Guest guest Posted March 17, 2006 Report Share Posted March 17, 2006 Nisargadatta , " Arvind " <adithya_comming wrote: > > Nisargadatta , " Arvind " <adithya_comming@> > wrote: > > > > [...] > > > > > > It is my *observation* that 'wanting' > > > > things 'for the future' with the CLEAR > > > > *realization* that they are desired 'in > > > > the future' and not now... doesn't make > > > > one unhappy! > > > > > > > > > Interesting. > > > I´m questioning it though. > > > I´ll tell you about what happened to me once. > > > I was in love :-) > > > Desperately. > > > But somewhere I knew that this love was impossible. > > > I was dreaming about how much I wanted to be with the person, in > > > some near future. Not in the very moment, the very moment was OK > > > like it was, but in the near future, one day, when I´m still not > > too > > > old to enjoy I wanted to be with the person. > > > And then I realized that it was really impossible. That it > really > > > didn´t make sense to think about it, because it would never be. > I > > > realized that I had to give up the hope. (think of " You´re > > > beautiful " of James Blunt ;-) > > > And then I felt so deeply unhappy. > > > Afterwards something interesting happened, but I might tell you > > > later. > > > Now just this, to show that losing hope for a positive change in > > the > > > future can make one unhappy. > > > What do you say? > > > > > > Len > > > > > > > > > [...] Another *lie* arises when I try to *think for others*! I know, *I like her*! But, I don't really know if she likes me! And, truth is that I will NEVER really know whether she likes me or not!!!! No matter what she says, no matter how many times she says it and no matter what she does! I can make thousand guess but, I will never know for sure... Deep in my heart, even I know it! I too know that I can't really know what and how this girl feels! My *unknowingness* of her feeling is my truth and as long as I stay with this *true* *unknowingness* - it doesn't hurt! I know, I like her... and, this is al I really know... The moment I step into this *petal splitting* business of *she like me* and *she likes me not* - it is bound to hurt! It will hurt - because, it will always remain a *made up* lie! Deep in my heart, I too know that I can't really know her real feelings! ....and, any attempt I make to *pretend* to know what I too know *I don't really know* I am *forcing* myself into a lie... Cont... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2006 Report Share Posted March 18, 2006 Nisargadatta , " Arvind " <adithya_comming wrote: > > Nisargadatta , " Arvind " <adithya_comming@> > wrote: > > > > Nisargadatta , " Arvind " <adithya_comming@> > > wrote: > > > > > > [...] > > > > > > > > It is my *observation* that 'wanting' > > > > > things 'for the future' with the CLEAR > > > > > *realization* that they are desired 'in > > > > > the future' and not now... doesn't make > > > > > one unhappy! > > > > > > > > > > > > Interesting. > > > > I´m questioning it though. > > > > I´ll tell you about what happened to me once. > > > > I was in love :-) > > > > Desperately. > > > > But somewhere I knew that this love was impossible. > > > > I was dreaming about how much I wanted to be with the person, > in > > > > some near future. Not in the very moment, the very moment was > OK > > > > like it was, but in the near future, one day, when I´m still > not > > > too > > > > old to enjoy I wanted to be with the person. > > > > And then I realized that it was really impossible. That it > > really > > > > didn´t make sense to think about it, because it would never > be. > > I > > > > realized that I had to give up the hope. (think of " You´re > > > > beautiful " of James Blunt ;-) > > > > And then I felt so deeply unhappy. > > > > Afterwards something interesting happened, but I might tell > you > > > > later. > > > > Now just this, to show that losing hope for a positive change > in > > > the > > > > future can make one unhappy. > > > > What do you say? > > > > > > > > Len > > > > > > > > > > > > > > [...] > > > Another *lie* arises when I try to > *think for others*! > > I know, *I like her*! > > But, I don't really know if she likes > me! > > And, truth is that I will NEVER really > know whether she likes me or not!!!! No > matter what she says, no matter how > many times she says it and no matter > what she does! I can make thousand > guess but, I will never know for sure... > > Deep in my heart, even I know it! I > too know that I can't really know what > and how this girl feels! My > *unknowingness* of her feeling is my > truth and as long as I stay with this > *true* *unknowingness* - it doesn't hurt! > > I know, I like her... and, this is al > I really know... > > The moment I step into this *petal > splitting* business of *she like me* > and *she likes me not* - it is bound to > hurt! It will hurt - because, it will > always remain a *made up* lie! Deep in > my heart, I too know that I can't > really know her real feelings! > > ...and, any attempt I make to > *pretend* to know what I too know *I > don't really know* I am *forcing* > myself into a lie... > > > > Cont... Hmmm... I have the feeling that I can know how others feel about me, if they are clear about it. There is of course always a possibility that they are lying, but it's so small. And I have everything: not only words, but actions, body language... I have no guarantee that somebody will like me for ever but I certainly know when somebody likes me now and shows it. Len Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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