[Realization; Namaste can anyone tell me what I experienced 5.-5-1974

April 17, 2003

Subj: Hi David, In search of someone who has experienced God-Realization! 4/16/2003 2:39:24 AM Central Daylight Time Sai Poimandres dgodman File: SaiDicoji.jpg (980247 bytes) DL Time (50666 bps): < 5 minutes

Hello David, Namaskaram's,

I hope you are well and in God Spirit; as you last namah seem to indicatge. I do hope to read your books for I especially feel a very keen kinship with Ramana Maharshi. Perhap's you can suggest one of your books that talks about the experience of God-realization. And at this time I wanted to know if you know the difference of experienceing Parashiva and Satchidananda. I have come across these terms in the Himalyan Course taught by Satguru Subramouniyasawmi, whom I met here in Salt Lake City in 1996. I also study the Sivananada lessons each day!

Can you possible tell me what I experienced on May 5 1974 between the hours of 9:00 a.m. and Noon. I will make this as short as possible for you convenience and maybe you or someone you know has experienced what I come to realize is God Realization! Actually I was preparing my self by fasting two weeks and before the two weeks were up this came about and I have been studying over the last 28 year's what might have occurred.

I was about to go into my studies and contemplations at the dining room table when I felt as if a clad or shield had fallen off of my heart. At that moment I felt my arms and legs had a sintlating burning feeling rising up leaving them feeling nume. I decided to try to make it to the front verrada to give thanks to God. I was very weak and made it out side, yet I was very calm, no fear. I rested my head down to the deck with my knees below me and realized with each breath became shorter and shortger to which point it stopped and I felt a movement in my solorplexes like a large swirling ball. Immediately then I felt as if this swirling motion left my body in a sound of the ocean, or a pillar of light ascended from my back side. Within my mind or conciousness I saw a spark a golden light moving up from the center of my forehead, a kind of shimmering star with even a tail; suddenly everything bursted into clear light, yet there was no visable matterial existence before me. As I lowered my vision, I noticed a personage of light; I was curious what was going on, I had no idea that I was consicousness it self witnessing this event. Without thought or movement I positioned my vision head to head with this personage of radiant light, very much what is called the golden body! I was at the right side of him/her looking into his countenance; He was gazing out over the horizon. I was very intently examining his features; He had golden hair which fell over his shoulders; he was wearing a garment of illuminus white with a yoki collar and the gown fell to his wrist and down past his waistg, with no belt or sash! To say the least he was glorious, supreme beautiful, more beautiful than anything or anyone on this earth plane. Yet, I was aware that in his presence nothing else existed, only him. As I moved to the left side of him, he was still looking straight ahead; I was astonished, realizing that it was my own Self; yet a thousand more time amplified in light and glory, so God like and statue-ess, above human stature. How can this be, I would ask myself later, there seem to be no time or space; he was all emcompassing. I moved to the right of Him again, studying every facet of his perfection. After some time I noticed a downward movement as as he appeared to be decending back into the body, he turned to me being pure conscioussess or the eye of That; and he smiled and jestured with his open palms lifting his forarms, somewhat suggesting or influencing me to return, which I did without thought. As the Personage or Spirit; He was not translucent; he was of some other substance for their was nothing but he for nothing else was in existence. As he was moving or decending I managed to pull myself up and stood up and balanced myself or this third story veradda. And before opening my eye's I held my arms up and palsm up as he had and I felt as if every atom and cell in my body was being awakened, quickened as if each was a individual entity itself and when I opened my eyes, it felt like every atom in me opened their eye's also! I was as a spirial of energy or light force within awakening for the first time. Everything was glorious around me; a new world had been born. I noticed a red roadadendrum at the far end of the pool, three to five stories down; and I could feel the flower turning to me as if it was a little child and then it seemed to know who I was and light from the flower, the trees, the sound (Puget Sound in Seattle Wa) everything seemed to have awareness of who or what I was and light's flew up from them and lights from my body seemed to pour out of every pore of my skin, light magnet coming together, dancing and swirling together up and down; it was if it was some celestial event; colors, movement, celebration, joy, bliss! Even to this day I feel somewhat impregnated with this event, this knowingness, this reality and feeling that this world we live in is only illusion. I went inside and went to the piano and picked up some music I wanted to learn; as I opened the music I noticed the notes began to play, I could hear the music, each note, the whole melody in my head. I went back to the dinning room table and opened the bible and again this swoosh of light or knowingness penetrated my eyes and head, I knew everything I needed to know without words or knowingness. David, I was 26 years of age, planning to be married, and just being in tghe LDS Church for less than a year, and this happens to me; I was like a new born child without a mentor or anyone to explain this to me. I had become God-possessed ever since then I seemed to be traveling on a road of light; everyone and everything I meet is myself or God. I am in love with God. Now some 28 years later I am so connected to God, I seem to devour Him and feed Him and He devours Me and feeds Me!

And so David, since that time I have been lead down the road to Hinduism which seems to be exactly where I should be. I love Ramana Maharishi; he gives me those same feelings I had on that day May 5 1974. It's a knowingness, when I read his writing, I feel and know whatg he is saying comes from God Brahman. In 1996 I met Satguru Subramouniyasawmi, before living the meeting hall with his protages, he stopped before me and looked into my eyes and smiled and said, "Beautiful, very Beautiful, I learned some five year's later this must by what they call darshan, the glance from the Guru! I feel alone most of the time in the world; yet I feel God with me every moment! I wanted to join an ashram, but many only take the very young boys! What do you think! If you would get back to me, you may be enlightened to tell me what was this experience all about! It seems I have become a renunciate, studying day and night; doing japa and morning sadhana's; praying for people and the world; looking for God Realized individuals. You would be a savior if you can write to me. Enclosed is a picture taken 10 year's ago and 18 year's after the auspicious event. Thank you, David fore you attention, I am drawn very much to the name of David all my life; I guess it is because I have always wanted a relationship as David and Johnathan had in the bible, ha! Please get back with me as soon as you can, here in Salt Lake City 1-801-261-1878. Thank you most sincerely, I don't even have a guruji, yet!

In Auspicious Oneness,

From you own Self,

Sai Dicoji Sacayanan ( Vijnanadicoji Sakiyamaniyama