The Ultimate Self-Inquiry - Kristof

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Therefore, in our second meditation, we work with the extension of the

Heart which is the mind. Awareness is generated in the mind, within the

head area. Without the brain there is no awareness, at least in our

particular dimension. In our reality, consciousness requires the vehicle of

a physical body and a brain in order to manifest itself. The centre of

awareness, the centre of wakefulness, is located in the middle of the

brain, in the third eye. When awareness is unconscious or rather

semi-conscious, it becomes lost in the subconscious activity of the mind.

This constant thinking which turns a human being into a living computer is

caused by the absence of essential awareness. We are not speaking here

about the awareness of thinking but about awareness as such.

In the awakening of awareness, we differentiate two basic stages. First is

the ability to go beyond the mind by the act of observation or mindfulness.

Here, through the general growth of awareness, you create a certain

distance from the mind. The second stage, which in truth already represents

Awakening, is the direct recognition of pure awareness. This state of

self-awareness, objectless consciousness, we call mindfulness without object.

We begin with a breathing practice. As you inhale, your belly expands and

you bring the breath into your head. Becoming fully present, you recognise

clearly the One who is present. That which is present is pure attention.

That which is You! Upon exhalation you relax into Being.

 

Silence

 

Please now become aware of the thoughts in your mind. The moment you are

aware of thinking, it feels as if it was located on the periphery of the

mind. Feel as if thinking itself was outside of you. Why does it feel like

that? Because the observing intelligence is very close to the centre of

awareness, while thinking is energetically removed from the centre. When

the observing intelligence is active, attention is present automatically.

When you observe you mind, you discover the subject or 'I' which is just

behind the observing intelligence. See it!

We are entering into a very subtle area, the heart of consciousness, the

essence of the mind. You can bypass the mind through expansion into Being,

but the mind will be intact. To transform the mind, you have to enter it

directly. It is like entering a camp of enemies and putting a bomb there.

This bomb is your attention and the explosion of this bomb is

self-awareness. And that which makes this explosion possible is your

intelligence – the power of recognition which turns attention back to itself.

Now you are facing your own mind which is the main problem. And it is about

the time to face it! Isn't it? You are observing the mind with the utmost

focus. You are becoming conscious of the fact that this observing is coming

from a certain place. It is not merely the mind aware of its activity.

There is a certain place from which you observe. That which is observing is

the subtle mind; it is your intelligence. But what is this very attention

behind the observing intelligence. Where are you located in this

observation? Where is your sense of Me? Look inside and find out!

There are two questions. One is: who is doing the observing? The second is:

from which place does observing arise? That which is observing is

intelligence. And the place from which intelligence is able to observe is

the source of awareness. When that which is observing becomes aware of

itself, the real centre of awareness is born. The centre of awareness is

another name given to your very Me. Your Me represents the presence of the

subject behind the mind. It is all very simple, elementary even. But

because of the fragmented quality of the human mind, most experience

serious difficulties in grasping the matter. But it is simple. It is not

this subject which is complicated, but the ignorant mind.

Again, with the breath, bring energy up to the inside of your head while

being completely present. Stop! Stop your breath, keeping it inside the

head and discover, recognise the one who is present. Who is present?

Recognise yourself! It is you, who is present, see it!

Unless you know who you are, all these talks about meditation and

Enlightenment are completely meaningless. Be serious and wake up at last to

yourself!

Now, simply be present inside your head breathing naturally. As you are

present, various thoughts may come and pass, still there is something which

remains in the background. That which does not change is the light of

awareness. With this feeling, with this presence, you relax into Being. Let

go into non-doing, into What Is and just Be.

In meditation, two elements are present. One is doing and the second is

non-doing. Abide in a space that is comfortable, self-contained, still and

calm; just stay there. There is no need to do anything, just be. But if

your mind is restless, if your energy is not rooted and fluctuates, then

concentrate. You must use your attention and create the necessary focus.

From moment to moment, you are one with the breath. Breathing, breathing,

breathing…. You are concentrated and dedicated to the task of being present

within the movement of thoughts and emotions. You have to crystallize the

sense of your identity. Otherwise, you are like a ghost, a dream character

lost in the dream world…