existing or living?-please help

[Guest guest]

Greetings,

 

As with others on this site, I am having an extremely difficult time

in my life, but I would sincerely like to turn that around. In all

honesty, my entire life has been hard and feels like it never lets up.

My mother died in Oct. 1998 yrs ago at 50 yrs. of age and my

grandmother followed her a year later at which point I had to quit

university because of emotional overload. My life has fallen into a

rut since these events and have not changed since. I do not know what

my purpose is, but I feel that I must still be here for some reason,

although I'm not sure why. I have studied western astrology for the

past 13 years as well, along with some jyotish but I am not skilled

enough in the latter and the Lal Kitab method and certainly I'm not

objective enough anyway.

 

My question is that I don't know what to do for a living to make money

and be happy. I have not had a job in almost 2 years because I simply

cannot tolerate the corporate 9-5 in America and have been depressed

on top of this. I love music with all my heart and soul, but I have

not performed or played in over 8-9 yrs. My family told me its not a

practical thing and I gave it up. In the meantime I tried other things

and nothing has made me happy either, but I know music is not an easy

life. I do not know if I should go back into music at all and if so,

for success sake, which should be more my focus, performance or

songwriting aspects? I like to be creative so, if not music, what

other career recommendations would you have? Ironically my career is

very important to me, and yet I feel it eludes me at the same time. It

also has a lot to do with where I live which is another issue for me

right now, but I am not sure you can give geographic advice through

your method. If so, I would be very willing to hear your thoughts.

 

I want to thank you in advance for your time and any advice you give.

Blessings,

C.

[Guest guest]

sorry forgot to add my birth info....

 

September 15, 1972

Summit, NJ 5:45 am (Daylight Savings Time)

 

Thankyou.

 

 

lalkitab , " lionheart_magick "

<lionheart_magick> wrote:

> Greetings,

>

> As with others on this site, I am having an extremely difficult time

> in my life, but I would sincerely like to turn that around. In all

> honesty, my entire life has been hard and feels like it never lets up.

> My mother died in Oct. 1998 yrs ago at 50 yrs. of age and my

> grandmother followed her a year later at which point I had to quit

> university because of emotional overload. My life has fallen into a

> rut since these events and have not changed since. I do not know what

> my purpose is, but I feel that I must still be here for some reason,

> although I'm not sure why. I have studied western astrology for the

> past 13 years as well, along with some jyotish but I am not skilled

> enough in the latter and the Lal Kitab method and certainly I'm not

> objective enough anyway.

>

> My question is that I don't know what to do for a living to make money

> and be happy. I have not had a job in almost 2 years because I simply

> cannot tolerate the corporate 9-5 in America and have been depressed

> on top of this. I love music with all my heart and soul, but I have

> not performed or played in over 8-9 yrs. My family told me its not a

> practical thing and I gave it up. In the meantime I tried other things

> and nothing has made me happy either, but I know music is not an easy

> life. I do not know if I should go back into music at all and if so,

> for success sake, which should be more my focus, performance or

> songwriting aspects? I like to be creative so, if not music, what

> other career recommendations would you have? Ironically my career is

> very important to me, and yet I feel it eludes me at the same time. It

> also has a lot to do with where I live which is another issue for me

> right now, but I am not sure you can give geographic advice through

> your method. If so, I would be very willing to hear your thoughts.

>

> I want to thank you in advance for your time and any advice you give.

> Blessings,

> C.