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HI!!!,

This universe is so beautiful, but yet, we don't treat it as such. WE polute it, we dig the minerals out of it, we cut down it's trees, and a million other things. We have to blast out into space, because we have a hunger for imformation, instead of just leaving the outer universe a secret. This is what humanity does, in return for the love of the universe. One day, look outside, or even in your house or the building you are in, first the nature, the trees, the grass, the rocks, and everthing else around. The chirping of the birds, the sounds of the animals around you. The sunlight, the wind.

Feel all of these, feel them very well. Picture the universe as made with golden loving energy, just as with that meditation. But, this time, don't get as in to it as you did before, stay right here, in your own home. In your own yard. Look at the beauty. The wonderful beauty. Now, I am going to ask you a question. Do you believe in magick? Do you believe that magick exists? The magick of the universe?, the magick of life? Think about this.

Think hard.

Now, think of a fear, I think it was you Rob, who said fear turns into anger? Yes, it was you. This is true, so think of a fear. Now, tear at it, what is the cause of that fear?, what is the real fear? For instance, I am afraid of tornadoes. This was a few years ago. My aunt was watching me. I was sleeping, taking a nap, and I woke up. It was raining terribly. So, my grandmother called and said there was a tornado warning. My aunt was very scared, and that didn't confort me, so I was scared also. Afraid to me, afraid for my mother. Terrified for my mother. It rained more and more, wind, a lot of wind, thunder, lightening, all of that. I was sure there would be a tornado. Possative.

That experience was a terrible one, and now, every time it rains, I think that in any minute, my grandmother will call, and say, There is a tornado warning. Or, maybe she won't even call, maybe she won't know about it, and maybe it will come, and tear up my house, distroy, and maybe, I will be hurt, maybe badly hurt, maybe it will kill me. That thought doesn't bother me as much as the thought of that same thing hapening to my mother. Just the mere thought of it makes me want to cry. Makes me want to just fall over, just give up, and cry. It is a terrible thought, and it makes me feel terrible.

My friend who helped me with my fear said that I must be afraid of death, not tornadoes. This is what I mean by the actual fear. I'm not afraid of tornadoes, but I am afraid of death, or pain. When he said this, that I was afraid of death, and he started ripping at my shield, I felt very terrible, I just wanted to scream or something. Now, this is a writing for this list, but I am going to ask you how I can rip at this fear myself? By the time he was almost finished, first, i would have let go of the fear then, just let it out. but my mother was there, sitting on the couch, watching, well watching Television, but she is very sensative, and I didn't want to make her feel bad. So, how can I do this myself? thank you.

Anyway, see the magick of the universe, let it help you with your fear. Do whatever you can to let go of the fear. Keep this magick thought, that the universe is magick, with you all the time. Please, that will help. a lot.

 

Blessed be

Leaf