How to Know Self

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There is a term, " finding yourself " I read somewhere this ought to

occur sometime by the thirties or the mental condition gets worse.

For me I was 30. (Now 45)

 

First, I don't know if everyone starts off lost. I was lost.

 

What happened was after ordeals, I came to believe in God and then

believed that he did everything outside of my direct control. This

is in line with the serenity prayer which says:

 

God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change.

(People, places, situations and things)

 

The Courage to change the things I can (My self (attitude))

 

And the wisdom to know the difference....

 

 

(Difference is I can only change me)...

 

Working wiht this prayer, quickly all of the people I was enraged

towards became " God " or directly controlled by God.

 

That left TWO... Me and God...

 

Then very soon, I met the Guru who gave me the mantra and told me

that I was the Self and to repeat the mantra with the understanding

that the Name of the mantra, MySelf and I were one. When I did that

in meditation, there was a big breakthrough with intense love and

bliss in my heart. This was what I would call " Finding Myself "

Before this, I believed that the love in my heart was caused by outer

objects such as " object of my love " " a woman " .

 

People who I knew such as my father and coworkers told me that I was

changed. Even though I knew I was changed, it was nice to have my

father write me a letter telling me so. Also, an older guy at work

said to me... " Did you break some idols? " Later I learned this guy

used to be a Priest... He worked as an electrician at the shipyard

now... but evidently he had gone through a breakthrough of finding

Himself in his own life.... of breaking the ego idol.

 

After this, I recognized the inner love was " MY SELF " . I also

recognize this love as Divinity Within.

 

So, if you will, this is finding yourself.

 

Still there is practice after this event in order to become

established in Loving, in Loving God which is much higher than just

finding your self. This is the first taste only. Practice is for

ever. Loving Devotional Service. But the chase no longer is on the

outside but on the inside. It is about coming into right

relationship with God Within, with Your Own Self. Obeying your Own

Self. Being True To Yourself, to Your God.

 

This is as it says in the ending of the Bhagavad Gita...

 

Karishye Vachanam Tava...

 

I will do Thy bidding.

 

So self sacrifice is made to (Self or Supreme Divine Being)God as the

ego melts....

 

What is essential is seeing that everything is controlled by God

which is " Believing in God "

 

Either he is everything or nothing. And recognizing that is work of

will. You can will to see everything is controlled by God. The

courage to change the things we can (our minds). And somehow the work

is not our own but is God's because the delusion is of a separate

self... yet we must choose God, choose to do the next right

thing.... and when we do, the bliss returns. So it is like a

training.

 

Thy Will be Done on Earth (as it is in Heaven).

 

Earnestly

 

Paul