Re : Desperately seeking Peace . . .

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> I find it interesting that to both

Katie and the Course in Miracles teaches

you to get to this stage of not

knowing.

 

> Admitting that I did not know was a

fearful experience in the beginning.

 

 

Yes, I found what Katie says in the

regard TRUE:

 

Ultimately, you are all you can ever

know!

 

But, knowing that [i AM], I consider my

responsibility!

 

 

 

> Once I saw how true it was and that

I am being taken care of by reality no

matter what I think, it became so

peaceful.

 

" Who " is that you who is being taken

care by… " Reality " ???

 

I want to know and understand that

" who " within me!

 

And, I also want to know if that " who "

is different than the " Reality " that

you say takes care of everything!

 

On investigation, if I find that " who "

within me and Reality is Same… Reality's

responsibility and my responsibility

becomes SAME! If Reality loves and

sustains ALL… I want to play my part in

it!

 

I want to be one with Reality, I want

to want what it wants; I want to do

what it does! As you say, it serves us;

once I know I am no different than

Reality, I want to play my part in

'serving' its 'serving'!

 

 

> I don't have to know why

> something happened, I don't have to know why someone behaved the

way they

> do, I don't have to know how I will be taken care of tomorrow, I

don't have

> to know why I am writing this mail.

>

> Not knowing feels very peaceful to me!

>

 

If you are asleep, drugged, drunk, in

mediation, in 'careless zone'…

everything and anything can feel

" peaceful " until Reality HITS and asks

you to Wake Up!!!! Reality says, Wake

Up… your 'sleeping' [no matter how

'peaceful to you] is not what I want

from you!!!

 

I have noticed that making 'myself'

peaceful, blissful, 'ecstatic',

'joyous' is not my ONLY purpose! I can

do that pretty much anytime and even

those who can't do it without some

external help; can still do it by

meditating, thru sex, drugs, alcohol,

antidepressant, sports, exercise or… by

being near a guru, a child! Yet, just

by being " peaceful " I don't serve the

purpose for which the universe [as my

father and mother] birthed me, the

universe [as industry, technology,

manufacturing, distribution, consumer]

sustains me!

 

I found that endlessly

" looking for peace " was an extremely

selfish, self-centered and narrow way

to be! Once I found that out, I was

glad that the universe [as a spouse, as

a boss…] made great efforts to wake me

out of my [peaceful by selfish and

narrow'] slumber!!!!