Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Hello Friend, You have none of the problems you think you have..! You simply have a clinical condition called Irritable Bowel Syndrome exacerbated by stress of living. Put away all the books, see a homeopath in your neighbour hood and get simple. You will recover very soon. Incidentally for want of a better label i could diagnose Hypochondriasis in you, which, is firmly believing one is suffering from certain ailments even though thats not existing. Dr Jayanth G Paraki www.chhindia.net --- Shawn <shawnregan wrote: Hello friends, I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at least were) a few truly awakened people participating here. I've run into some difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone with experience. I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health issues the last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. I'm now pretty convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I am a victim of my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly proud of I think is the source of my problems. I've been working as a software engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped take the toll. Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the case before) I feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds and minutes that follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the pains in my side return, the pain in my neck and back return and the anxiety returns. With the return of the ego brings the return of the problems. I've read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic Universe " . He mentions that in people with multiple personality disorder their brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a personality switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). I'm thinking all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate solution, of course, to break the exclusive identification with the ego. For my immediate solution I need help. In that sequence upon awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my solar-plexus area. It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at times I feed it but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) it is there. Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to deal with this tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might be the source of my physical problems. Shawn http://www.nirvikalpa.com ** If you do not wish to receive individual emails, to change your subscription, sign in with your ID and go to Edit My Groups: /mygroups?edit=1 Under the Message Delivery option, choose " No Email " for the Nisargadatta group and click on Save Changes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Dear Shawn, I am not an awakened person, whatever that means however answering this because I have at least one friend who is super intelligent and has huge health issues which no doctor is able to resolve. We have discussed why and what fors of her situation and she continues to ail. To give you a personal example, Often I used to feel (sometimes still do) the same kind of debilitating tension after the first few instants of morning awakening. In order to help myself, I try to concentrate on the thoughts that my mind / ego / nerves bring to the fore. These thoughts mostly were from the memories of failures of the previous day (ego remnants) or challenges lying ahead in the new day (nerves assuming that something will go wrong) and / or nothing specific just the constant chatter of the mind replaying past experiences / events. The physical result on me was a feeling of lethargy, depression, physical sickness with a headache/ backache/stomach ache etc - percieved or real. I will try and tell you what I did which broke this routine transgressions of mind/ego/nerves. I slept early (fitfully at times) and forced myself to get up before the day broke to the rest of the world. When awake would focus on what i was doing in the 'now'..brushing, changing clothes ..and all this while would try to put a strong leash on the mind chatter by resisting to hear the chatter ...and if it became too loud (which it does) I would begin to chant OM under my breath, it was my way of fighting back. I would repeat Om say about 200 times, counting after each OM and by the time it was 200 counts, I had reached the nearby lake's jogging track, with nature, birds , morning chill and fog..The mind I realised had given up by then and I dont know if it sounds logical but the fears went to sleep. Anytime the chatter would restart in the the course of the day, I would immediately get up and put myself through a physical routine - running down the stairs - and constantly telling myself that I will not allow myself to be taken over. If you are firm with yourself, the subconscious will not be able to take over! M / Shawn <shawnregan wrote: Hello friends, I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at least were) a few truly awakened people participating here. I've run into some difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone with experience. I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health issues the last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. I'm now pretty convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I am a victim of my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly proud of I think is the source of my problems. I've been working as a software engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped take the toll. Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the case before) I feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds and minutes that follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the pains in my side return, the pain in my neck and back return and the anxiety returns. With the return of the ego brings the return of the problems. I've read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic Universe " . He mentions that in people with multiple personality disorder their brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a personality switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). I'm thinking all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate solution, of course, to break the exclusive identification with the ego. For my immediate solution I need help. In that sequence upon awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my solar-plexus area. It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at times I feed it but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) it is there. Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to deal with this tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might be the source of my physical problems. Shawn http://www.nirvikalpa.com ** If you do not wish to receive individual emails, to change your subscription, sign in with your ID and go to Edit My Groups: /mygroups?edit=1 Under the Message Delivery option, choose " No Email " for the Nisargadatta group and click on Save Changes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Dear friend, 1.Do not worry it is the whole humanity that is facing the crisis...of suffering ... in the form of war , hatred. Realizing this TRUTH IN YOUR HEART, this shall generate compassion to one and all - Compassion shall guide your mind to learn the right way of living and thinking. Then you trust your heart - Get in touch with your heart - a beautiful place to visit. Get in touch with your heart - it has a beautiful song of silence. Get in touch with your heart - it has a beautiful song of silence. Once you master that, no matter what pain , no matter what problem will cease to affect you. Shawn [shawnregan] Thursday, October 14, 2004 8:02 AM Nisargadatta Asking for help. Hello friends, I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at least were) a few truly awakened people participating here. I've run into some difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone with experience. I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health issues the last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. I'm now pretty convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I am a victim of my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly proud of I think is the source of my problems. I've been working as a software engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped take the toll. Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the case before) I feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds and minutes that follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the pains in my side return, the pain in my neck and back return and the anxiety returns. With the return of the ego brings the return of the problems. I've read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic Universe " . He mentions that in people with multiple personality disorder their brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a personality switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). I'm thinking all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate solution, of course, to break the exclusive identification with the ego. For my immediate solution I need help. In that sequence upon awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my solar-plexus area. It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at times I feed it but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) it is there. Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to deal with this tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might be the source of my physical problems. Shawn http://www.nirvikalpa.com ** If you do not wish to receive individual emails, to change your subscription, sign in with your ID and go to Edit My Groups: /mygroups?edit=1 Under the Message Delivery option, choose " No Email " for the Nisargadatta group and click on Save Changes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Nisargadatta , " Shawn " <shawnregan> wrote: > > Hello friends, > > I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at least were) a few > truly awakened people participating here. I've run into some > difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone with > experience. > > I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health issues the > last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. I'm now pretty > convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I am a victim of > my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly proud of I > think is the source of my problems. I've been working as a software > engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped take the toll. > > Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the case before) I > feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds and minutes that > follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the pains in my side > return, the pain in my neck and back return and the anxiety returns. > With the return of the ego brings the return of the problems. I've > read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic Universe " . He > mentions that in people with multiple personality disorder their > brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a personality > switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). I'm thinking > all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate solution, of course, > to break the exclusive identification with the ego. > > For my immediate solution I need help. In that sequence upon > awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my solar-plexus area. > It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at times I feed it > but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) it is there. > Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to deal with this > tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might be the source > of my physical problems. > > Shawn > http://www.nirvikalpa.com Hello Shawn, I see from the web sight that you posted, you are familiar with Jane Roberts and Seth..... If I recall......