Guest guest Posted April 15, 2005 Report Share Posted April 15, 2005 Nisargadatta , " Anna Ruiz " <nli10u@c...> wrote: >Hi stefan, >Fear of Loving is only part of the Fear. >The other part of the fear of being all alone in This, as This. A >presence of now that/which extinquishes all else... >An inability to share at this 'level' of presence so hopelessly >present that it can only be understood as an 'absence'. >And as Toomey said earlier: " This is all yours " .... Hi Anna. Here is helpless experiencing. Fear. Love. Trust. Desire. Anger. Joy. Typing fingers. A humming. Sensing of a body. Provided we agree upon my list to be a provisory medium to communicate certain structures that are really experienced as structureless and unnamable, fluctuating in a constant change. What I have described in my applauded " confession " is really only a description of helpless experiencing, artificially lifted to a social conceptual level. Things that seem to take care by itself. There was a subtle shift in focus only and everything became like this. In reality nothing has changed. An arising wish to change starts a chain reaction of events, inevitably, until they come to stillness or flow into something else. The inability to share, the " all mine " , is at the same time like " embracing all " . There is no sensing of separatedness. It may come... but it will cease again. It is an odd exercise to put all this into words. I feel the impulse to write, to reflect, to write, to reflect. I create a series of words. Poetry? I try to understand what is happening. It is futile to impose a verbal structure to something structureless. Perfectly structureless. I try to see if I have to go somewhere. If I have to do something. If I have to go on, to start a new journey... right now I cannot. Trust. So much for now... Love Stefan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 15, 2005 Report Share Posted April 15, 2005 - Stefan Nisargadatta Friday, April 15, 2005 4:37 PM Re: Hooked to Werner/Stefan Nisargadatta , " Anna Ruiz " <nli10u@c...> wrote: >Hi stefan, >Fear of Loving is only part of the Fear. >The other part of the fear of being all alone in This, as This. A >presence of now that/which extinquishes all else... >An inability to share at this 'level' of presence so hopelessly >present that it can only be understood as an 'absence'. >And as Toomey said earlier: " This is all yours " .... Hi Anna. Here is helpless experiencing. Fear. Love. Trust. Desire. Anger. Joy. Typing fingers. A humming. Sensing of a body. Provided we agree upon my list to be a provisory medium to communicate certain structures that are really experienced as structureless and unnamable, fluctuating in a constant change. What I have described in my applauded " confession " is really only a description of helpless experiencing, artificially lifted to a social conceptual level. Things that seem to take care by itself. There was a subtle shift in focus only and everything became like this. In reality nothing has changed. An arising wish to change starts a chain reaction of events, inevitably, until they come to stillness or flow into something else. The inability to share, the " all mine " , is at the same time like " embracing all " . There is no sensing of separatedness. It may come... but it will cease again. It is an odd exercise to put all this into words. I feel the impulse to write, to reflect, to write, to reflect. I create a series of words. Poetry? I try to understand what is happening. It is futile to impose a verbal structure to something structureless. Perfectly structureless. I try to see if I have to go somewhere. If I have to do something. If I have to go on, to start a new journey... right now I cannot. Trust. So much for now... Love Stefan Dear Stefan, A Simplicity in Seeing, a Trust in Being is Enough for Now. Love Anna ** If you do not wish to receive individual emails, to change your subscription, sign in with your ID and go to Edit My Groups: /mygroups?edit=1 Under the Message Delivery option, choose " No Email " for the Nisargadatta group and click on Save Changes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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