Attn Janet

December 18, 2004

Hi Alton Slater/KomoKasha, (Alton in the name of a town near where I live - Hampshire. UK) You write:

** Hi Janet:

If you dont mind me jumping in because I have many names.

The Komo Kasha one is going to be my name again as soon as inheritance issues are in the past.

Feel free to jump!

So Komo Kasha is your favorite of several names? Do you want to sound Japanese/exotic? What is wrong with your original name?No judgment being passed here. Just curious.

**Hi Janet Kennedy:

My wife thought my name was unique until it started turning up all over the place.

Sorry for the skipping of lines but that is what happened when I unwrapped on so that I may respond to all relevant issues on this board in quick time.

Looking back over my life I see that all my apparent choices were fated events that REALLY I had no volitional choice over. When we started doing all the dietary cleansing 30 years ago my eyes started to discharge. Doctors could not find out why. (I later learned it was the liver unblocking all that cruddy stuff). I started chanting Nam yo ho rengay Kyo from the Nisherin Shoshu spiritual group. The name was on their chanting scroll. I had my wife who was a lawyer go to court in Santa Monica and change it legally. Well I started having stomach pains a psychic said that It was like the akash and too much for me to handle, so I changed it back to Alton Slater. Now after a lot more than 6000 hours of meditation I am ready to try again when indicated.

As you may know, in the early theatre the characters wore masks, rather than make-up, and the cast list was called the 'dramatis personae' - persona being the word for mask. The personality, then, is the 'mask' behind which the Oneness hides from Itself. Isn't having more than one name rather like wearing a mask on top of a mask? And there's no one there anyway!

How do you know there is no one there anyway? Have you experienced that for yourself or are you a true believer? If you have experienced that for yourself, please tell us all about it in detail. There are hordes of folks on the NET that claim Realization but wont share when you ask questions about the details. I vow that what ever abidance I am in I will answer all questions concerning that. That is why I like U.G Krishnamurti. He tells in great detail about his Calamity.

**What anyone is doing is like every other events in life. It is just happening according to the Universal so far unknown laws of cause and effect.

You are right. It just all happens. It is as it is.

**your abiding in the teachings of Tony Parsons are that too.

Yes. Except that he doesn't set himself up as a teacher, because there was the realization that there was no one there. It is the same thing as one of your recent quotes:

I have read some of Tony and he seems to act the part of a teacher, even though he may claim not to.

**because the experiencer was finished: there was nobody to experience that death at all

No one has the experience of Awakening, because Awakening is the dropping away of the experiencer.

Again is this something you believe? If not will you answer some questions about that dropping away?

What is happening with you seems to involve a lot of effort, taking meditation to extremes. It is as it is, of course. With 'me' it is the opposite. There is nothing to do, save allowing everything to be as it is. Your efforting brought to mind one of Nisargadatta's sayings

"Unless you make tremendous efforts, you will not be convinced that effort will take you nowhere. The self is so self-confident that unless it is totally discouraged it will not give up. Mere verbal conviction is not enough. Hard facts alone can show the absolute nothingness of the self-image. "

One can find anything in Nisargadatta to prove a point just like the bible.

I read and typed in a tremendous amount of Nisargadatta and the final entry through the doorway to the absolute may be like that but to get to the doorway takes much effort and training. At a certain point there is no longer effort according to Ramana, but we have to get to that point by effort.

Do you work on yourself to neutralize defilements of the mind. Anger, greed etc? Do you have the ability to regain you equanimity in a flash in the event that your emotional cup tips over and makes a mess?

That may not be what you are interested in, but I am, so I train. My training has so far been very fruitful. More and more love each day for all beings. My heart opens on a regular basis and it feels great. I rarely get angry. My health and energy at 68 is at the highest in my life. My attention power although it still needs a lot of work has improved significantly since childhood when it was in great deficit and basically I am very happy. Now I know that this good fortune may not last so I continue to train to be able to attain the state where I am above the body and mind. When I can take the pain that Ramana and Nisargadatta experienced and have no more defilements my training is completed.

.... though interestingly, you quote him to support your stance when you say

**All I want to do is train because of my core belief of "with training you can do anything as per Nisargadatta.

I am reminded of a story of the Buddha. On his travels he came across a monk who proudly reported that after 25 years of effort he could now walk on water. The Buddha was unimpressed, "For a penny you could have taken the ferry."

Tony Parsons maintains that meditators who Awaken, only do so after they have given up!

Awakening, Realization, heaven, raising out of the grave when Christ comes back, does not attract me in the slightest. I see those concepts as enslaving.

I train to remove energy knots so that LOVE shines from me. I train for a more powerful mind to accomplish the aforesaid.

Metta,

Alton aka KomoKasha.

Love, Light and Blessings,

Janet