(it was a long time ago...) " The Nature of Personal Reality " was the first book to ignite the fire ....that never went out. I underlined the whole book...twice...LOL. Everyone that I know that has been compelled to start this most peculiar search.....has entered into.....and emerged from a major crisis-catharsis.......Consciousness...it seems likes to spend some time in the desert.......... My own...adventure........involved extreme confusion.....long periods of anxiety....intersterced with accute panic attacks.......mind-racing .......and suicidal-depression. I assume that you are in your forties......which is the most common age for this " event " to occur......... Whenever consciousness reaches out for help......consciousness will always respond....... From this side of the desert......it seems .like an.....oddly necessary ground tilling......(Although...even now.....a familiar nausea.....smiles from behind the curtains) I can only tell you that......I am ever so grateful that I did not kill myself...and that the life lived through this one.....is now adrift in the warmth of a love...that I cannot describe....... Something.......in me broke open.......and into that openness........something warm flowed. All love to you Shawn........Tonight I will hold you softly in this heart. Michael Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Dear Shawn, Is it possible that in some way you hope that those symptoms you were describing already are signs of a beginning awakening ? If yes you don't want to let them go. Therefore let go all those romantic, fairy- tale ideas and spooky day-dreams you mistake as spiritual. Instead start pondering what it means to be an adult. Werner Nisargadatta , " Shawn " <shawnregan> wrote: > > Hello friends, > > I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at least were) a few > truly awakened people participating here. I've run into some > difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone with > experience. > > I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health issues the > last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. I'm now pretty > convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I am a victim of > my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly proud of I > think is the source of my problems. I've been working as a software > engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped take the toll. > > Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the case before) I > feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds and minutes that > follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the pains in my side > return, the pain in my neck and back return and the anxiety returns. > With the return of the ego brings the return of the problems. I've > read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic Universe " . He > mentions that in people with multiple personality disorder their > brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a personality > switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). I'm thinking > all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate solution, of course, > to break the exclusive identification with the ego. > > For my immediate solution I need help. In that sequence upon > awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my solar-plexus area. > It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at times I feed it > but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) it is there. > Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to deal with this > tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might be the source > of my physical problems. > > Shawn > http://www.nirvikalpa.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Nisargadatta , " Shawn " <shawnregan> wrote: > > Hello friends, > > I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at least were) a few > truly awakened people participating here. I've run into some > difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone with > experience. > > I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health issues the > last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. I'm now pretty > convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I am a victim of > my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly proud of I > think is the source of my problems. I've been working as a software > engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped take the toll. > > Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the case before) I > feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds and minutes that > follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the pains in my side > return, the pain in my neck and back return and the anxiety returns. > With the return of the ego brings the return of the problems. I've > read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic Universe " . He > mentions that in people with multiple personality disorder their > brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a personality > switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). I'm thinking > all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate solution, of course, > to break the exclusive identification with the ego. > > For my immediate solution I need help. In that sequence upon > awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my solar-plexus area. > It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at times I feed it > but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) it is there. > Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to deal with this > tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might be the source > of my physical problems. > > Shawn > http://www.nirvikalpa.com My experience from a practical point of view is that the ego is a contraction in body and mind. As you wrote, you can feel great when waking up, but then the contraction in neck and stomach e t c are back after a while. You can see by this clearly that the contraction is a mind/body conflict. One minute you feel fine, the next moment contraction is there. How can that be? How can a contraction pop into being from a relaxed body/mind state? The egoic mind (accumulated thought-patterns) creates an internal conflict. I have found that this contraction is extremely persistent. Think of the contraction as your entire life experiences plus your immense genetic inheritance. That contraction will not easily go away. The contraction is your entire past and entire future. Your thought/emotion-based past and future, that is. I have found it helpful to observe this contraction in body and mind, this nightmarish painful state. To observe it and question the very prison we call past and future. To stand in this sometimes lesser field of pain, and sometimes utter nightmarish emotional pain can make it dissolve in chunks of relief. I can feel my emotional pain as an aspect of physical contraction and pain in the body, and also that emotional pain is strongly related to thoughts. All this pain, I have come to believe, is a result of fear, and fear is upheld by a constant projection from the past (genetic inheritance and social conditioning) into a personal future. The very structure of today's society is fear-based. The entire separate 'me' is a fear-based contruct. The problem is that I cannot know that it's possible to remove this fear. The 'me' cannot remove itself. Maybe fear is needed as a protection? But by using logic I can see that perhaps _all_ fear is an illusion. And this gives me the opportunity to test if fear is needed or not. I stay in this field of pain and ask myself: is there a higher state of being that is above this idea of separation and fear. I believe there is. I have felt a constant lessening of fear. It goes up and down, but always fear is getting less and less. Therefore I strongly believe in what many masters say, that there is another state of being, of living one's life, a fearless state which we can call clarity, peace; or as Vernon Howard said: The _right_ excitement. Lessening of fear is _not_ what may be experienced by people with bipolar disorder. The appearance of fear increasing in a state of depression and becoming less in a state of mania is still a pendular movement around a future that in its root is based on fear. True relief of fear is in this timeless moment only. /AL Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Hi Shawn, old friend, So, the tigers fangs are beginning to dig on your neck? What do you want us to do Shawn? Pray that the tiger spit you out? That nasty old tiger tore my head off, very slowly and painfully. Nothing one can do, but yell, " Go ahead you sissy old toothless tiger, giveme all you got. " Shawn what you are experience seems like tension and anxiety. It seems you want thoughts not to come up, never mind the thoughts, they are alright, normal. have your wife give you a message, run around the block, or take a pill. Or let the pain and tension just happen. You are trying to manage the process, Shawn. Courage, Shawn, think of all those young men risking, and giving their lives for unworthy causes all over the world. And you with the most worthy of all causes whining over a little tension and pain. Come on, Shawn dare that tiger to bite harder. Pete Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2004 Report Share Posted October 14, 2004 Shawn, Some sincerity and guts was probably taken to post this mail. So I felt compelled to offer a few hints. My last post went into this in some details.... but maybe you didn't read it. You'd be making a blunder if you try to apply band-aid or avoid your present dilemma. I doubt whether it's a health issue but by all means you should check that out first. What I was pointing out recently was that we're always occupied with endless activities that is intented to relieve (or rather tranquillize) our sad and discontented state, our dis-ability, our basic mistake or assumption...believing we're a limited or contracted identity or self... We always hiding from the truth of our real and shocking identity, we keep lying to ourself. Simultaneously, we're trying to forget or escape from the pain of limitations, bound in time and space, being a mortal finite separate being, isolated from the whole. In your case perhaps, the distractive activities or remedies is initially confined to the pursuit of happiness in life or materialism ...fancy cars, massive hollywood style spreads, lunches, tantric sex,exotic vacations, all the flavors of psycho-therapies and so on... We seek to relieve or exhaust this tension caused by our self-contraction activity felt as an obstruction or knot (or ghranti) in the solar plexus area of the energy sphere of the body. Later on when our (gross) tranquillizing activities fail to deliver lasting results there is a tendency to seek or escape into (or exploit) the mystical, yogic or what really is the subtle dream frontier, where the knot of contraction is felt in the head or " third eye " area. We feel comforted with this " answer " -the blue light in the head -until we realize that when we're not destracted by our " yogic " exercises, the knotty pain re-emergies. Our failure leads us to find a other solutions and eventually we try to sublate or hide the self-contraction by focusing in the heart-knot in the right-side of the chest and remaining as a silent witness. However, when we fail to practise this witnessing technique, the contractive pain returns. Really, what is needed is direct self-confrontation with this " root " contractive pain. Suffering will never truly disappear if we continue to hide from it or ignore it by our usual avoidance stratagies. When we cease seeking