The I & Separation

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To me,

It boils down to something very simple

and perhaps, something quite obvious.

 

 

At any moment, I can have two possible

outlooks:

 

a. I serve the 'leela' [the unfolding

of the universal play].

 

Or,

 

b. Leela [the universe] should be here

to serve " me " [the entity which owes

its birth, continued existence to the

leela. The entity which like other

'entities' like it will cease very soon.]

 

 

With the outlook#1, I look for the ways to

SERVE the Moment! With the outlook#2,

I look for the moment [universe] to 'serve'

me and complain when I think it is not

'serving' me the way I want it to

 

 

I have noticed that based on these two

outlooks [or perhaps, understanding ]

, my feelings and my internal state is

greatly different!

 

Further, when my outlook is of the

first, I am ready to 'suffer' 'gladly'

and to SEE how can it 'possibly' serve

this 'leela'! And, seeing that is what

I consider my " chosen " , my precious, my

joyous 'responsibility'! It is the

effortless joyous responsibility

inherent in Love!

 

 

Interestingly, and perhaps, quite ironically,

with the first outlook, I have noticed that

my happiness is quite effortless, easy and

natural - what makes it so interesting is the

FACT that when my outlook is of former,

I don't really 'mind' being unhappy!

 

 

 

 

Further, when my outlook is of former,

the 'notion' of [personal]

enlightenment, nirvana, moksha,

salvation, mukti, liberation seems like

a joke to me. They seem like 'toys'

that might work to keep 'children'

occupied for some time, but, have no

other usefulness for those who have

grown up. These notions not only seem

'childish' they also seem pretty

useless, unnecessary and sometimes,

counter-productive.

 

Notion of 'enlightenment' is like a

child saying - I NEVER want to cry

again! For most part, it is impossible

and little the 'child' understand how

important, how necessary and how

essential part of its nature crying is -

and, sometime it is also So Incredibly

Beautiful!

 

 

 

When my outlook is of the former, I am

ready to 'cry' gladly and with

'gratitude'! When my outlook is of the

former, I am non longer looking for…

the 'freedom' [] from Crying! It is

neither necessary not it is useful!

But, the wish for it to be so is quite

" childish " for sure...

 

 

[nnb]

 

 

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Love or not. That is all there is

to it. If you can come again to

the position of loving, of being

sustained and being a sustainer in

the natural flow of things, then

you will continue to grow, and the

very structural dimensions toward

which you are experientially

disposed will show themselves in

the form of experience. You must

be responsible for the effects of

those things. You must be responsible

in every moment, so that, no matter

what arises, the contraction of

feeling-attention is not your

destiny, not your disposition in the

moment. You must be able to cut

through that contraction, whatever

the experience, high or low.

 

~ Adi

 

 

 

 

...so the question remains: what is

cut through when the contraction- I Am-is seen?

Is it experience? Is it Love?

 

I offer you this:

 

It IS the endless re-arriving to that original

place--where there is/was no-thing but this

seeing through again and again, into infinity and beyond ;-)

 

The curtain remains open and the show goes on.

 

:-0