To and for Jb

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Jb,

 

You are so defensive as to be inpenetrable! You'd rather attack the

messengers than take in the message. You're like spoiled little kid raising

a ruckus just to get attention and be in control. This is my last response

to you. You try very hard (and are quite successful) to " kidnap " people's

energy and attention to focus on you and your mind fucking. You've been

wired to be a " wagamama " and you sure are living up to it splendidly. By the

way, that's a Japanese word. I wholeheartedly suggest you look it up!

 

You've shown no signs from what I can see of being grateful. You love

being at war. You attack, criticize, complain, and grip. Your postings reek

of narcissism. You enter the list with a " mouthful of gimmes and a handful

of wants. " You are alive and well in me, that is why I know you so well.

Again, thank you for being such a great reminder to me of this tendency in

me so that it can be observed choicelessly and thereby rendered innocuous.

 

I have no ill feelings toward you. Just the opposite, for you are me.

It's simply that your antics don't warrant being the center of attention any

longer. You've been given numerous doses of " medication " which you've

stoically refused to take. I must say, you have definitely earned your

suffering.

 

When I read your rants I'm reminded of little kids (and some older

folks) who are so whimpy whiny complainy, and who feel so " right " about what

they're complaining about, that pretty soon those who have stopped to give a

listening ear to them start to feel like " sucked orange " , drained of their

energy, like their blood's been sucked out of them by a vampire and no

nourishment and nothing positive has been given in exchange. Consequently,

those who have shown care to someone who is obviously hurting realize their

efforts are to no avail so they find ways to either avoid the blood sucker

or they simply have more productive things to do. The result is, the

" wagamama " is left all alone on the playground with no one to play with.

What to do then?????

 

You aren't your antics, Jb. Antics are all garbage. Nothing to hold on

to, let alone argue for and even much less put onto a mantle or altar to be

worshipped. Nothing Holy about them whatsoever. Just " fiber " passing through

your system. It's about surrendering stuffings to infinity from the stance

of Infinity. From that stance, everything is always already surrendered.

Personally speaking, for me the trick is to keep maintaining that stance

until it becomes natural.

 

My heart goes out to you because I think you're in a great deal of pain

and are truly looking for love. The trouble may be that you're looking for

it in all the wrong places in all the wrong (ineffective) ways. Plus, the

love you're looking for doesn't appear to meet your pictures of it, so you

don't feel it. You are loved, Jb. No doubt about it. Besides, who you really

are IS love. That is enlightenment!

 

Again, everything that's written here probably says more about me than

you, Jb. So there's no need to reply with your definise attacks and make

wrongs. Besides, even if you do, I most likely won't even read it. But do as

you will because you can't do otherwise...unless you do!

 

Or so it seems to me.

 

- Michael