CONSCIOUSNESS AND THE ABSOLUTE: Nov. 21, 1980 Pg 16

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November 21, 1980 Page 16

 

M: Whatever I had thought earlier has now changed, what is happening

now is that even the slightest touch of individual has completely

disappeared, and it is consciousness as such which is spontaneously

experiencing. The result is total freedom. All the time there was

complete conviction that it was consciousness which was experiencing;

but that `I' which the consciousness was experiencing was there. Now

that has totally disappeared; therefore, whatever happens in the

filed of consciousness, I, who am there before consciousness, am not

concerned in any way. The experience is of consciousness experiencing

itself.

 

Nevertheless, understand what consciousness is, even if consciousness

is not an individual. The basis and source of consciousness is in the

material. What I say is still in the conceptual world, and you need

not accept it as truth. Nothing in the conceptual world is true.

 

Once the disease was diagnosed, the very name of the disease started

various thoughts and concepts. Watching those thoughts and concepts I

came to the conclusion that whatever is happening is in the

consciousness. I told the consciousness, " It is you who is suffering,

not I " . If consciousness wants to continue to suffer, let it remain

in the body. If it wants to leave the body, let it. Either way, I am

not concerned.

 

All kinds of things were happening, thoughts and experiences, and

they were credited to my account, but once I have seen what it is,

all those account books have been burned and I no longer have any

account.

 

How amusing it is to see someone who thinks of himself as an

individual, who thinks of himself as a doer or achiever. Whatever is

happening, and the experiencing of the happening, takes place in this

consciousness when the `I Am' arises.