My Car Won't Start!

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5/17/06

 

This morning my R.V. refused to start. It wasn't exactly that it refused. I

mean, I didn't ask it to start and it said no, I refuse. It just didn't start.

Of course I don't mean that IT didn't start. The R.V. doesn't start or not

start, it is just the container for that which can start or not start. It is

the engine within the R.V. that refused to start. Of course it didn't exactly

refuse. It's not like I asked it to start and it refused, but still, I tried to

make it start, or begin running, and it just wouldn't. Actually, it's not

exactly that it wouldn't at all; it did, but didn't run smoothly and black smoke

came out of the exhaust pipes and it coughed and sputtered, and had no power of

strength to pull the R.V. It is an R.V. even if it had no engine isn't it?

Does it need an engine to be an R.V?

Anyhow, I had to call and cancel my teaching job for the day, but I couldn't

reach the computer, so I called the school to cancel. Then I tried to drive it,

but it kept on faltering so I pulled over to a parking place off the main

street, because there was no parking on the main street, but there was parking

on a busy cross street, so I pulled over and called my towing service.

This story, actually it's not a story, it is a representation of something that

happened that is not happening now, but of course it was happening in another

now that is not this now, if you know what I mean.

When the engine started, but sounded broken, I thought, this is not happening, I

am just dreaming, or watching a movie about myself have an engine problem, but

much as I thought, this is not happening, it wouldn't go away and become

something more pleasant or enjoyable, so much as I tried to treat it as an

illusion or a fantasy, it wouldn't go away or change into something else. I

tried to remember what the wise and deep thinkers had written on the Nisargatta

List: you know, that I wasn't really here, that I don't exist, the everyday

world is like a movie that is not real and there is nothing happening, but I

couldn't wake up or get out of the situation.

So, I conclude that I am really limited in my understanding of the truth of the

deeper reality, that I am in the way of my own experience of truth, and that I

have much to learn about enlightenment, truth and reality, and I feel so envious

of those great ones on the Niz and in other places, that can just make their

cars start by seeing that the brokeness is just a false view of the truth, and

that the I am is not real so this terrible situation will not exist. And how

about the money I lost by not being able to get to work? I'm sure I am just

imagining the loss and that it was just a dream and the money will show up when

I am ready to recieve it.

Oh my! My bad.

 

Larry Epston

 

 

 

 

 

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Nisargadatta , epston wrote:

>

> 5/17/06

>

> This morning my R.V. refused to start. It wasn't exactly that it

refused. I mean, I didn't ask it to start and it said no, I refuse.

It just didn't start. Of course I don't mean that IT didn't start.

The R.V. doesn't start or not start, it is just the container for that

which can start or not start. It is the engine within the R.V. that

refused to start. Of course it didn't exactly refuse. It's not like I

asked it to start and it refused, but still, I tried to make it start,

or begin running, and it just wouldn't. Actually, it's not exactly

that it wouldn't at all; it did, but didn't run smoothly and black

smoke came out of the exhaust pipes and it coughed and sputtered, and

had no power of strength to pull the R.V. It is an R.V. even if it

had no engine isn't it? Does it need an engine to be an R.V?

> Anyhow, I had to call and cancel my teaching job for the day, but I

couldn't reach the computer, so I called the school to cancel. Then I

tried to drive it, but it kept on faltering so I pulled over to a

parking place off the main street, because there was no parking on the

main street, but there was parking on a busy cross street, so I pulled

over and called my towing service.

> This story, actually it's not a story, it is a representation of

something that happened that is not happening now, but of course it

was happening in another now that is not this now, if you know what I

mean.

> When the engine started, but sounded broken, I thought, this is not

happening, I am just dreaming, or watching a movie about myself have

an engine problem, but much as I thought, this is not happening, it

wouldn't go away and become something more pleasant or enjoyable, so

much as I tried to treat it as an illusion or a fantasy, it wouldn't

go away or change into something else. I tried to remember what the

wise and deep thinkers had written on the Nisargatta List: you know,

that I wasn't really here, that I don't exist, the everyday world is

like a movie that is not real and there is nothing happening, but I

couldn't wake up or get out of the situation.

> So, I conclude that I am really limited in my understanding of the

truth of the deeper reality, that I am in the way of my own experience

of truth, and that I have much to learn about enlightenment, truth and

reality, and I feel so envious of those great ones on the Niz and in

other places, that can just make their cars start by seeing that the

brokeness is just a false view of the truth, and that the I am is not

real so this terrible situation will not exist. And how about the

money I lost by not being able to get to work? I'm sure I am just

imagining the loss and that it was just a dream and the money will

show up when I am ready to recieve it.

> Oh my! My bad.

>

> Larry Epston

 

Well, Larry, the difficulty with this scenario is that you're already

assuming that events happened to you, and that you can reflect on the

events, and then put that together with what the wise ones said.

The wise ones said none of this happened.

 

So, in your scenario, there is you, there are events that happened to

you, and there are wise ones that commented about how nothing

happened, and then there is your take on what they said.

 

Thus, with the assumptions you start out with, the teachings have to

be useless.

 

But, if for you, the teachings were on target, the teachings

themselves wouldn't have happened to be on target, let alone the rest

of it.

 

Another way to look at this is: it all takes care of itself.

 

Teachings about how it is a dream aren't a final word on things in any

sense of the word.

 

They can't be.

 

Nor can some other teaching be.

 

-- D.