Guest guest Posted April 13, 2003 Report Share Posted April 13, 2003 Hi Onnika .. nice to meet you ) My brush with physical death came when I had acute pelvic peritonitis, critically ill for 4 days, in hospital for 5 weeks .. on the day I was discharged the doctor sat on the end of my bed and shook his head at me, saying " you shouldnt be here, Ive had patients who werent half as sick as you were, and they died " . I dont remember much about it all, apart from the pain. I awoke with incredibly sore teeth, which I later worked out was from gritting my teeth against the pain. I also have memory of " me " floating above my body, quite near to the ceiling. " Me " found that body just too painful to be in, so it stepped out for a while. Events like this do tend to make you think about who " me " is and why you didnt die. So many questions, and there are no answers, it just happened ) > There is no boredom in life. There is always boredom in imagining life. I like this Onnika .. thankyou. Im sorry to hear your lost your old horse I bet you miss him/her dreadfully. Ive got a 27 year old ex brood mare Katrina who is a magnificent sway backed old hag, these days she teaches my 14 mth old Khaan manners (he's not her foal). She does it well too, far better than I can. Well I hope your eyes get to feast on many beautiful horses Onnika, arent Arabs special? blessings on you .. deb > Hello, Deb, I liked that post because it was interesting ). > > When you said you couldn't die, did you mean it literally, as in the > getting eaten by the worms kind of death? If so, don't die, simplify. > There is no boredom in life. There is always boredom in imagining > life. > > I love the Christian song I grew up with in my old presbyterian > church, " In the Garden " . It starts with, " I come to the garden > alone " and then it gets all happy and implies that Jesus is there > walking and talking with 'I'. It's that alone part. All the > imaginary friends have to stay home with everything else. Alone, > utterly alone, the senses are clear, the emotions restored, and > there's such a life returned that it does seem like " He " is every > molecule and movement of light and sound. With no past and no future > and no space beyond that projected by my own eyes, there is life and > it seems that all the boredom was just the desire to live instead of > imagine myself living. > > I like the Arabian horses, too, though. My old horse died two weeks > ago and I won't have another one except for every one that I happen > to see. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 13, 2003 Report Share Posted April 13, 2003 <I also have memory of " me " floating above my body, quite > near to the ceiling. " Me " found that body just too painful to be in, so it > stepped out for a while. Events like this do tend to make you think about > who " me " is and why you didnt die> Yes, they do. Such events are key shapers of thought even when you don't try to mull them over. <Ive got a 27 year old ex brood mare Katrina who is a magnificent sway backed > old hag, these days she teaches my 14 mth old Khaan manners (he's not her > foal). She does it well too, far better than I can. Well I hope your eyes > get to feast on many beautiful horses Onnika, arent Arabs special?> Yes, my old guy will probably return as a straight laced old human teacher that keeps a tray of cookies by his chair in the evenings while he watches Animal Planet. On the hand, there's probably alot of Hindus who've had to return to life as an Arabian horse because they are fascinating to watch ;o) Realization , " deb " <willett@h...> wrote: > Hi Onnika .. nice to meet you ) > > My brush with physical death came when I had acute pelvic peritonitis, > critically ill for 4 days, in hospital for 5 weeks .. on the day I was > discharged the doctor sat on the end of my bed and shook his head at me, > saying " you shouldnt be here, Ive had patients who werent half as sick as > you were, and they died " . > > I dont remember much about it all, apart from the pain. I awoke with > incredibly sore teeth, which I later worked out was from gritting my teeth > against the pain. I also have memory of " me " floating above my body, quite > near to the ceiling. " Me " found that body just too painful to be in, so it > stepped out for a while. Events like this do tend to make you think about > who " me " is and why you didnt die. > > So many questions, and there are no answers, it just happened ) > > > There is no boredom in life. There is always boredom in imagining life. > I like this Onnika .. thankyou. > > Im sorry to hear your lost your old horse I bet you miss him/her dreadfully. > Ive got a 27 year old ex brood mare Katrina who is a magnificent sway backed > old hag, these days she teaches my 14 mth old Khaan manners (he's not her > foal). She does it well too, far better than I can. Well I hope your eyes > get to feast on many beautiful horses Onnika, arent Arabs special? > > blessings on you .. deb > > > Hello, Deb, I liked that post because it was interesting ). > > > > When you said you couldn't die, did you mean it literally, as in the > > getting eaten by the worms kind of death? If so, don't die, simplify. > > There is no boredom in life. There is always boredom in imagining > > life. > > > > I love the Christian song I grew up with in my old presbyterian > > church, " In the Garden " . It starts with, " I come to the garden > > alone " and then it gets all happy and implies that Jesus is there > > walking and talking with 'I'. It's that alone part. All the > > imaginary friends have to stay home with everything else. Alone, > > utterly alone, the senses are clear, the emotions restored, and > > there's such a life returned that it does seem like " He " is every > > molecule and movement of light and sound. With no past and no future > > and no space beyond that projected by my own eyes, there is life and > > it seems that all the boredom was just the desire to live instead of > > imagine myself living. > > > > I like the Arabian horses, too, though. My old horse died two weeks > > ago and I won't have another one except for every one that I happen > > to see. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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