feeling to die

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Dear Priya,

 

BIRTH DATE : 09 AUG 1980

BIRTH TIME : 19:17 IST

BIRTH PLACE : JABALPUR (MP)

 

CURRENT LOCATION : INDORE

 

After all my efforts from the last 3 years i left with nothing.

 

i am so lonely, helpless & lost all my spirit even to that extent that i

feel for dieing.

i am not able to accept my present life as it bacame. i feel like an end

to everything.

 

i have nobody with me, not a single person whom i can rely upon.

 

Everybody who are called to be in my family made my life miserable. And

now today

i got deeply frustated and depressed and couldn't hold myself.

 

I am mentally highly disturbed and distracted by others. not able to

sleep properly for even 1 single night from months.

 

# Also I am suffering from a disease from the last 8 years which is a

giant hurdle for me to do anything. even the simplest task becomes

difficult & painful to me.

this everybody knows but even then nobody allow me to live according to

the comfertability of this disease.

I consulted you earlier regarding my disease.

My previous Message Nos are:

 

My Post          Your Reply

4519                     4524

8984                    8990

 

i donot have strength to carry my life furthur. And i really mean this

as it states. i really feel that deeply.

i do not feel anybody mien not even my parents & my family members.

i really can't hold myself and really need somebody whom i can feel to

be mien, who can hold and suport me.

 

1. plz suggest how do i recover from all this, what to do?

 

 

because of all above i lost my career completely & not able to grow.

i am working in computer field and was an expert in it. but because of

my disease almost 2 yrs back i joined a cool & scheduled job, in the

computer field which do not have any growth, with a VIEW of recovering

myself and then preparing and going for some good job in some good

company having my career growth.

BUT NOTHING WORKED BECAUSE OF ALL ABOVE REASONS.

 

NOW I am afread of doing anything because of negative results i always

get and i am not left with any strength to bear it. i became very timid.

 

I am losing time & then it will be difficult to make a career so

for this year  i planned to switch over my current job to a

better one having growth & which will lead my career. BUT I AM NOT CLEAR

TO WHAT TO DO. DONOT HAVE ANT CLUE!

 

2. Plz suggest something how to get growth in my job and get my carreer

in track?

 

3.Also i am having too many financial loses of all kind without any

fault from my side.

how to stop them?

 

can you plz tell me why all this is happening with me?

i lost everybody, i lost myself!

 

 

PLZ HELP

 

 

-BRUCEE