Guest guest Posted April 8, 2006 Report Share Posted April 8, 2006 Nisargadatta , " Arvind " <adithya_comming wrote: > > I have woken like this many times > before... > > Emptiness, nothingness... > > the head like vacuum... no thoughts... > > the body like not existing... > weightless... floating... > > > It is the feeling which is free of > everything... > > It is free of problems, troubles, > worries... > > It is also free of me... no agenda, no > plan, no goal, > no mission, nothing to do, nothing to > not to do... the absence of > Conceptualization... > > I put on my shoes... devoid of any > mental sensation... and pretty much > devoid of any physical sensation too... > as if my hands were just some mechanical > device... > like both being there and not being there at the same time? > I come home and my daughter tells me > something... I feel overflowing and > tears come immediately to my eyes! I > seem to be too sensitive to joy... > > > My wife shouts at me and accuses me of > something that is untrue and my back > physically burns as if I have been hit! > > Neither my child's words nor my wife's > shouts required any interpretation from > me in order to have some effect on my > *body* just as... the feeling of warm > water against my skin *works* without > me thinking about it! Just as feeling > of Very Hot water or burning coal too > work against my skin without me having > to think about it! > > As if there is something more than > just *words* that came out of my > child's and wife's mouth... > > As if the love, anger and hate is some > real energy... > > as if it is Only Now that I am able to > *really* *feel* it... > > as if *feeling* them is not a matter > of my *choice*... maybe, this is how > they really *work*, maybe this is how > they really *interact*! Maybe, it is > just the *nature* of these *energies* > and *body*... and as like everything > else in the *nature*... my *body* too > is bound by this nature and rule... as > it is bound by the hunger, thirst and > everything else... Maybe not too much. Maybe just the right amount. Bill > > [Felt about 10 days back...] > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2006 Report Share Posted April 8, 2006 Nisargadatta , Adithya K <adithya_comming wrote: > > >>[Felt about 10 days back...] > > > ... > > I don't only feel Very New, Pristine, > Fresh... > > In fact, I feel like 'not existing'... > > > Not only I have no worries, [mental] > troubles, [mental] problems... > I don't even have floating dreams, > imaginations or other recycling > memories... > > As if my *thinking* and *memory* has > been reduced to the minimum... > picking up the key, driving the car, > parking the car, picking up the laptop > bag... > > Other than those essential ones, I > seem to have no real *thoughts*... not > even *spiritual* ones!!! > > I am not concerned about *God*, > *truth*, purpose of the universe, > purpose of my life... > that all seem to have pretty much died > along with me... > > > > > Pretty soon, I notice something else... > > My memory seem to not working as it > used to be... > > I tend to forget things much more > frequently than I used to... > > and, when they ask me something at > work, I seem to have some *delay* as if > I have to *consciously* remember and > fetch something... > > where before, it seemed to have been > *automatic*!!! There is an adjustment phase... it could take a while... but you'll be fine. It is a huge shift, and your brain will be rewiring itself to work in a new way... a way that will be so much more effective than before... Here is a portion from an account by a man who was profoundly transformed during an interview with Ramana Maharshi. I think you will relate: The wonder of it was that my awareness was not in the body — my awareness was over the whole of the space filled with that Nectar. The whole Universe was Nectar. I call it Nectar; you could call it Ether, something very subtle, attached with awareness at every point. And everything living and non-living was like snow flakes floating in that ocean of Nectar. If you ask me what my body was, my body was the whole universe of Nectar, attached to awareness at every point. No particular association from the one body from where it started — this body was like every other body. By morning everything subsided, though the underlying experience remained. I was totally unconscious of my body. I was moving around like an automaton, unaware of my body. In that state I returned to Madurai where I was a physics professor. This was during a Christmas vacation. For the next two weeks I remained in that state. With the opening of college I was scheduled to give lectures and my relatives became rather concerned, for my behaviour had changed considerably. etc.... the entire account is here: http://www.realization.org/page/doc1/doc109a.htm Very interesting to go back and look at that account, particularly: something very subtle, attached with awareness at every point. And everything living and non-living was like snow flakes floating in that ocean of Nectar. that is what it is like... like awareness is filled with little " sparklies " ... that what is the supposed " content " of awareness is unimportant... that there is simply everywhere a sparkling vitality. It is what I have been trying to say with the term *Vibrant Now*. Bill > > ...and, I think, *memory* is perhaps > only formed by the *repletion* of > *thoughts*! > > ...and, I remember why *spirituality*, > so-called *awakening*, *enlightenment* > is so *close to home* to me! Why it is > not just a matter of *curiosity* and > *guessing* why it is so *real* to me > and why it is so close to *flesh*... > > > If I was to really continue this way, > not only I might literally fall out of > family, profession and society in fact, > I wouldn't even be able to live as a > *spiritual* teacher or just a > *spiritual* person... > > I don't even have any *spiritual* > thought... > > nor do I have any question, answer, > guess or speculation about... *God*... > > Nor I have any concern about... *who > am I??*!!! > > > And, I remember *how much* of our > *lives* [including *spiritual* parts] > are just based on *thoughts*!!!! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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