Guest guest Posted May 22, 2007 Report Share Posted May 22, 2007 I think resistance to love is interlinked with the will to survive [as a separate entity]. I resist because I think if I don't. . . . I would become ONE Again! One with what I am afraid of and one with everything else. . . just ONE. I also think that this fear may not be totally irrational. Does a dear love a lion? Can a dear love the lion and still be vigilant and act to protect the body given to it? Yes, I know " in theory " , it is possible but, I think in practical life, it might be quite challenging. Similarly, can I really express 'my opinion', if I TRULY, FULLY loved all of it. . . unconditionally? Where is the " need " to express 'my opinion' when I already love all of yours? In fact, doesn't loving you totally. . . means that I have already given up all my 'personal opinions' along with my 'person'. Something quite strange that I have experienced happening is, when I envision a person; I feel as if I have become THAT person. This is not something that I try to do and this is not something that choose to do. Yet, it happens. And, this feeling of " becoming " is Very Sweet, maybe it is just love. I am not sure this is the way that person really feels; in fact, I think this is not the way that person feels. Somehow, once I envision that person, it all becomes one with the Love within and I feel that person as a love too. Possibly, my mirror neurons are over- active. Increasingly, I feel this way towards my boss, my colleagues, my friends, people I meet too and I have to actively work to disengage myself and move away my gaze. I know, people might get freaked out by it and I would in fact, expect them to be freaked out. There is certain expectation of " social " 'etiquette' that this mode of being might violate. I have noticed few signs of it and have used it to turn my gaze away and to behave in 'normal' way. I can understand, why It might seem little unexpected and out of place - work and marketplace is not expected to be a spiritual workshop or relationship seminar or an 'exercise in love'. We are not expected to really 'connect' here; we are only expected to 'deal' with people. I have been on the other side of this gaze many time and it does feel; as if, someone has entered you very soul. As if someone has seen you totally bare naked. I feel very vulnerable and you feel as if someone really knows. . . 'who you really are'. In those moments, it seems as if you have completely lost all your 'personality' and multiple layers that you have accumulated through many years of hard work. Yes, it does make me feel vulnerable and I haven't allowed this feeling to stay for long. If it was my wife or son; I would go and hug them. If it was a guru; I would look away. If it was a stranger; I would move away. And, so far, I think I have been 'safe' Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 22, 2007 Report Share Posted May 22, 2007 AC - You have stated this clearly and sincerely. It comes across to me as insightful and true -- and I'm glad you shared it. Thank you - -- Dan (nothing new below) Nisargadatta , " adithya_comming " <adithya_comming wrote: > > I think resistance to love is interlinked with > the will to survive [as a separate > entity]. I resist because I think if I > don't. . . . I would become ONE Again! > One with what I am afraid of and one > with everything else. . . just ONE. > > > I also think that this fear may not be > totally irrational. Does a dear love a > lion? Can a dear love the lion and > still be vigilant and act to protect > the body given to it? Yes, I know " in > theory " , it is possible but, I think in > practical life, it might be quite > challenging. > > > Similarly, can I really express 'my > opinion', if I TRULY, FULLY loved all > of it. . . unconditionally? Where is > the " need " to express 'my opinion' when > I already love all of yours? In fact, > doesn't loving you totally. . . means > that I have already given up all my > 'personal opinions' along with my > 'person'. > > Something quite strange that I have > experienced happening is, when I > envision a person; I feel as if I have > become THAT person. This is not > something that I try to do and this is > not something that choose to do. Yet, > it happens. > > And, this feeling of " becoming " is > Very Sweet, maybe it is just love. I am > not sure this is the way that person > really feels; in fact, I think this is > not the way that person feels. Somehow, > once I envision that person, it all > becomes one with the Love within and I > feel that person as a love too. > Possibly, my mirror neurons are over- > active. > > Increasingly, I feel this way towards > my boss, my colleagues, my friends, > people I meet too and I have to > actively work to disengage myself and > move away my gaze. I know, people might > get freaked out by it and I would in > fact, expect them to be freaked out. > > > There is certain expectation of > " social " 'etiquette' that this mode of > being might violate. I have noticed few > signs of it and have used it to turn > my gaze away and to behave in > 'normal' way. > > > I can understand, why > It might seem little unexpected and out > of place - work and marketplace is not > expected to be a spiritual workshop or > relationship seminar or an 'exercise in > love'. We are not expected to really > 'connect' here; we are only expected to > 'deal' with people. > > I have been on the > other side of this gaze many time and > it does feel; as if, someone has > entered you very soul. As if someone > has seen you totally bare naked. I feel > very vulnerable and you feel as if > someone really knows. . . 'who you > really are'. In those moments, it seems > as if you have completely lost all your > 'personality' and multiple layers that > you have accumulated through many years > of hard work. > > > Yes, it does make me feel > vulnerable and I haven't allowed > this feeling to stay for long. If it > was my wife or son; I would go and hug > them. If it was a guru; I would look > away. If it was a stranger; I would > move away. And, so far, I think I have > been 'safe' > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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