why all those "yogis" were "worshipping" Antonio when I couldn't even get close to him because I was getting so much heat and pain in my heart. We were obviously not feeling the same types of "vibrations" ... A couple of years later, Shri Mataji "threw" Antonio out of SY, and he was replaced by Majid Golpur... That's when I decided to leave the Collective because I had finally understood that this "external" organization was a kind of illusion. It was not he real stuff. It had become clear to me that Shri Matajii was keeping all these negative people (the Pauls and Peters etc.. of Christ time) in her web of illusion; she actually once had said it was better for the whole world that she kept them "near her physical being" : that's where they were the less damaging. She also said in a Navaratri Puja talk that the only way for the Goddess to destry the negativity is to let it become "blinded by its own ego and power" . (I feel that's what's happening now. The SY Religion is blinded by itself and has no relation whatsoever with the real "awakening") . It took me years (and the suppport of faithful friends like Nicole and my "oucast" Indian friend ) to fully accept my own inner "understanding" of SY. During those years of inner struggle, I had many visions and dreams in which the Adi Shakti comforted and helped me. Trying to understand what was going on in the SY Organization and why my "view" was so different from "theirs"" was a real torture at times. The las time I saw Shri Mataji at the airport, in Paris (back in 2000 I think) , she told a young "Yogi" who had been Antonio's right nad man : "What's Antonio doing here, still ?" The young man protested ansd said : "Mother, he's not here anymore, you told him to go away". But She insisted : "Antonio is still here". Nobody understood.. . I did : Antonio was still possessing the minds and hearts of the whole French SY collectivity. They were not free from him. They still probably aren't... So that's why I share your conclusions that we have nothing to do with the SY Organization anymore; bute at the same time, let's not forget that this Organization has a role to play in the global Divine plan. Otherwise, it would not have been created. In one beautiful "vision" I had in my years of doubt and struggle : I was feeling scared and sad because I didn't understand what was going on with the SY collectivity. The Adi Shakti was sitting under a tree, on a throne. She told me to sit in front of Her and She asked me why I was so sad. "Because they're making a mess of your teachinf, of your Advent. And because I feel useless, powerless and scared. She smiled at me and told me to touch the ground with my forehead, by Her feet, which I did. She then put one foot at the back of my head. A stream of liquid Bliss and Light poured down into my whole being. I stayed there, at the Adi Shakti's feet, for quite a while. It was absolute Bliss. When She removed her foot, I looked back up at Her. I was feeling totally cleansed, pure, joyous... She gave me a beaming smile and said : "You see, problems and sadness don't exist !" This is one of the great blessings She gave me. I recall this wonderful vison whenever I forget who She is, and who I am (and that happens all the time !!) : She is the Adi Shakti, I'm Her child, and all I have to do is to keep Her happy by maintaining myself in the Bliss and Joy She wants us all to attain. The rest will get cleared up by Her grace. It's only by maintaining ourselves freely in the position She gave us that we are doing our "job". And that's not easy !! I feel this is also the role of this Forum : to help and support each other in our quest to maintain our faith and balance in these troubled times. With much Love to you all Isabelle Add more friends to your messenger and enjoy! Invite them now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 22, 2008 Report Share Posted November 22, 2008 Dear Isabelle, Thank you for sharing it with us and i agree with Nicole that it is truly amzing to start my day too. I felt vibrations from my nabhi and upwards. Soooo nice. Have a great weekend. much love to all, christy BOUGANTOUCHE Nicole <nicole_bougantouche Sent: Thursday, November 20, 2008 3:18:47 PMRe: A little thought from France Dear Isabelle, Thank you so much for your message, it is so nice to start the day with a cup of Divine Nectar and Bliss. with Love nicole--- On Wed, 19/11/08, Isabelle Morgan <isabelle..morgan@ libertysurf. fr> wrote: Isabelle Morgan <isabelle.morgan@ libertysurf. .fr>[adishakti_sahaja_ yoga] A little thought from Franceadishakti_sahaja_ yoga@ .comWednesday, 19 November, 2008, 5:25 PM Dear Jagbir, Violet and all I can't read all your emails on the forum because I'm too busy but I try to keep in touch with most of your "discoveries" . Here's a little post to share my latest feelings : First, let me tell you that I share most of the conclusions you reach, I've had similar experiences to yours, and all your postings about spiritual, historical, sociological topics etc... are always a great comfort and a great help to keep a global view of "what's going on out there", and bring proof that our global consciousness is rising. I also enjoy immensly the videos, music, etc.. you share with us on the Forum (thank you so much Jagbir for your post about Khwaja Mere Khwaja (Jodhaa Akbar) : I've become a fan and I regularly listen to that song and other Rahnman's ones : they give me so much joy and put me a great mood for days !! Now, on a more "gloomy" topic, the SY Organization : reading the latest Forum posts, my attention was recently