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I am a good self (that can " feel " guilt)

And a bad self (that can recklessly lay waste to time)

 

 

The good comes out in full force

After I allow the bad his due.

 

The bad comes out in full force

After I allow the good his due.

 

 

 

Where does the good " go " when the bad is in control?

 

Where does the bad " go " when the good is in control?

 

HOW DO " I " KNOW THE DIFFERENCE?

 

 

 

When I allow the bad, in full —extreme good immediately asserts

itself (creative, swimming-upstream attention)

 

When I allow the good, in full —extreme bad immediately asserts

itself (drifting downstream attention)

 

 

 

The bad prepares the way for the good by releasing it of any " have

to's " . That is, swimming-upstream attention is freed by the bad to

go to what it wants (not to what it " should " ).

 

The good takes the bad to new heights from which to fall; prepares

the way for the bad, and gives it a whole new lease.

 

 

 

I maintain a tight struggle between good and bad which generates a

constant " gray " state, neither black nor white; neither awake nor

dreaming; neither dark nor bright. Constant twilight.

 

I fear the out-of-my-control motion of good-changing-to-bad-changing-

to-good-etc that, like the ever changing weather, happens anyway.

Just as I have built a " house " to protect myself from the raw forse

of the weather, I have constructed an " identity " to protect myself

from the raw forse of internal change. A result of this " protection "

has been to make me weak.

 

 

I am as likely to receive fresh insight when bad changes to good as

when good changes to bad

 

Fresh insight is what I live for