FEAR and loathing.

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Nisargadatta , " anders_lindman "

<anders_lindman> wrote:

>

> Nisargadatta , " misterenlightenment "

> <misterenlightenment> wrote:

> >

> > Nisargadatta , " carolina112900 "

> > <freyjartist@a...> wrote:

> > >

> > > Nisargadatta , " misterenlightenment "

> > > <misterenlightenment> wrote:

> > > >

> > > > Nisargadatta , " fuzzie_wuz "

> > <fuzzie_wuz>

> > > > wrote:

> > > > >

> > > > > Nisargadatta , Pedsie2@a... wrote:

> > > > > >

> > > > > > In a message dated 4/21/05 2:25:02 PM,

anders_lindman

> > > writes:

> > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > > > > Say, if you are so busy deleting posts, how can you be

so

> > > sure

> > > > what

> > > > > > > they are about? Did you delete this post b t w? Do you

use

> > > your

> > > > > > > preconceived ideas as a criteria for deleting posts, or

is

> > > your

> > > > > > > intuition keen enough to sense the content of a post by

its

> > > > title?

> > > > > > >

> > > > > > > al.

> > > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > > > P: Since you asked, below are the confessions of a

deleting

> > > > dilettante.

> > > > > > Obviously, I didn't delete this one. Why? because I

knew

> > you

> > > > > > were answering my post. I know your posts are about angst

and

> > > > > > speculation. If I'm in the mood for that, and the traffic

is

> > > low,

> > > > I

> > > > > > will read one or two. I read all posts by Dan, Werner,

Lewis,

> > > > > > Muralis, Kip, and most of the other non-habitual posters.

> > People

> > > > > > who post to chit-chat, and to relieve boredom, or out of

> > > confusion

> > > > > > day in and day out, I seldom read.

> > > > >

> > > > >

> > > > > Dear Pedsie2:

> > > > >

> > > > > I apologize. I have been on this forum about 2 weeks, now.

I

> > was

> > > > just

> > > > > having some fun with it. Somebody gave me an old computer

and I

> > > > hooked

> > > > > it up and then I found this forum and started talking to

people

> > > on

> > > > it.

> > > > > And, it's been fun. But, if it's bugging you and you are

> > > irritated

> > > > by

> > > > > me, then, man, I'm gonna try to make a concerted effort and

not

> > > post

> > > > > so much on here. I don't want to bother anybody or start

any

> > > > trouble.

> > > > > I've just been having some fun, man. I hope you understand.

> > > > >

> > > > > I don't know if you've read any of my posts, but, I am

totally

> > > into

> > > > > what Nisargadatta was about. So, I'm not on here to just

jerk

> > > > > somebody's chain or to be a troll or anything like that.

I'm

> > > > serious.

> > > > > Just wanted you to know that.

> > > > >

> > > > > Yours,

> > > > >

> > > > > fuzzie>>

> > > >

> > > > I am Totally One with the fuzzmeister. I've been on this,

and

> > the

> > > > GuruRatings boards for not much longer than fuzzie and my

story

> > is

> > > > pretty much the same.

> > > >

> > > > After getting fired from my job b/c of all the trouble I was

> > > stirring

> > > > up over on the anti-Chinmoy lists (the Chinmoy people amassed

a

> > > vast

> > > > docier (sp) on me and threatened my employer with a whopping

> > > lawsuit

> > > > b/c I was stupidly using the company email system when

posting my

> > > > extremely, at times, vulgar and blastphemous diatribes), I

> > searched

> > > > for another, 'safe' outlet to rant and rave.

> > > >

> > > > However, like fuzzie, I am an unabashed and unpologetic

> > > Nisargadatta

> > > > man, and a Ramana guy as well.

> > > >

> > > > I'm only here to have fun. I've met some great people along

the

> > > way,

> > > > so I am truly grateful for that as well: Charlie,

> > fuzzie,annadanna,

> > > > Faithe (hey, where did she go, anyway?), as well as others.

> > > >

> > > > Unlike fuzzie, however, I don't really give a fuck what

anybody

> > > > really thinks about either the # or the content of my posts.

> > > >

> > > > Like I said, I'm just having a little fun. I'm not here to

get

> > > > Enlightened and I'm not here to try to Enlighten anyone.

> > > >

> > > > Well, anyway, I have to get on to the next post to see what

lies

> > > > ahead...........

> > > >

> > > > Mr. forgivEmefatherforIknownotwhatIdo

> > >

> > >

> > > Well, for starters, you could start

> > > to look into your ANGER.

> > >

> > > just a thought,

> > >

> > > ~freyja>>

> >

> > Seriously, my wife has been on my case about that situation as

well.

> >

> > Yesterday, in fact, I called to make an appointment with the

> > psychiatric nurse (I think that's his title) to whom I go to get

my

> > Rx from, and made an app't. to go in talk about my " suppressed

rage "

> > problem.

> >

> > It was a " good " thought, freyja, and Thanks for your suggestion.

> >

> > Mr. AngrErmanagement

>

>

> Nukunu had a very good description about anger and he said that for

> example therapies like beating a pillow could often be an escape

> rather than a solution because it was like trying to empty an ocean

> with a tea mug. One must become totally absorbed by the rage and

> become red in every cell of the body and just let it burn through

you,

> he said.

>

> My own idea is that even that will not be enough because what's

> causing the anger is fear, and you you don't want to mess with that

> emotion lightly.

>

> al.

 

In that case, al, I must have PLENTY of fear! And, of course, a whole

lot of self loathing to boot.

 

I'm not exactly sure what it is that I'm afraid of, however.

 

Dying? I don't THINK so.

 

Seriously, I'm not sure what it is.

 

Mr. fearandloathingandgnashingofteEth