caught by the name "Patrick Lantoin" : he used to be the French "leader" about 20 years ago. He was an absolute "nutter". I saw him and heard him once, in 1994, when he was not the leader anymore, but he had come to the rescue of the new "leader" of the time, another nutter whose name was Antonio. Antonio's leadership was being challenged by a man and his Indian wife (who were my friends and left the collective since, as I did). My friend had found out that Antonio was using SY money for his personal use and threatened Antonio that he was going to tell Shri Mataji. A collective havan was then organised to "destroy" the negativity which was attacking the French leader. My friends were thrown "in the fire"... and Lantoin gave an apocalyptical speech which mesmerized the bleating French SYs : The end of the world was near, and Sahaja Yoga was the new ark which was going to save all the lost sinners from destruction. We had to go on board and be faithful to our "Captain", (who, in his words, was the leader of the French collective). In a vibrant and moving tone, he fell at the knees of the leader and said "Antonio, my Captain, I know you will take us to safe shores. I trust you, I'm your loyal friend..." I was very "new" in SY at the time, and I naively tried to tell a few SYs that in my opinion, the Captain was not "the leader", but our own Kundalini who had been awakened by the grace of our Holy Mother... I was told to keep my thoughts for myself, as what I was saying was dangerous and I could be "thrown out" of SY. I weakly protested that for me, there was no "in" or "out", as the kingdom of God was definitely inside of us... I couldn't undestand either why all those "yogis" were "worshipping" Antonio when I couldn't even get close to him because I was getting so much heat and pain in my heart. We were obviously not feeling the same types of "vibrations" ... A couple of years later, Shri Mataji "threw" Antonio out of SY, and he was replaced by Majid Golpur... That's when I decided to leave the Collective because I had finally understood that this "external" organization was a kind of illusion. It was not he real stuff. It had become clear to me that Shri Matajii was keeping all these negative people (the Pauls and Peters etc.. of Christ time) in her web of illusion; she actually once had said it was better for the whole world that she kept them "near her physical being" : that's where they were the less damaging. She also said in a Navaratri Puja talk that the only way for the Goddess to destry the negativity is to let it become "blinded by its own ego and power" . (I feel that's what's happening now. The SY Religion is blinded by itself and has no relation whatsoever with the real "awakening") . It took me years (and the suppport of faithful friends like Nicole and my "oucast" Indian friend ) to fully accept my own inner "understanding" of SY. During those years of inner struggle, I had many visions and dreams in which the Adi Shakti comforted and helped me. Trying to understand what was going on in the SY Organization and why my "view" was so different from "theirs"" was a real torture at times. The las time I saw Shri Mataji at the airport, in Paris (back in 2000 I think) , she told a young "Yogi" who had been Antonio's right nad man : "What's Antonio doing here, still ?" The young man protested ansd said : "Mother, he's not here anymore, you told him to go away". But She insisted : "Antonio is still here". Nobody understood.. . I did : Antonio was still possessing the minds and hearts of the whole French SY collectivity. They were not free from him. They still probably aren't... So that's why I share your conclusions that we have nothing to do with the SY Organization anymore; bute at the same time, let's not forget that this Organization has a role to play in the global Divine plan. Otherwise, it would not have been created. In one beautiful "vision" I had in my years of doubt and struggle : I was feeling scared and sad because I didn't understand what was going on with the SY collectivity. The Adi Shakti was sitting under a tree, on a throne. She told me to sit in front of Her and She asked me why I was so sad. "Because they're making a mess of your teachinf, of your Advent. And because I feel useless, powerless and scared. She smiled at me and told me to touch the ground with my forehead, by Her feet, which I did. She then put one foot at the back of my head. A stream of liquid Bliss and Light poured down into my whole being. I stayed there, at the Adi Shakti's feet, for quite a while. It was absolute Bliss. When She removed her foot, I looked back up at Her. I was feeling totally cleansed, pure, joyous... She gave me a beaming smile and said : "You see, problems and sadness don't exist !" This is one of the great blessings She gave me. I recall this wonderful vison whenever I forget who She is, and who I am (and that happens all the time !!) : She is the Adi Shakti, I'm Her child, and all I have to do is to keep Her happy by maintaining myself in the Bliss and Joy She wants us all to attain. The rest will get cleared up by Her grace. It's only by maintaining ourselves freely in the position She gave us that we are doing our "job". And that's not easy !! I feel this is also the role of this Forum : to help and support each other in our quest to maintain our faith and balance in these troubled times. With much Love to you all Isabelle Add more friends to your messenger and enjoy! Invite them now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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