Desires as *duty*.

[Guest guest]

I am married to very beautiful and

extremely *desirable* woman! In

addition to being very *desirable*, my

wife also greatly appreciates being

*desired*! To put it even more bluntly,

she loves making love and being loved

and with fairly generous frequency,

quality and quantity!

 

That was never a problem as I was a

very willing, eager, grateful and ever

*hungry for more* participant!

 

Some time back [about two years back],

I started getting Very, very quiet and

peaceful inside - and, amazingly it

made me *celibate* outside! It was not

something that I had *planned* for,

wanted or *wished* for! But, as I got

peaceful the need for male-female union

simply disappeared!

 

I was still able to participate and

now, actually participation could

remain almost *endless* as my love

making didn't have any *emotional

fluctuation*! There was no high and low

of feeling within me and I remained at

exactly same place before, after and

during! Lovemaking just became like a

light-hearted, innocent play for me not

a drive of passion! Even while making

love, I remain active yet, not attached!

 

Further, now, it was almost always

initiated by my wife and if she didn't -

it didn't happen!

 

It was becoming incompatible with my

family life as my wife certainly

*desired* and deserved to be *desired* -

and, it was also part of my *duty* as a

husband to keep the *passion* alive!

 

That is when; I [re]discovered desires

and I started consciously cultivating

and nurturing them!

 

It almost sounds funny...

 

Now, many days in the morning, I *act*

to *create* desires!!!

 

 

....

 

 

 

 

 

Pretty much same thing was happening

to other activities also! I enjoyed

doing almost everything and responded

and enjoyed most of the things that

happened! Yet, there was hardly any

inner drive for things or doing...

 

Again, here, I discovered the need

for *desires*!!!

 

As a *professional* man,

as well as a man belonging to a society...

having *desires* IS like my *duty*!

 

 

Most call such desires *PURPOSE*...

but, I prefer to call them *desires*

because, *purpose* kind of gives you a

sense that *you are going to do it*!

Whereas, in desires, I just desire

whatever I want and then, I let the *desire*

itself take care of itself - and, most

often than not it does...