Paul-Happy Suffering!

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You want rigorous honesty, Paul?

 

I was " an addict " for years... I've used every drug you could

possibly think of (including crack cocaine), I attended Narcotics

Anonymous meetings for years, I've been homeless and completely

destitute twice, been through something like SIX in-patient drug

treatments, was diagnosed with panic disorder and " borderline

personality disorder " in the late 80's...

 

So what did i discover? Labeling myself a " recovering addict " didn't

change a damned thing... " myself " was the whole problem. " Me, myself

and I " had to go straight out the window.

 

For the first time in my life, i have *no* vices. None, zero. The

last one (smoking cigarettes) dropped last November. i don't drink,

i don't smoke, the thought of using a drug never even enters my

mind... it sounds like the most uninteresting, idiotic thing in the

world (and I don't attend those idiotic meetings).

 

All my needs are taken care of, and i haven't worked a regular job in

nine years. i have no 'needs' -- even food, clothing and shelter are

purely optional.

 

The " person " who had all those problems no longer exists... so who's

a " recovering addict " now? :-) That " person " no longer exists, never

did exist.

 

I'm sure this post is going to become a classic among 'my detractors'

on this and other boards... maybe it will even be passed through

private Emails, people will look at it smugly and say " we knew there

was something *wrong* with that guy all along " ... LOL. Those who

live in glass houses throw stones at their own peril.

 

There's nobody to care about any of that crap :-). The " one " to whom

all those things happened went up in smoke, burned forever in the

fire of Understanding. The " Tim " who once " existed " is a dim, vague

and fading memory, a dream without substance.

 

Namaste,

 

Tim

 

Nisargadatta, " Paul Cote " <pjcote@l...> wrote:

> > Exactly. Take it off! Take it allllll off!

> > Da-da-da, ta-da-da-da, da, da, da, da.... :-)

> > Yeeah, go for it! <<cat calls>> :-)

> >

> Judi

>

> aint it amazing that rigorous honesty is so related to getting

> naked...

>

> liar liar pants on fire