How to live? (pete)

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Pete,

 

You crack me up. I do appreciate your sense of humor. It helps me stay

grounded and not make so much of my condition.

 

Shawn

 

Nisargadatta , " cerosoul " <Pedsie2@a...> wrote:

>

> Nisargadatta , " Shawn " <shawnregan>

wrote:

> >

> > When you discover you are encased or entombed in this mechanical

> > mass of flesh. I remember as a child the disbelief that I was

> > this " stuff " a machine of blood and guts. It was such a terror

that

> > I didn't know how I could live as such. My life, me, was dependent

> > by such a thing. For two weeks I was an anxious basket case.

> > Now I feel like it is a prison and I am at the mercy of it's jokes

> > and cruelty. Lately this anxiety has returned, I suspect it never

> > left, to torment me around my 40th birthday. Everyday I find " me "

> in

> > a different environment of mind. Sometimes it is pleasant like

> > laying in a hammock on a warm summer day listening to the birds

and

> > children play. Other days it is terrifying like someone who is

> > scared of heights being dangled from the top of a skyscraper. Not

> to

> > be let go, just dangled. How I appreciate those hammock days like

> > you wouldn't believe.

> > This is however providing me with a crash course of me vs. mind

> > although I think I would have preferred the longer way although I

> > wasn't as diligent as I could be when I feel ok. The urgency is

> just

> > not there.

> > How do we manage to live like this? How do we see others dying

> > around us and not completely lose it? The animals do it but I

> > believe they don't know the separation we do. The cruel joke is

> that

> > we are just conscious enough to know the death terror but not

> > conscious enough to transcend it.

>

> P: Ya going thru puberty again. They call it a middle-age crisis.

> Go to the Doc get some hormones. Get a 20 years old to take for

> moonlight rides around the vocano in your new Thunderbird

convertible.

> That sort of thing. )