imaginary solutions in the gross, subtle and causal spheres...when we have taken all the lessons, done all the practises, met all the masters and gurus and nothing but failure results, our usual " secondary " activities stop or become exhausted...and we fall into despair, helplessness, hopelessness... This important crisis is THE opportunity to confront both our " secondary " and " root " activity. The " root " activity is the clinging to a separate self-sense via memory and borrowed (or crippling) knowledge acquired from other that was responsible for our false self-identification and self-contraction. The futile " secondary " activities is SEEN to be merely a pallitive or tentative solutions that puts us to sleep, oblivorous or unconsious of the pain for the duration of the sleep (in the three arenas). It is clear that such acts really defended and re-enforced the pity-ful illusory self-sense. Eventually, there is a clear sense of transparency or SEEING-through the fundamental " root " lie, that was the cause of our pain, sorrow and suffering. SEEING dispels or evaporates the clinging to the false belief that we were this mistaken limited mortal identity......What a laugh! Suddenly....Click!... Everythings falls in proper perspective ..No more personal stressors.. Nothing but Openess..Inclusiveness...Relaxed Silence...Relatedness...The Universe As It Is.. -dave ps: Can someone critique this or rewrite in a more communicative style --- Shawn <shawnregan wrote: > > Hello friends, > > I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at > least were) a few > truly awakened people participating here. I've run > into some > difficulties on my path and need the advice of > someone with > experience. > > I've been having intermittent debilatating-type > health issues the > last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food > allergies. I'm now pretty > convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I > am a victim of > my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so > fiercly proud of I > think is the source of my problems. I've been > working as a software > engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped > take the toll. > > Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the > case before) I > feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds > and minutes that > follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the > pains in my side > return, the pain in my neck and back return and the > anxiety returns. > With the return of the ego brings the return of the > problems. I've > read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic > Universe " . He > mentions that in people with multiple personality > disorder their > brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a > personality > switch (this is a great book if you've never read > it). I'm thinking > all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate > solution, of course, > to break the exclusive identification with the ego. > > For my immediate solution I need help. In that > sequence upon > awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my > solar-plexus area. > It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at > times I feed it > but all the time I'm awake (from my experience > today) it is there. > Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to > deal with this > tension? I feel this tension is destructive and > might be the source > of my physical problems. > > Shawn > http://www.nirvikalpa.com > > > > _______________________________ Declare Yourself - Register online to vote today! http://vote. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 15, 2004 Report Share Posted October 15, 2004 I have considered IBS. You're saying the stress accounts for the anxiety and the IBS. Could be. I don't really have a local homeopath. Is there anything you can recommend? Thank you for your response. Shawn Nisargadatta , Dr Jayanth Paraki <dparaki> wrote: > > Hello Friend, > You have none of the problems you think you have..! > You simply have a clinical condition called Irritable > Bowel Syndrome exacerbated by stress of living. Put > away all the books, see a homeopath in your neighbour > hood and get simple. You will recover very soon. > Incidentally for want of a better label i could > diagnose Hypochondriasis in you, which, is firmly > believing one is suffering from certain ailments even > though thats not existing. > Dr Jayanth G Paraki > www.chhindia.net > > > --- Shawn <shawnregan> wrote: > > > > Hello friends, > > I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at > least were) a few > truly awakened people participating here. I've run > into some > difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone > with > experience. > > I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health > issues the > last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. > I'm now pretty > convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I > am a victim of > my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly > proud of I > think is the source of my problems. I've been working > as a software > engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped > take the toll. > > Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the > case before) I > feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds > and minutes that > follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the > pains in my side > return, the pain in my neck and back return and the > anxiety returns. > With the return of the ego brings the return of the > problems. I've > read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic > Universe " . He > mentions that in people with multiple personality > disorder their > brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a > personality > switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). > I'm thinking > all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate > solution, of course, > to break the exclusive identification with the ego. > > For my immediate solution I need help. In that > sequence upon > awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my > solar-plexus area. > It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at > times I feed it > but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) > it is there. > Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to > deal with this > tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might > be the source > of my physical problems. > > Shawn > http://www.nirvikalpa.com > > > > > > ** > > If you do not wish to receive individual emails, to > change your subscription, sign in with your ID > and go to Edit My Groups: > > /mygroups?edit=1 > > Under the Message Delivery option, choose " No Email " > for the Nisargadatta group and click on Save Changes. