Guest guest Posted June 14, 2007 Report Share Posted June 14, 2007 My BEING is so pleasant. . . that I feel very 'guilty' each time, I become That! I feel as if I have 'stolen' a treasure. I feel as if I have 'sneaked' into heaven. . . and, I shouldn't have. I feel as I have forgotten my 'form identity'. . . and, have entered the UNITY that. . . I shouldn't have. I feel as if I was living in 'exile'. . . As if I was 'supposed' to be living in Exile. . . As if had made a 'promise' to live in Exile. . . outside the gates of Heaven. . . Yet, I entered heaven Again. . . And, I feel so Guilty. . . For breaking the promise, that I think I had made when I 'incarnated'. I was supposed to prented to always keep looking. . . Yet, to never 'find' it. . . at laest, this is how, I remember it. . . And, thus, each time, I stumble on it, Ah. . . I feel ever so guilty. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 14, 2007 Report Share Posted June 14, 2007 Nisargadatta , " adithya_comming " <adithya_comming wrote: > > My BEING is so pleasant. . . > > that I feel very 'guilty' each time, > I become That! > > > I feel as if I have 'stolen' a treasure. > > I feel as if I have 'sneaked' into heaven. . . > and, I shouldn't have. > > > I feel as I have forgotten my 'form identity'. . . > > and, have entered the UNITY that. . . I shouldn't have. > > > > I feel as if I was living in 'exile'. . . > > As if I was 'supposed' to be living in Exile. . . > > As if had made a 'promise' to live in Exile. . . > outside the gates of Heaven. . . > > Yet, I entered heaven Again. . . > > And, I feel so Guilty. . . > For breaking the promise, > that I think I had made when I 'incarnated'. > > > I was supposed to prented to always keep looking. . . > Yet, to never 'find' it. . . > > at laest, this is how, I remember it. . . > > And, thus, each time, I stumble on it, > Ah. . . I feel ever so guilty. > unburden yourself give It up (I am serious) ((even bliss is bondage)) Bill Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 14, 2007 Report Share Posted June 14, 2007 Guru told me: Do... as if you have nothing else to do. Be... as if you have nowhere else to go. Look... as if, you are looking at the only thing that exists. Be... as if you have Infinite time. Be... as if you have nothing to think. Unknowingly, I did that and miraculously, it again transported me to Heaven. The heaven that I have been secretly afraid of. Heaven, that I have been secretly avoiding. I had this indescribable sense of UNITY. In a weird sense, it appeared as if I had 'eaten' what I was looking at. .. . as if it was already inside me. Strangely, each time I look at anything this way, especially at a 'person'; due to some reason, I start worrying about the 'other'. . . Strangely, I feel as if I have destroyed its [meaning his/her] 'otherness', as if I have destroyed its separate 'existence', as if I have destroyed its 'specialiness', as if I have erased the boundaries and have merged All within. . . As if I have become All and have let go of all concerns for the 'other'. I think I shouldn't be doing it and I don't know why I feel that way. . . each time, when, I have 'become' LOVE. [ NNB ] > My BEING is so pleasant. . . > > that I feel very 'guilty' each time, > I become That! > > > I feel as if I have 'stolen' a treasure. > > I feel as if I have 'sneaked' into heaven. . . > and, I shouldn't have. > > > I feel as I have forgotten my 'form identity'. . . > > and, have entered the UNITY that. . . I shouldn't have. > > > > I feel as if I was living in 'exile'. . . > > As if I was 'supposed' to be living in Exile. . . > > As if had made a 'promise' to live in Exile. . . > outside the gates of Heaven. . . > > Yet, I entered heaven Again. . . > > And, I feel so Guilty. . . > For breaking the promise, > that I think I had made when I 'incarnated'. > > > I was supposed to prented to always keep looking. . . > Yet, to never 'find' it. . . > > at laest, this is how, I remember it. . . > > And, thus, each time, I stumble on it, > Ah. . . I feel ever so guilty. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 14, 2007 Report Share Posted June 14, 2007 > ok so Who is the " I " that feels > pleasant and who is the " I " that feels guilty. I that feels guilty is the one that rises. . . just after the FACT. It feels as if it had vowed to never have sex. . . And, it suddenly finds itself in the middle of an earth-shaking orgasm It feels as if its sanctity, its 'self' was dependent on not having this 'union' and now. . . it suddenly finds itself deeply merged it As if it has just had the union that it was never supposed to have and lost its 'virginity', the sanctity of its 'separate self' forever [...] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 14, 2007 Report Share Posted June 14, 2007 Nisargadatta , " adithya_comming " <adithya_comming wrote: > > My BEING is so pleasant. . . > > that I feel very 'guilty' each time, > I become That! > > > I feel as if I have 'stolen' a treasure. > > I feel as if I have 'sneaked' into heaven. . . > and, I shouldn't have. > > > I feel as I have forgotten my 'form identity'. . . > > and, have entered the UNITY that. . . I shouldn't have. > > > > I feel as if I was living in 'exile'. . . > > As if I was 'supposed' to be living in Exile. . . > > As if had made a 'promise' to live in Exile. . . > outside the gates of Heaven. . . > > Yet, I entered heaven Again. . . > > And, I feel so Guilty. . . > For breaking the promise, > that I think I had made when I 'incarnated'. > > > I was supposed to prented to always keep looking. . . > Yet, to never 'find' it. . . > > at laest, this is how, I remember it. . . > > And, thus, each time, I stumble on it, > Ah. . . I feel ever so guilty. > I feel your pain. Bear with it. It too will pass. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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