Your Ego Image - Kristof

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Your subconscious mind re-creates, from moment to moment, your sense of

identity as a particular person. It is very fast. You may not be aware of

it, for you experience already the result which is the ego-image. You

experience constantly a recreated image of the person you think you are.

This image allows you relate to your situation in the world. This image

revolves around your wellbeing, sense of pride, fears and hopes, your

security and happiness. That is how you are being recreated from your

subconscious computer program. That is fine, but is it really you? Is this

image through which you identify yourself really you? You are not this

which you think you are! You are that which you don't think you are! The

ego image is just an outer layer, a superficial shell, a shadow of your

real self.

 

Holding onto the ego image is the cause of suffering, incompleteness and

isolation. One lives in a cage, locked in the mind. If someone lives in a

prison all their life, one does not want to leave this prison. One holds

desperately onto a false sense of security; this is death. When a bird is

born in a cage, it will not fly out even when you leave the door open. One

gets easily addicted to bondage and slavery. We are the race of slaves,

slaves of the mind. That is what we are. Now we rebel, breaking away from

the inner prison. In esoteric Christianity, there were some schools

propagating that the body is the prison of the spirit. Howver, it is not

the body which is the prison, but the mind. Even if you are out of this

body, you remain a slave of the mind. How to get out of the mind? That is

our work.

 

But as you meditate, as you breathe you expand into something deeper. As

you are relaxing into the space of non-reference, you move away from your

ego-image. You are dissolving into the openness of Being. Within this space

of non-reference, you still remain but beyond any crystallised ego-image.

Here, you exist in a new way. That's why you don't know who you are

anymore, for you are unable to translate this experience through your past

concepts. You are in a state of not knowing.

 

You may even experience fear of entering this void because you have the

feeling of losing yourself. But in truth, you are not losing yourself. On

the contrary – you are gaining yourself. The unreal dies so the real can be

born. The unreal does not want to die, that's why it holds onto its past

sense of identity. But when you see clearly how unreal this past sense of

identity is, you let it go. It is not even a matter of courage but rather

understanding. If you wish to be afraid of something, it is only this

ego-image to be feared. That void into which you surrender is absolutely

safe, for it is made from peace and love. It is the original womb of life,

the domain of Truth.