Fwd: Can it ever come back?

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NonDualPhil , " Tanya Davis " <scrowleypaws

wrote:

 

NonDualPhil , mjb <mjb.001@> wrote:

>

> What does that mean when you say " the personal self-activity

stops " ?

 

Hi Brian,

 

I can only speak from my own experience.

Which is to tell a story.

 

There was a situation, deeply important to me, which I was

anticipating and in which I wanted to be free of conditioning -

vital, alive, present, naked, however you want to put it.

 

In the anticipation there was thinking, 'I should do this / be like

this / remember this / forget it all / let go of expectations / not

do anything / 'love' - etc. etc.'

Then there was the realisation that it was impossible for 'me' to be

without conditioning - vital, alive, present or naked.

Because what I *am* is conditioning, mechanical seeking, becoming,

past/future based - selfish, devious, needy, lacking, etc.

 

And in this case the desire to 'come clean' was so great that all of

this activity was rejected. Every thought based in trying to *be*

anything - however subtly - was rejected. And as each thought was

rejected as it arose they eventually stopped arising.

And it was found that without them, without the *activity* of 'me',

there was no 'me'.

 

The Identity did not exist.

Awake and functioning but with no personal self-sense whatsoever.

 

Of course, the question may then be - what was awake and

functioning? Is this still not a personal attachment to the body,

thoughts, actions, whatever appearing as if from the perspective of

a particular person?

Yes.

Just not 'me' anymore.

 

Tanya

 

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