Consciousness and the Absolute

[Guest guest]

Question: When I meditate I fall asleep. What can I do to overcome

that?

 

Maharaj: Don't raise this problem at all with me. You are in the

three states,

the waking state, deep sleep state and the knowledge you are, so why

are you

dealing with the state, which you are not? Why are you interested?

It is

spontaneously happening. You have to understand that when you are

being

stabilized in a state prior to waking state, deep sleep, prior to

words and even

prior to consciousness, something happens in your body state without

you doing

it. Leave it alone. Don't ask questions about that. You are on this

side and

if something is happening, why are you worried about it? Be

yourself. If your

are yourself, you need not worry about what is happening at the

other end. You

are interested in your experiential state. There are so many

experiences; such

as, I saw blue light, I went up, etc., don't tell me all those

things. Be your

self and not the experiences. This is also a temporary phase and you

are giving

it undue importance by saying. " Oh, it is something! " It happens

naturally.

 

There was a gentleman who came to me and he told me he would start

crying

and sobbing for about 10 minutes when he meditated. He thought it

was a very

great thing that happened to him in the process of Self-realization.

What is

the point of getting excited and saying, " Oh! I started crying! " So

what! You

are not the one crying; you are not your emotions, are you? So many

people come

to Maharaj to tell him of the spiritual experiences, which they have

undergone

through meditation, just to show people " I am something! "

 

When you fall into sleep be alert and remind yourself that " I Am the

manifest Brahman, " at that moment, on the borderline, During the

course of sleep

your transcendence is prior to mind, and continues during sleep

also. If you

fall into sleep reciting japa and at midnight you wake up, you will

find that

japa continuing. If you are alert, be aware of yourself and you will

see light

in the deepest recesses of you core.

 

final talks: Consciousness and the Absolute June 10, 1981