Letters from Sri Ramanasramam - 2

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Letters from Sri Ramanasramam 2

 

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22nd November, 1945

 

(2) AHAM SPHURANA

 

Yesterday a Bengali Swami in ochre robes by name Hrishikesanand came

here. This morning from 8-30 to 11-00 Bhagavan continuously discussed

spiritual matters with him. That voice flowed full of nectar and

uninterruptedly like the waters of the Ganges. How can my pen keep

pace with that great flow? That amrit (nectar) can only be drunk deep

with the hand of devotion: how can it be gathered and conveyed on

paper?

 

When Sri Bhagavan was relating his experiences in Madurai of the

vision of death, these eyes were incapable of taking in the radiance

of his personality, these ears of grasping the full wisdom of his

words. It is natural for the enthusiasm of one who relates an

incident to reflect the level of intelligence of him who listens.

 

I should have given you a more detailed account of the questions

asked by the Swami and the replies given by Bhagavan; only at present

the place reserved for ladies in the hall is rather far from Bhagavan

and, as I happened to be sitting at the back, I could not hear

properly all that was being discussed. I did however hear one thing

clearly.

 

 

Bhagavan said, " In the vision of death, though all the senses were

benumbed, the aham sphurana (Self-awareness) was clearly evident, and

so I realised that it was that awareness that we call 'I', and not

the body. This Self-awareness never decays. It is unrelated to

anything. It is Self-luminous. Even if this body is burnt, it will

not be affected.Hence, I realised on that very day so clearly that

that was 'I'. "

 

 

Many more such things were said but I could not follow or remember

them, and so I am not able to write any more about them. There have

been several discussions as this before. I am only sorry I have let

slip such innumerable gems. Please excuse my laziness and

indifference in not writing to you even though you have been asking

me all these days to write.

 

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