Fwd: from desired experience to actual fulfillment

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deconstructionism , " Eric Paroissien "

<ericparoissien@g...> wrote:

 

_A_

How do i believe:

There is an experience of wonder, that will change me radically.

That there is a gap between this undesired situation and a final

ideal state that a sudden spark of light will bridge.

That such transformative experience happens only under specific

(lucky) circumstances ...?

 

_B_

.... that would have to be in the case:

- i have accumulated delay on my destiny.

- i have been sluggish in my duties and realizations.

- i have not kept in pace with natural events.

- i am in need of an external sudden boost that would finally tune

me with my real state (that i should never have left ... maybe i was

there before i was born or maybe some subtle part of me never ceases

to be while some grosser part holds me back).

When have i started to decide and assess myself in need of a higher

realm and experience? (what makes such higher realms and experiences

so desirable?)

How have i found some higher comparison to what i am presently and

found this state lacking vis-a-vis that state?

 

_C_

Why would i specifically have been left and forgotten behind the

perfectly tuned work of the universe? which train is there to catch

up with and why should i be running behind it?

What would make me finish in three days what others finish in three

years? Where is the rush? what is the stake?

Don't we have an exact ovelapping of

urgency/greed

goal/greed

higher realms

present inadequacy

?

 

_D_

What makes me specially deserve to be miserable and hoping for some

miracle?

Why would nature or god have designed specially for me the sorry

destiny and hardship of a search that will be crowned with success?

is it written in the nature of things?

Why do we accept only such complexe scenarios for our lives?

And all this would happen to me?

If i give up hope, shall i give up the desire to live?

Am i persistently closely followed by despair that would make me

tilt into despondency and the collapse of my image if i let it catch

up with me and give up my hope?

How come misery is always here around when hope is here around?

What happens when someone gives up hope?

Do we need to have a historical imprint on culture or a recognized

impact on the community we live in?

Is there a hope, that is not personal?

Is there a hope that is not the result of a past lack and a future

grandiose conception of myself?

 

deconstructionism/

 

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