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 15, 2004 Report Share Posted October 15, 2004 I can suggest a course of treatment if u wish. Consult me through a private email ID. Dr Paraki --- Shawn <shawnregan wrote: I have considered IBS. You're saying the stress accounts for the anxiety and the IBS. Could be. I don't really have a local homeopath. Is there anything you can recommend? Thank you for your response. Shawn Nisargadatta , Dr Jayanth Paraki <dparaki> wrote: > > Hello Friend, > You have none of the problems you think you have..! > You simply have a clinical condition called Irritable > Bowel Syndrome exacerbated by stress of living. Put > away all the books, see a homeopath in your neighbour > hood and get simple. You will recover very soon. > Incidentally for want of a better label i could > diagnose Hypochondriasis in you, which, is firmly > believing one is suffering from certain ailments even > though thats not existing. > Dr Jayanth G Paraki > www.chhindia.net > > > --- Shawn <shawnregan> wrote: > > > > Hello friends, > > I'm posting here because I beieve there are (or at > least were) a few > truly awakened people participating here. I've run > into some > difficulties on my path and need the advice of someone > with > experience. > > I've been having intermittent debilatating-type health > issues the > last 12 months. Lately I've suspected food allergies. > I'm now pretty > convinced I've got a brain/mind issue. I fear that I > am a victim of > my mind. This mind when I was younger I was so fiercly > proud of I > think is the source of my problems. I've been working > as a software > engineer for over 20 years and I think that's helped > take the toll. > > Anyway, on awakening this morning (as has been the > case before) I > feel great the instant of awakening. In the seconds > and minutes that > follow, as the mental chatter restarts itself the > pains in my side > return, the pain in my neck and back return and the > anxiety returns. > With the return of the ego brings the return of the > problems. I've > read about this in Michael Talbot's " The Holographic > Universe " . He > mentions that in people with multiple personality > disorder their > brain waves, allergies and such will change upon a > personality > switch (this is a great book if you've never read it). > I'm thinking > all my issues are tied to my ego. My ultimate > solution, of course, > to break the exclusive identification with the ego. > > For my immediate solution I need help. In that > sequence upon > awakening I noticed a subtle tension appear in my > solar-plexus area. > It seems to be there throughout the day. I beieve at > times I feed it > but all the time I'm awake (from my experience today) > it is there. > Does this ring a bell for anyone? And/Or know how to > deal with this > tension? I feel this tension is destructive and might > be the source > of my physical problems. > > Shawn > http://www.nirvikalpa.com > > > > > > ** > > If you do not wish to receive individual emails, to > change your subscription, sign in with your ID > and go to Edit My Groups: > > /mygroups?edit=1 > > Under the Message Delivery option, choose " No Email " > for the Nisargadatta group and click on Save Changes. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 15, 2004 Report Share Posted October 15, 2004 Pete Seesaw is that you? I'm smiling as I read your message. I think you are right about my trying to control the process. I had success in meditation this week on just letting go which showed me I'm holding on too tight. Shawn Nisargadatta , " cerosoul " <Pedsie2@a...> wrote: > > Hi Shawn, old friend, > > So, the tigers fangs are beginning to dig on your neck? > What do you want us to do Shawn? Pray that the tiger spit > you out? That nasty old tiger tore my head off, very > slowly and painfully. Nothing one can do, but yell, > " Go ahead you sissy old toothless tiger, giveme all > you got. " > Shawn what you are experience seems like tension and > anxiety. It seems you want thoughts not to come up, > never mind the thoughts, they are alright, normal. > have your wife give you a message, run around the block, > or take a pill. Or let the pain and tension just happen. > You are trying to manage the process, Shawn. Courage, Shawn, > think of all those young men risking, and giving their lives > for unworthy causes all over the world. And you with > the most worthy of all causes whining over a little > tension and pain. Come on, Shawn dare that tiger to bite > harder. > > Pete Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 15, 2004 Report Share Posted October 15, 2004 Nisargadatta , " Shawn " <shawnregan> wrote: > > Pete Seesaw is that you? > > I'm smiling as I read your message. I think you are right about my > trying to control the process. I had success in meditation this week > on just letting go which showed me I'm holding on too tight. > > Shawn > > Yeah, Shawn, it's Seesaw, with a new handle. What is success in meditation? Why do you think you have food allergies? Pete Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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