disturbing observations

June 12, 2003

Hi Paul, this is indeed curious and I can understand why you would find it

disconcerting. I dont know why it happened, maybe tied up with your use of

marijuana and body altering drugs somehow. You say you have " lost a sense " ,

someone please correct me but didnt Ramana say the " psychic " senses were all

related to the ego? From my own experiences, Ive found when you begin to

have enlightenment " experiences " such as you have described to us here with

your kundalini postings and now this one, your reality as you know it, is

opened for new experiences, invited and uninvited, body related and mind

related, and its anything goes ) all past bets are off, come jump on the

rollercoaster .. you are freeing your mind, and some weird things do happen.

Is this any help Paul? blessings and love .. deb x x x

> Hi All,

>

> Ever since 11/2/02, when I took a megadose of

> supplements to " cure " stress and TMJ I have noticed

> the following:

>

> When I get up behind people, they don't know I am

> there, not until I actually physically touch the

> person or animal. I also don't feel other's presences

> when they are near me, I find I often kick my cat by

> accident as a result. Somehow I think I have damaged

> my ability to feel and give off emf. Does anyone have

> any speculation on this? Is it a reversible effect?

> Or once it is lost, do I have to wait until death and

> hope someday I " feel " like a normal entity again? I

> must say it really sucks to be this way.

>

> It is like I have lost a sense. A good way to

> describe it is you know how you just " know " that

> someone or something is behind you? Well I don't get

> that anymore. I also remember that last summer when I

> was trying to " cure " depression I would go running

> everyday for an hour. What I failed to investigate

> but did notice back then was that people running a

> good 10-20 feet in front of me, were moving to the

> side before I got to them. I used to think, " Is my

> breath that loud? " Also, I would ask questions to my

> friend and a stranger would answer me, even though the

> stranger was sitting a good 10-20 feet away. I

> remember asking my friend one time, " Why did he

> answer? Am I talking too loud? " And she said, " No. "

> But I didn't believe her, I was convinced I talked too

> loud because I had a hard time hearing myself talk in

> those days. I would be at restaurants and bars and I

> wouldn't be able to hear a word people were saying

> without leaning in and cupping my ear and paying

> incredible attention to them. It was frustrating and

> depressing. It was driving me nuts, it is partly to

> blame for my reckless self-healing. However, I would

> here the " din " of the places, I would hear everyone

> else's conversations above me, like a cloud of 20

> conversations going on at once, but I wouldn't be able

> to discern particulars, and I wouldn't be able to hear

> the person sitting 2 feet away from me! I had so much

> stuff happening to me, I can't believe I never once

> investigated things to see what was really going on.

> I was so clueless and oblivious. Well, I just needed

> to get this off of my chest. Thanks for listening

> everyone.

>

> -Paul

June 12, 2003

Hi Deb,

I agree with you, I feel it is due to all the

body/mind altering things I did, especially the drugs

and acupuncture. It is hard for me to believe that I

needed this to happen to me, but I guess I did, since

I think it has already happened and this is just one

part of me experiencing as this incarnation.

My experience isn't even a rollercoaster anymore, it

is now just a pretty flat lifeless being of existence.

What really gets my craw is how exciting the world is

right now, but I can't feel the energy of it. I mean,

so many things I had ignored, dismissed, or thought

about but didn't pursue are out there that I truly

believe now like alien abductions, UFOs, astrology,

numerology, 2012, metaphysics, auras, telepathy,

OOBEs, reincarnation, afterlife, you name it. This

stuff is so cool! And I hardly feel much about it.

Mostly it is because I just can't feel the emotions

much anymore. Also because I feel I know that it is

just more stuff in the whole cosmic consciousness, but

it is really cool that it is all coming together now

like a kaleidoscope in the sky.

To all of you out there, enjoy this exciting time in

the universe, I wish I could!

Take care,

Paul

--- deb <willett wrote:

> Hi Paul, this is indeed curious and I can understand

> why you would find it

> disconcerting. I dont know why it happened, maybe

> tied up with your use of

> marijuana and body altering drugs somehow. You say

> you have " lost a sense " ,

> someone please correct me but didnt Ramana say the

> " psychic " senses were all

> related to the ego? From my own experiences, Ive

> found when you begin to

> have enlightenment " experiences " such as you have

> described to us here with

> your kundalini postings and now this one, your

> reality as you know it, is

> opened for new experiences, invited and uninvited,

> body related and mind

> related, and its anything goes ) all past bets are

> off, come jump on the

> rollercoaster .. you are freeing your mind, and some

> weird things do happen.

