Cutting the Flow !

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> ...and, then, again, I have also seen

> many of those who are *in power* at

> office start turning and twitching in

> their chair [as if their chair had

> turned HOT] the minute they started

> talking to their wife!

>

 

 

My recent thinking on these lines

occurred as I reflected on my

*blissful*, *unworried*, *free of

*suffering** stay in India versus my

first three weeks on my return to USA!

 

Once is USA, I was again dealing with

CEO, CTO, VPs and the guys who were

supposed to be my *boss*, who were

supposed to be *in power*... who

supposed to have *power over me*! And,

at many times I found myself vehemently

disagreeing with my VP, boos and yet,

*choosing* to remain quiet or

*attempting* to word it *nicely*! And,

I noticed that each time I did it -

there was always a sense of inner pain,

an inner suffering as if I had spilt

myself in two as if I had cut the

*natural* flow!

 

 

And, I remembered, this is also

similar to how I have often related to

my wife too!

 

 

And, I observed that it was this

feeling [of not having *absolute*

power] that gave rise to the *observer*

- the Duality! And, this rise of the

observer, the judge was always

accompanied by *split* and pain as it

started evaluating and passing

judgments each thought, each action!

 

Before this observer... I remained

just like a simple empty passage

through which thought, actions and

words simply flowed! I didn't attempt

to ask any question for why certain

thought, action had risen, I didn't

feel the need to think or act certain

way and I was not bothered with what

thoughts and actions occurred and what

*should* have occurred! I was like a

*boss* simply saying, doing, acting,

thinking any way that came!

 

I was not bothered with the reason,

the purpose, and the mission of a

thought or action. I was not bothered

about what they *should* be! A though

came or not... I acted on it or not and

that was the end of it! I was not there

to *judge* them, *categorize* them,

*evaluate* them...

 

and, what *naturally* gave rise to

that *attitude* was the *sense of

freedom*, *sense of power*! I was not

bothered with *what someone might

think*, *what someone might say*,

*whether someone might like me, my

words, my thoughts or not*... kind of

like when I was interviewing someone

for a job and was very sure that I can

get many guys like this and whether

liked me or not was of no concern to

me! Or, kind of like a guy with 100

million dollars whom others were

approaching for *investment* - whether

someone liked me, my ideas, my words,

my thoughts - was NEVER *my* problem!

 

I simply acted as I happened to act

i.e. as the words, actions, thoughts

naturally flowed through! And, I was

perfectly fine with it! And, reflecting

on it, I noticed it was like living in

*UNITY*!