the blackouts between LA and Sydney

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About 5000 years ago sages around the Indus River, in India, used the

silence of meditation to study their thoughts. To make a long story

short – they came up with everything physicists have come up with

over the last 100 years.

 

Over the last 100 years physicists have studied their particles in

the same systematic and methodical manner as did the Indus River

sages study their thoughts.

Because of their studies, Physicists came up with Quantum Mechanics

and Relativity and their Uncertainty Principle. Put it all together

and they uncovered that particles are exactly like thoughts.

 

As with thoughts, particles are what the mind is. If the mind wants

waves then particles are waves, and if the mind wants particles then

waves are particles. And the closer the observer gets to the

observation, the particles, the more elusive they get. And thus the

Uncertainty Principle. And thus at close quarters particles are not

even particles, nor waves, but probability-clouds. Just like

thoughts. The closer we try to get to a thought the more elusive it

gets.

 

Light is the perfect example of a thought:: the faster we go to try

and catch light the more obvious it becomes that we are standing

still. So too with thoughts. We cannot catch thoughts mostly because

they are Nothing.

-=-

 

To understand thoughts, and then the " reality " our mind

creates out of its thoughts, I have to study thoughts methodically

and systematically.

One way to study thoughts systematically and methodically is through

a relative vacuum of thoughts. Meditation can provide the observer

with the needed vacuum.

 

First: In the thoughtless silence of meditation the observer can

observe that when thoughts come they come out of Nothing to return

into Nothing to be Nothing. Physics tells us the same story about its

sub-atomic particles.

 

Second: In thoughtless-silence it is obvious that there is

absolutely no control of thoughts. The control of thoughts is an

illusion the mind gives us at its gross level. This illusion is the

same illusion particles give us when they appear to be combined into

atoms and then molecules when in Reality they are not only separate

but separated by voids called quantums.

 

Third: there are voids or gaps between thoughts, particles.

Physicists call these gaps quantums. Physics tells us that its

particles can only exist in very specific energy or quantum levels.

Between one quantum level and another there is an absolute and total

void.

At the gross level the likes of atoms and molecules make quantums

vanish but they exist in the background to make atoms and molecules

work the way they do.

 

In the thoughtless Silence of meditation these gaps or quantums

between thoughts are monumental. Only when I can understand how

thoughts are separated with these gaps can I sort of understand why

Papaji keeps trying to tell me: putting effort into things like

meditation is a total waste of time.

Effort is a total waste of time because it is just a thought.

 

To understand these gaps I meditate to try to Silence my mind.

This is impossible but my ego does not know it. (I will define an

ego as a mind that thinks it can control its thoughts –

actions.)

 

I read all sorts of books on meditation and yoga that tell me that

only the likes of geniuses can concentrate strong enough to control

their minds and thus go through all the levels of consciousness to

end up in samadhi.

 

Some of these experts, on meditation and samadhi, go on to tell me

that if I concentrate hard enough, and long enough, then my mind

will also go through different levels of consciousness that they

describe in detail. So this ego, called I, concentrates like hell

not to have thoughts in meditation so it can, with enough practice

and effort, go into samadhi.

 

For years I practice and concentrate to focus my mind on Silence so

it, the mind, can vanish into samadhi.

 

But after years of practice and effort it dawns on me that Papaji is

right and this effort is all a total waste of time because

this " effort " is just a thought, like thinking.

 

When I concentrate like hell not to have thoughts, in meditation,

something happens so routinely that it makes concentration an

exercise in futility.

 

In the Silence of thoughtless-meditation I try and I try to

concentrate on no-thoughts but then there comes a void that makes

concentration utterly futile. With practice these voids between

thoughts become more and more profound.

 

TO put this void into perspective: these voids between thoughts work

like a blackout. This void or blackout between thoughts is so

profound that it is like concentrating like hell to play chess in

LA and then suddenly I find myself enjoying golf in Sydney –

and there is absolutely NOTHING IN BETWEEN LA and Sydney.

 

This is exactly how profound this void is between thoughts during

meditation. How can I keep concentrating on chess in LA when

the next moment I am enjoying golf in Sydney – and there is

nothing in between? It is impossible, otherwise, it is an exercise

if futility. THAT IS exactly HOW PROFUND these voids are between

thoughts, like concentration.

 

Everything " I " try to " do " in meditation and yoga

(and everything that is intellectual ) assumes that things are

continuous – like effort and concentration is continuous. The

total blackout between thoughts make it obvious that there is

absolutely nothing continuous about thoughts.

 

The study of thoughts tells me what physics tries to tell me:

that thinking, and the control of thoughts and concentration and

effort are all just thoughts.

 

It was this study of thoughts that gives me the word maya: illusion

or dream, fiction, hallucination. My mind or ego is this maya.

 

To my mind thoughts are pure hallucinations that appear to be real

because the mind is the police and judge and jury of all of its

thoughts. The mind is not a thought generator because it is the

thoughts, hallucinations. The mind cannot know anything but what it

is: thoughts, hallucinations… The mind is always dreaming that

it is awake.

-=-

So if thinking, effort and concentration and meditation, are just

thoughts then what can I do to wake up, to be Self-realized? The

answer is what Papaji tells me: I can do absolutely nothing because

even the " I " – the doer -- is a thought. In Reality there

is no doer. BUT the doer, called ego, does not know this. And as

he, Papaji, says: the more effort the imaginary " I " puts

into trying to get realized the more futile it all gets because in

Reality NOTHING ever HAPPENS.

 

And so if the ego thinks it can think then let me play a game with my

ego. I can play this game by letting my ego think that life is a

dream, maya. The theory behind this game called maya: if my ego

thinks about dreaming long enough then it will become the dream.

 

This pretending to be dreaming is as simple as pretending to be

another person, like Napoleon. If I pretend that I am Napoleon long

enough then I will be Napoleon regardless of what anyone else (in my

dream) might think. Pretending to be dreaming works the same.

In a dream the subject, verb and object are the same – the

dreamer and then dreaming and everything that is dreamed is all the

SAME -- JUST LIKE ADVAITA tells me maya is.

 

So if I pretend to be dreaming then I have to also pretend that I am

everyone else in my dream – they, the others, only appear to be

different from the imaginary me. (In a dream everything is

imaginary). And as long as my ego plays this game called dreaming I

will be AWAKE to the dream called maya.

 

And when this dreaming starts to make sense then there is a JOY

associated with this dreaming and it is called maya. This Joy or maya

is the Self, the Dreamer – the Unified Field -- enjoying its

dream – the mind, ego, maya.

 

This Joy I AM, YOU ARE and ALL IS; and only an cocksure ego can

think otherwise.

 

-- thoughts from Nothing to Nothing for the Joy called maya.