> Is this any help Paul? blessings and love .. deb x x

> x

>

> > Hi All,

> >

> > Ever since 11/2/02, when I took a megadose of

> > supplements to " cure " stress and TMJ I have

> noticed

> > the following:

> >

> > When I get up behind people, they don't know I am

> > there, not until I actually physically touch the

> > person or animal. I also don't feel other's

> presences

> > when they are near me, I find I often kick my cat

> by

> > accident as a result. Somehow I think I have

> damaged

> > my ability to feel and give off emf. Does anyone

> have

> > any speculation on this? Is it a reversible

> effect?

> > Or once it is lost, do I have to wait until death

> and

> > hope someday I " feel " like a normal entity again?

> I

> > must say it really sucks to be this way.

> >

> > It is like I have lost a sense. A good way to

> > describe it is you know how you just " know " that

> > someone or something is behind you? Well I don't

> get

> > that anymore. I also remember that last summer

> when I

> > was trying to " cure " depression I would go running

> > everyday for an hour. What I failed to

> investigate

> > but did notice back then was that people running a

> > good 10-20 feet in front of me, were moving to the

> > side before I got to them. I used to think, " Is

> my

> > breath that loud? " Also, I would ask questions to

> my

> > friend and a stranger would answer me, even though

> the

> > stranger was sitting a good 10-20 feet away. I

> > remember asking my friend one time, " Why did he

> > answer? Am I talking too loud? " And she said,

> " No. "

> > But I didn't believe her, I was convinced I talked

> too

> > loud because I had a hard time hearing myself talk

> in

> > those days. I would be at restaurants and bars

> and I

> > wouldn't be able to hear a word people were saying

> > without leaning in and cupping my ear and paying

> > incredible attention to them. It was frustrating

> and

> > depressing. It was driving me nuts, it is partly

> to

> > blame for my reckless self-healing. However, I

> would

> > here the " din " of the places, I would hear

> everyone

> > else's conversations above me, like a cloud of 20

> > conversations going on at once, but I wouldn't be

> able

> > to discern particulars, and I wouldn't be able to

> hear

> > the person sitting 2 feet away from me! I had so

> much

> > stuff happening to me, I can't believe I never

> once

> > investigated things to see what was really going

> on.

> > I was so clueless and oblivious. Well, I just

> needed

> > to get this off of my chest. Thanks for listening

> > everyone.

> >

> > -Paul

>

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June 13, 2003

Realization , Paul Sheridan <sheridanpj>

wrote:

> To all of you out there, enjoy this exciting time in

> the universe, I wish I could!

>

> Take care,

> Paul

Oohh wallow, wallow, squelch, squelch yuck!

Don't tell me you're not enjoying yourself, sitting there on your

mega pity pot. Your so special and your pain is just so much worse

than anyone elses!

Great postings - keep it up - its good seeing deb do her nursey

nursey bit as well - oh the pathetic triteness of it all!

Big hugs

Tanya x.

June 13, 2003

Tanya's here to liven up the group

Studied with JUDI got her poop

Are those who note pathetic triteness

Stuck in a black hole without brightness?

She wont reply to Alton on his list

Is she quite jealous or only pissed?

Alton loves Tanya the way she is.

Realization , Paul Sheridan <sheridanpj> wrote:> To all of you out there, enjoy this exciting time in> the universe, I wish I could!> > Take care,> PaulOohh wallow, wallow, squelch, squelch yuck!Don't tell me you're not enjoying yourself, sitting there on your mega pity pot. Your so special and your pain is just so much worse than anyone elses!Great postings - keep it up - its good seeing deb do her nursey nursey bit as well - oh the pathetic triteness of it all!Big hugsTanya x...........INFORMATION ABOUT THIS LIST..........Email addresses: Post message: Realization Un: Realization- Our web address: http://www.realization.orgBy sending a message to this list, you are givingpermission to have it reproduced as a letter onhttp://www.realization.org................................................