Communication & Identification

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I've noticed, that while communicating, (especially

telling something that supposedly happened in the

past) I'm living the entire event in the mind's eye.

And I think it's because we always identify with

whatever it is we're doing. When I tell a friend what

I did last night, I see it in my mind's eye, and bring

the last night's event, to " now " and identify with it.

I live (I am) last night again. The more intense the

concentration, the more I can express.

 

I think it's the same with reading. When you read

anything, you identify with it. Thus you understand

what is being said. Maybe, if it's a story from a

book, you visualize it in your mind. It happens

simultaneously.

 

I noticed it one day, when I was reciting Bhagavad

Gita. I was high on marijuana and had just come out of

a big big trance thing. I opened my Gita in Acrobat

Reader, and decided to give it a read. But I wanted to

skip some of the boring stuff, and read some exciting

stuff.

 

Unconsciously I scrolled the pages down and down and

down... After scrolling through MANY pages for what

seemed forever, I ended right on the very first page

of the Gita. I had only managed to skip the preface

part!!

 

If that's the way it is I thought, so let it be.

Laughing at myself I began reading it from the heart.

 

As I lost myself in the pages, I entered a very

strange timless zone, so to speak. I remembered a

secure place, where many people were reading the Gita

with me. Of course it's not a memory induced

remembering. Let's say, I visualized it. Maybe a past

life thing? But that information is completely useless

to me. What past life? I have life with me, here and

now. Of what use to me are past or future lives? Whose

lives for that matter?

 

As I read, I realized Gita was absolutely

communicating with me. Whatever was going through my

mind, I found an answer to it in the following verses

of Gita. As I became aware that me, reading Gita, at

that particular moment was not accidental at all, I

merged myself even more intensely to it. I could as

well be chatting with Krishna on mIRC LOL!

 

I noticed how identification in communication took

place. The verses of Gita, were coming to me as

visions. But this reading was different than the

previous ones. I directly knew, which specific

karma/event Krisna was referring to in my life.

 

At one point, my attention wavered, I lost sight of

what I was reading completely. I was reading and

re-reading a word, but couldn't understand it. I was

surprised, for I thought my concentration was intense.

Slowly, relaxing, I re-read the word I couldn't

understand. When I saw the line :

 

" The foolish think of Me, the Unmanifest, as having

manifestation, knowing not My higher, immutable and

most excellent nature. " (BG 7-24)

 

The word that got my concentration lost was " foolish " .

I " became " a foolish man, so as to understand what

kind of people think of the Unmanifest as having

manifestation!! It was hillarious! )

 

It was a most lovely reading that day, but ultimately

it's on the level of the mind. I did realize why some

of the things in my life are the way they are, but

essentialy I'm beyond it. This experience can be

interpreted a thousand different ways but why do that

at all? In any other place, this story of mine would

surely secure my place as a mad man. But that's OK

How farther from the heart could that other place be?

 

Tansel