Guest guest Posted October 6, 2006 Report Share Posted October 6, 2006 How can you be perfect ....when, 'finding' faults in you is my fulltime job? When I stop 'finding' faults in _What_Is_; I feel like not having any " work " ! I feel 'unemployed'. I feel as if 'I' amd not needed. I feel as if 'I' have no 'reason' to 'exist'. How can 'I' let that happen... when finding something 'wrong' is so intricately linked to my survival? I see that 'I' spend some of my 'thinking time' in finding flaws in evrything else... and, rest of the times [when 'I' am not 'busy' finding flaws in someone or something else] ... I am 'busy' finding faults in " me " ! Any " fault " , anywhere will do, as it gives " me " a 'job', it gives " me " something to do! Without 'something to do' ....'I' feel so restless! Without 'something to do' ....I don't even know why 'I' am there! And, that's why looking for faults is my fulltime job! Looking for faults Looking for what is wrong pretty much summarises all my " thinking time " ! My " thinking " survives only because I am looking for 'something to do'! And, when I am not 'thinking'... 'I' don't even see " me " existing. And, how can 'I' let happen? When, 'I' am so very important to " me " ! I have noticed that 'I' sustain " me " in my thinking and I sustain it only as long as I am sure 'I' is needed. And, I am sure of 'I' being needed only when I can feel that there is something 'to do'... and, I feel there is something 'to do' only by thinking that _What_Is_ needs some 'improvements', some 'changes' that 'I' need to make! 'Finding fault'... yes, that is " my " fulltime job! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 6, 2006 Report Share Posted October 6, 2006 Good observation ! I only found two mistakes, and corrected them right away. lulu How can I be perfect ....when, 'finding' faults in you is my fulltime job? When I stop 'finding' faults I feel like not having any " work " ! I feel 'unemployed' . I feel as if 'I' am not needed. I feel as if 'I' have no 'reason' to 'exist'. How can 'I' let that happen... when finding something 'wrong' is so intricately linked to my survival? I see that 'I' spend some of my 'thinking time' in finding flaws in everything else... and, rest of the times [when 'I' am not 'busy' finding flaws in someone or something else] ... I am 'busy' finding faults in " me " ! Any " fault " , anywhere will do, as it gives " me " a 'job', it gives " me " something to do! Without 'something to do' ....'I' feel so restless! Without 'something to do' ....I don't even know why 'I' am there! And, that's why looking for faults is my fulltime job! Looking for faults Looking for what is wrong pretty much summarises all my " thinking time " ! My " thinking " survives only because I am looking for 'something to do'! And, when I am not 'thinking'.. . 'I' don't even see " me " existing. And, how can 'I' let happen? When, 'I' am so very important to " me " ! I have noticed that 'I' sustain " me " in my thinking and I sustain it only as long as I am sure 'I' is needed. And, I am sure of 'I' being needed only when I can feel that there is something 'to do'... and, I feel there is something 'to do' only by thinking that _What_Is_ needs some 'improvements' , some 'changes' that 'I' need to make! 'Finding fault'... yes, that is " my " fulltime job! Everyone is raving about the all-new Mail. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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