Guest guest Posted February 22, 2006 Report Share Posted February 22, 2006 Parley, Sage, Insence and Time There is ...it appears...a seeker-guru dance. Actually...it is quite beautiful and very romantic. The stage: Soft pillows arranged in a circle...soft music (usually East Indian or new age...the sound of the ocean....and whales..........ohoooooo,,,ohoooooooooaaa....soft light streaming through the windows......and sitting..... facing away from the light source...one large soft chair around which a few candles burn. The scent of incense. In back of the chair....on the wall....pictures of sages......smiling. The seekers file in......and quietly speak of good things. One hardly notices that just under the surface is a polite jostleing for the high priced seats. Most of the people in the circle feel the love....they have grown to know each other in other rooms...in other beautiful places....It is comfortable....warm...and safe here. The quiet interchange of polite banter.....the occasional outburst of spontaneous laughter...gradually diminishes...and silence......enters the room. The music stops. A door opens..... A soft rustling of clothing....the sound of bare feet on the carpet. There They are. They are even more beautiful then their pictures on the back of all those books. Should I look at them?...I'm dizzy.....dopamine floods my body. They flow to the big chair.....look out over the adoring eyes...and slowly clasp their hands in front of their radiant backlit face....and bow. My hands...without my help...respond in kind. Tears....I feel tears streaming down my face.......I hope that the person next me cannot hear my pounding heart. I have to pee....but am not brave enough to leave now..... The shadowy figure sits......bows there head...closes their eyes....and silence...sweet silence. I am falling now....falling in love....... A voice: 'Hello' 'Welcome' ........and the dance begins. I have danced this dance many times...I know the steps...I know how to follow. I am dancing with every one in the room now...It almost feels like I have known them forever. Time passes in light speed....... The dance os over. Now silence. ......a soft sound of bare feet......a door opening...then closing softly. They have left the building. I sit ....in the afterglow........thinking that this is what I have always wanted.......only this. Time passes. I stand.......and look at people....that pretty young lady from Pasadena and her mother smile at me....and I smile back....Pasadena is such a beautiful city.....I could live in Pasadena......in one of those big old houses.......Or maybe in Berkeley....up in those green hills......... As I leave the room...and join the growing line in front of the flower strewn table....reach for my credit card.......and pick out several books...tapes and videos, I sign my name to a list.... the tape of today's dance..will be available in two weeks....Its twenty five dollars.....but they have expenses.......and that retreat center......that's going to cost a lot. " Money well spent " ....I think to myself. I pick up the schedule for upcoming dances......and wonder how much plane fare to Munich will be. Maybe I can use it as a write off. toombaru Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 22, 2006 Report Share Posted February 22, 2006 ....got me sick to my stomach.. --- toombaru2006 <lastrain a écrit : Parley, Sage, Insence and Time There is ...it appears...a seeker-guru dance. Actually...it is quite beautiful and very romantic. The stage: Soft pillows arranged in a circle...soft music (usually East Indian or new age...the sound of the ocean....and whales..........ohoooooo,,,ohoooooooooaaa....soft light streaming through the windows......and sitting..... facing away from the light source...one large soft chair around which a few candles burn. The scent of incense. In back of the chair....on the wall....pictures of sages......smiling. The seekers file in......and quietly speak of good things. One hardly notices that just under the surface is a polite jostleing for the high priced seats. Most of the people in the circle feel the love....they have grown to know each other in other rooms...in other beautiful places....It is comfortable....warm...and safe here. The quiet interchange of polite banter.....the occasional outburst of spontaneous laughter...gradually diminishes...and silence......enters the room. The music stops. A door opens..... A soft rustling of clothing....the sound of bare feet on the carpet. There They are. They are even more beautiful then their pictures on the back of all those books. Should I look at them?...I'm dizzy.....dopamine floods my body. They flow to the big chair.....look out over the adoring eyes...and slowly clasp their hands in front of their radiant backlit face....and bow. My hands...without my help...respond in kind. Tears....I feel tears streaming down my face.......I hope that the person next me cannot hear my pounding heart. I have to pee....but am not brave enough to leave now..... The shadowy figure sits......bows there head...closes their eyes....and silence...sweet silence. I am falling now....falling in love....... A voice: 'Hello' 'Welcome' ........and the dance begins. I have danced this dance many times...I know the steps...I know how to follow. I am dancing with every one in the room now...It almost feels like I have known them forever. Time passes in light speed....... The dance os over. Now silence. ......a soft sound of bare feet......a door opening...then closing softly. They have left the building. I sit ....in the afterglow........thinking that this is what I have always wanted.......only this. Time passes. I stand.......and look at people....that pretty young lady from Pasadena and her mother smile at me....and I smile back....Pasadena is such a beautiful city.....I could live in Pasadena......in one of those big old houses.......Or maybe in Berkeley....up in those green hills......... As I leave the room...and join the growing line in front of the flower strewn table....reach for my credit card.......and pick out several books...tapes and videos, I sign my name to a list.... the tape of today's dance..will be available in two weeks....Its twenty five dollars.....but they have expenses.......and that retreat center......that's going to cost a lot. " Money well spent " ....I think to myself. I pick up the schedule for upcoming dances......and wonder how much plane fare to Munich will be. Maybe I can use it as a write off. toombaru ** If you do not wish to receive individual emails, to change your subscription, sign in with your ID and go to Edit My Groups: /mygroups?edit=1 Under the Message Delivery option, choose " No Email " for the Nisargadatta group and click on Save Changes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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