Guest guest Posted June 2, 2005 Report Share Posted June 2, 2005 Nisargadatta , " gary falk " <falkgw@h...> wrote: > Gray: You are so self-obsessed > > Adithya:What " self-obsessed " means to you ? > > Gary: It means that you are so enamored of your story that it has entranced > you to the point that your vision is completely skewed in your favor. It > means that you are very partial to yourself, and think that somehow you are > special in some way. > > A:>What does `contemplation' mean to you?>> > > G: Nothing. It's just a word. I don't connect with it at all. > > > A: What does " mind bent inwards " mean to you ? > > G: " Mind bent inwards " means that the mind does not see objects. It means > that the mind sees nothing. It is the equivalent of " no mind " . > > > > > >A:>Is there any special need to SEE `anything' ...? > > G: There is No need to see ANYTHING. Obviously that's my point, hence the > phrase " so to speak. " Stop acting dumb, willya? > > > A: Especially the one .... " that, requires seeing " ? > > G: How long have you been preying on these lists? There is no one that > requires anything, either seeing or not seeing. If you had been listening > to fuzzie, you wouldn't be asking these inane questions. > > > G:> > All there is is > > > pure subjective awareness without objects. > > > A:...and, how does `Gary' know that ? > > G. I don't know that. I am that. > > A: Who is `Gary' ? > > G: Gary is a nobody, just like you. > > > > > A: Who am `I', then ? > > G: Pure subjective awareness without objects. > > > A:... " who " " are " communicating ? > > G: Oh God, at the risk of sounding like Ramesh, I have to say consciousness > itself is the " who " (that) " are " communicating. > > > > > A: Does the " real " grow ? > > G: No, but Adithya can grow up if he wants to. > > > A:>Do you want to know, why I post ? > > > G: Yes, Adithya, tell me why you bother to post. ..... ..... There is Nothing there, which really means, ...there is Nothing here ! Which only starts, ...because, there is nothing here ! " Nothing there " is a notion, that starts with ...nothing here. A reflection of ...nothing here. I know, " you " get it already, ....so, yes, let " us " move on ... .. .... ...... I don't know, why I write, why I share, ...why, I post. But, maybe, I do ... Writing, posting ... thinking ... Many times, I disappear ... Which is strange, weird, unexplained ... I would expect me to get stronger, ....to become me ... " the poster " ! Yet, returning home ... my feet flounder ... They wobble ... like the feet of a drunkard ... The voice of my colleague, my friend ... sitting across the table ...talking to me ... disperse, disappear ... I can hardly understand, comprehend or hear ... I don't know where I am, ...whether my friend is talking to a wall, ....or is his voice disappearing in empty space ! But, I can hardly hear ... ...... Sometimes, as if everything has disappeared ... Yet, I feel so centered, so strong in heart ... Sometimes, just slight feeling around the body, sometimes, a feeling of connection near the navel. Sometimes, nothing as if ...I am floating space, ....as if a zombie, walking, ...but, ALREADY Dead ! So, I write, and, I write, ...Again ! People mediate on mountains, in jungles, in ashrams, ....on hills, in their rooms ... I don't know what writing is to me, but, many, many times over and over.., it makes me ...Empty Space ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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