Jivani's more complete introduction

[Guest guest]

Greetings,

 

I email a few minutes back and my friend has advised me how to go about seeking

your

assistance.

 

 

my birth details are:

April 2, 1963

I was born in Wheatridge, Colorado, which is a suburb on the west side of

Denver, USA

 

1. Health problems: Currently I am experiencing significant pain in my neck

and upper

shoulders. Often the pain in at the base of the neck and top of the shoulders,

much more

predominant on the left side. In meditation yesterday it felt like my father's

hands were on

my neck grabbing me, just as he did in my childhood whenever he was angry. This

pain is

often debilitating. It is so strong that it becomes difficult to do much of

anything and

thinking also becomes a challenge. I did have debilitating headaches for the

past few

years, but this has mostly subsided. My health has been challenged for many

years. Often

my energy is low or I feel very off and heavy, like there's a thick energy

inside that makes

me feel sick. The health challenges, from my recollection, seem to have begun

within two

years after my father's suicide. My father was a very troubled man for many

years. He was

very abusive to the entire family in many ways. I was very afraid of him and

did everything

I could to avoid his abuse. My cleverness kept me safe from him in some

regards.

 

2. Emotionally: I recently moved from my native home of Colorado, USA to the

tropical

island of Kauai, Hawaii. This shoulder/neck pain began as I was in the process

of packing

my personal possessions to move here. My thoughts and emotions during this

transition

have tended towards anxiety, nervousness with worry and fear. These

emotions/mental

states are not always with me, but continue to arise.

 

3. Financially I am worried that there may not be enough. There is currently

but since I

do not work much yet since I moved I am very scared that I won't get enough work

here to

support my home and that I do not have enough health or strength to work enough.

 

4. My work for the past 14 years has been as a healer doing craniosacral

therapy work.

This has given me great joy, until recently when I realized I was feeling

drained by some of

my long-time clients in Colorado. The direction of my work was shifting before

I left

Colorado in the direction of working with more children, babies and mothers.

This new

direction gave me lots of joy, although I did not always feel sufficiently

trained and tended

towards self-doubt and sometimes lacked confidence. I would like to begin new

work that

feeds me and my health. I love to give to others, but feel I tend towards

giving myself

away, then have little energy for my husband or our personal lives. I have

tended towards

being a caretaker and have sufferered personally at times for the lack of

balance in the

way I have done this. I feel I need to begin my work again soon, because life

here is

expensive, but do not want to continue any old patterns that imbalance or tax my

health

or my availability for my husband.

 

I would appreciate if in the prescribing of remedies you could explain the

reasoning

behind the remedies as this is my first experience with Lal Kitab. A friend

advised me

about your group.

 

Thank you kindly for your time.

 

Jivani