Not of the me - Anders

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Nisargadatta , " anders_lindman "

<anders_lindman> wrote:

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> Nisargadatta , " cerosoul " <Pedsie2@a...>

wrote:

> >

> > Nisargadatta , " anders_lindman "

> > <anders_lindman> wrote:

>

> ...

>

> > > When the human intellect understands that it itself cannot hold

the

> > > truth, but is always only an aspect of the truth, the perhaps

it

> > can

> > > become silent and just watch. Eckhart Tolle talks about a state

> > above

> > > thinking where the mind is silent and where thoughts only

appear

> > when

> > > needed. And in that state thought is much clearer and

effective.

> > Tolle

> > > talks about the ordinary human mind as " noisy " , and the new

state

> > of

> > > consciousness as noiseless and more intelligent.

> > >

> > > /AL

> >

> > So has this understanding made your mind more silent and watchful?

>

> A: The horror is that for me fear has increased instead of becoming

> less. But I do feel a bit of more spaciousness around my fear. In

that

> way, something new has opened up. A few years ago I went through

what

> can be called " the dark night of the soul " , or a kind of severe

> depression to use a more ordinary explanation. I have never gone

back

> to that deep nightmare again, but fear in me has increased on other

> levels. There seems to be no end to my " angst " , but I do nowadays

> often feel an opening up that is a deepening into the present

moment.

 

Can I fully be the fear which is me?

 

If so, there is no escape -- and subject

and object all together collapse into/as *this* --

 

There is no distance to hold anything as existing

out there -- such distance being the result of

psychological fear which is avoided in order

to locate " me. "

 

It is " me " which observes " things out there. "

 

Being this fear fully, which is " me " -- understanding

opens -- which is not of the me.

 

-- Dan