RE: Sickness . . .

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--- Arvind <adithya_comming a écrit :

 

 

 

This feeling of *empty body*, *happy

mind* and extra sensitivity pretty much

stayed with me since then, yet,

sometimes there will be a definite

movement away from it [mostly prompted

by my thoughts that as a practical,

family man and professional, I need to

manage and control my life in certain

way].

 

Many times, I started returning to

somewhat solid feeling body as well

many other symptoms that existed prior

to that incident!

 

But, then something strange would

happen...

 

One morning, I would wake up again...

'blasted out' and all that 'movement

towards solid' will become NULL! It

will pretty much like the same

experience all over again!

 

I still haven't really understood it!

 

 

 

[ NNB ]

 

 

Nisargadatta , " Arvind "

<adithya_comming

wrote:

>

> My onset to spirituality was prompted

> by a sickness...

>

> This sickness was kind of strange in

> the sense that I didn't know its cause

> and it had body ache/pain which was

> quite intense and at same time was

> moving [i.e. one part of boy will hurt

> and then another and so on]. It was so

> weird that I kind of found it Hilarious!

>

> But much stranger was *how* I woke up

> the night after the sickness...

>

> I felt like 'finished'...

>

> Not only my mind felt complete blank

> and empty...

>

> My body too felt 'no existent'!!!

>

>

> When I walked, it felt as if my body

> was weightless!

>

>

> I was Very mystified as well as little

> frightened, concerned and worried!

>

> In one way, it was a very cool

> feeling...

>

>

>

> I naturally felt extremely relaxed,

> calm, peaceful, devoid of any worries

> as if I had *really*... *died*!!! Even

> when I performed some physical tasks in

> this mode, I felt kind of strange, only

> the concerned parts would move and

> *feel* but, rest of the body would

> still feel completely empty and non

> existent!

>

> Yet, I didn't understand it at all and

> I worried if it was a sign of

> approaching physical death or some

> serious sickness!

>

>

>

> I tried to explore and understand it

> from every angle possible... sickness,

> medicine, diet, food, allergy, brain,

> chemical imbalance as well as...

> spirituality, realization and

> enlightenment!

>

>

> Another strange thing that had

> happened after this incident was that I

> had become very *sensitive*! Many

> times, with my children, family,

> friends, parents tears would frequently

> and easily come because of " too much "

> joy! many times, it became quite

> embarrassing and I would have to do

> something to hide them. Sometimes, even

> playing with my son became difficult

> because my body would start behaving in

> somewhat weird way...

>

> But, I became extra *sensitive* to

> pain too! Many times, when I felt *bad*

> or when I found myself subject to

> *injustice* [as I perceived it],

> *unfairness*, lies, dishonesty or

> hostility... my body would literally

> BURN and ACHE!!!!

>

> Emotions [and their removal] and

> spirituality was no longer just a

> matter of *curiosity* for me anymore...

>

> ---

>

> *it was pretty much after that, that

> I read my first ever word of Ramana,

> Niz and many others...

 

I relate.

Ever since I can remember, it was all too much for me,

I felt I had landed on a different planet..too much...

And this world isn`t to sympathetic to sensitivity.

Actually,I have been yelled at several times, for

being too sensitive..That would make me laught because

it is the most ridiculous thing that can happen ..

 

Patricia

>

 

 

 

 

 

 

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