Begining of Enlightenment.

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However, I saw that the Awakening and

the Self Recognition hadn't changed me

as a 'person' that much neither they

have changed my 'way of being' in the

world that much. No doubt, my ability

to be lam, peaceful and happy had

increased tremendously and meditation

had become effortless, natural and

spontaneous for me. Yet, in most of my

personal and professional life, I was

often driven by same 'self interest' as

before. I wondered if that was the only

way it could be. As a result of being

mostly driven by 'self interest'; I was

still very fallible to reactivity,

anger, pride, greed, lust and vanity. I

wondered if that was the only way it

could be.

 

 

Noticing that my happiness and peace

was not really dependent on anything

external; driven by same 'self

interest', sometimes I would wonder why

I was doing what I was doing as I

really didn't need it for my own

happiness.

 

 

Then, I encountered quote, an article

and an author that further changed my

thinking:

 

 

Quote:

 

I don't know what your destiny will be,

but one thing I know: the only ones among

you who will be really happy are those

who will have sought and found how to serve.

 

~ Albert Schweitzer

 

 

 

Article:

 

http://www.workingwithoneness.org/article_adyashanti.html

 

 

 

Author:

 

http://lessonsinawareness.com/powervsforce.aspx

 

 

http://www.scribd.com/doc/6723/Hawkins-David-Power-vs-Force

 

 

http://www.beyondtheordinary.net/drhawkins.shtml

 

 

http://www.sedonacreativelife.com/pre0726.html

 

 

 

After reading this author, I learned to

question the intention behind my

action. At any point, was I being

driven by:

 

.. . . . . . Greed, Fear, Shame, Guilt, Lust,

Anger, resentment or Pride

 

Or,

 

Was I doing it because of my Intrinsic

goodness, because of:

 

.. . . . . . . Compassion, Kindness, Love, Peace,

Understanding, Reason, Clarity and

Intelligence

 

 

 

I thought this question can work as

very valuable moment to moment, day to

day guide.

 

And, imbibing this I see as the `beginning'

of enlightenment. Doing the 'Consciousness's work'

in place of being blindly, unconsciously

driven by hormones, narrow selfishness

and base animal instincts.

 

 

 

 

>

> When awakening happened to me, I

> thought that I was physically dying. My

> mind would get blank - thoughtless and

> I would think if this is what death is;

> if this is what a person feels before

> death. I would wonder if it meant; I

> was about to die. Many times it would

> occur on its own and I would start

> purposely start thinking, dreaming, and

> imagining, in order to bury this

> feeling of BLANK, this feeling of

> emptiness under thoughts. I bought term

> life insurance thinking that perhaps, I

> had some terminal disease and was about

> to die soon.

>

>

> That was the result of physical

> awakening sans Self Recognition

> .

>

>

> Then, I started reading Ramana. Some

> of the key points that I read and

> understood from Ramana were on the

> lines of:

>

>

> - There is NOT a Moment... when

> you are NOT!

>

> - See the Seer...

>

> - Blank is the EVIL result of

> looking for Mind...

>

> - Even in order to see

> 'absence'... you MUST be there!

>

> This was the 'beginning' of Self

> Realization.

>

>

>