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I am a single 65 year old white male retired from 33 years of civil

service and living in an ocean view condominium in Ocean City N.J.

USA.

 

I have been consciously interested in eastern thought for many, many

years.Along the way I also was involved with parapsychology and

practiced " laying on of the hands " healing

I did many forms of meditation and developed a pulsation between the

eyes which some books claim is the opening of the third eye.

I have had this sensation for over 30 years which I can turn on by

will.

 

I have spent six weeks in a mental institution because I wanted to

kill myself by starvation.That was about eight years ago.

 

I had just come off a manic depressive episode althougt I do not

believe I am a chronic bipolar.

 

I have had periods in my life where I thougtht I was THERE.This could

lasts for months.These were the highlights of my life.

I have seen pure white light in meditation and felt I was everywhere

at once.The physical feeling was too intense for me to sustain.

 

I believe I have good qualities as a human being.This is the most

important thing for me.

 

Although I never married or worked at a job I truly loved,I justify

it by my belief it is the innerself that really matters.

 

Am reading I AM THAT for the second time after just finishing the

first.

The man can get right to the point in few words which appeals to me.

 

I hope to have a discussion with some of this group as the ocassion

arises.

 

I would like to quote some wisdom of a teacher of mine.....

 

" It's not peace of mind,it's peace from mind. "

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Nisargadatta , " rafoil38 " <BANDSTAND54@A...>

wrote:

 

 

" It's not peace of mind,it's peace from mind. "

 

 

 

 

KKT: Not << peace of mind >>

nor << peace from mind >>

but mind = peace, I think.

 

 

Peace,

 

 

KKT

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Hi rafoil,

 

"It's not peace of mind,it's peace from mind."

Excellent.

 

So is this peace from mind,..........happened?

 

They call me Sandeep.

 

Welcome.

 

 

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rafoil38

Nisargadatta

Friday, September 19, 2003 01:01 AM

THE STORY OF MY ILLUSIONARY LIFE

HiI am a single 65 year old white male retired from 33 years of civil service and living in an ocean view condominium in Ocean City N.J. USA.I have been consciously interested in eastern thought for many, many years.Along the way I also was involved with parapsychology and practiced "laying on of the hands" healingI did many forms of meditation and developed a pulsation between the eyes which some books claim is the opening of the third eye.I have had this sensation for over 30 years which I can turn on by will.I have spent six weeks in a mental institution because I wanted to kill myself by starvation.That was about eight years ago.I had just come off a manic depressive episode althougt I do not believe I am a chronic bipolar.I have had periods in my life where I thougtht I was THERE.This could lasts for months.These were the highlights of my life.I have seen pure white light in meditation and felt I was everywhere at once.The physical feeling was too intense for me to sustain.I believe I have good qualities as a human being.This is the most important thing for me.Although I never married or worked at a job I truly loved,I justify it by my belief it is the innerself that really matters.Am reading I AM THAT for the second time after just finishing the first.The man can get right to the point in few words which appeals to me.I hope to have a discussion with some of this group as the ocassion arises.I would like to quote some wisdom of a teacher of mine....."It's not peace of mind,it's peace from mind."

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Hi Sandeep:

 

In answer to your question,I have had glimpses of Peace.I felt I was tuned into the universe and was performing my duty as a servant of God.Some people even thought I was an angel after I helped them in some way.I just thought I was doing my duty and felt extremely lucky.

 

This experience would last a while then would fade away.The culpruit was the fear that there was some treat to my health.I believe I have a form of hypocondria.I have no idea how this was acquired.It just would suck the joy out of my life and banish me from the land of joy.

 

I will never give up my belief that at any given moment I will realize what is already True.

 

R.

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Nisar<sandeepc@b...> wrote:

> Hi rafoil,

>

> " It's not peace of mind,it's peace from mind. "

>

> Excellent.

>

> So is this peace from mind,..........happened?

>

> They call me Sandeep.

>

>

Hi Sandeep

 

I have had glimpses of total peace from mind.These were the times I

felt I was totally tuned into the universe and was God's servant.I did

not have a negative thought in my head.

 

Then...something healthwise real or imaginary would creep into my life

and I would let it suck the joy out of me.I believe I have a touch of

hypocondria.

This has been my pattern.

The fear of ill health has been my downfall up to this point.

 

In theory I believe we are not our bodies, but in my reality I still

have the fear of physical pain or disability.

 

R.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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>

> -

> rafoil38

> Nisargadatta

> Friday, September 19, 2003 01:01 AM

> THE STORY OF MY ILLUSIONARY LIFE

>

>

> Hi

> I am a single 65 year old white male retired from 33 years of

civil

> service and living in an ocean view condominium in Ocean City

N.J.

> USA.

>

> I have been consciously interested in eastern thought for many,

many

> years.Along the way I also was involved with parapsychology and

> practiced " laying on of the hands " healing

> I did many forms of meditation and developed a pulsation between

the

> eyes which some books claim is the opening of the third eye.

> I have had this sensation for over 30 years which I can turn on

by

> will.

>

> I have spent six weeks in a mental institution because I wanted

to gadatta , Sandeep Chatterjee

> kill myself by starvation.That was about eight years ago.

>

> I had just come off a manic depressive episode althougt I do not

> believe I am a chronic bipolar.

>

> I have had periods in my life where I thougtht I was THERE.This

could

> lasts for months.These were the highlights of my life.

> I have seen pure white light in meditation and felt I was

everywhere

> at once.The physical feeling was too intense for me to sustain.

>

> I believe I have good qualities as a human being.This is the most

> important thing for me.

>

> Although I never married or worked at a job I truly loved,I

justify

> it by my belief it is the innerself that really matters.

>

> Am reading I AM THAT for the second time after just finishing the

> first.

> The man can get right to the point in few words which appeals to

me.

>

> I hope to have a discussion with some of this group as the

ocassion

> arises.

>

> I would like to quote some wisdom of a teacher of mine.....

>

> " It's not peace of mind,it's peace from mind. "

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