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Dear Pt. Priya Ji,

 

I have written to you in the past about my academic struggles but I haven't seen

much

improvement. Despite a lot of hard work and efforts I am not getting good

results. The

results I do get are such that it poses more questions and problems because the

experiment hasn't worked correctly. ANyways, in general I am feeling very low

and

demoralized. I am very scared and worried about the future. Since 2002 I have

been

struggling with my academics and studies and really haven't accomplished much. I

spent

2002-2004 trying to get a masters degree but I had a very unsupportive advisor

who

treated me as free labor and she got a lot of work done from me but I received

no credit or

recognition for it nor did i receive a degree. Instead I have many financial

loans i have to

pay back when i done with my studies. In 2004 i got accepted in the PhD program

and

although situation is slightly better I am still struggling. I feel like a

failure. I have lost a lot

of my own creativity and enthusiasm. Now I only work and do things because i am

scared.

I am scared that my advisor will giveup on me and throw me out. I am scared that

people

don't respect me. I really have a lot of negativity in me. I suffer from low

esteem, lack of

motivation. I know this is an odd request but can u suggest anything? My mother

is in

India right now and she had my chart read by an astrologer there and he told her

a lot of

negative things. My future is not good full of struggle, I may not be successful

in

completing my PhD ..this year is really bad etc etc. I don't know how true all

this is but I

was hoping you could give me some insight.

 

If you need my birth details again they are December 13, 1980 time 9:00am place

Long

Beach California USA.

 

Thanks,

Seema