Reactive Tape Loop

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reactive tape loop

Posted by Joe at directapproach

 

 

this reactive tape-loop –

the commentator talking endlessly        (to himself)

always attempting to fit the moment to moment buzz of reality

into what is known, what was read

into prior knowledge.

 

amazing, it has a life of its own!

even " mindfulness " is part of this spontaneous reactive organism

 

there's no room for a center

for a decider –

for central-control.

it's sad -

in a way

 

the commentator reeks of death

 

a flow of debris.

a huge dumping of garbage at the source of a long winding river

as one stands on the bank a mile downstream

the debris flows by.

 

it's like...

listening to conversations

through the wall

taking place in the hotel room next to mine.

at first, i listen and react: annoyed, interested, soaking up the

drama of it all.

but, wait – it's just that the tv has been left on!

how boring and uninteresting.

 

what i thought was so,

what i have become attached to is not really there.

it's not quite like i thought it was.

the tv is still on

but there's no longer any interest in the content of the shows.

 

i am the commentator.

i am the reactive tape loop, endlessly playing.

someone pressed play a long time ago

 

and it's still running.

 

" stop " is the last beat of the heart

the final breath

exhaled.