2-Durga, Msg# 2251

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Hello Mark,

 

I wrote a very long email to you and clicked send and my network

connection got disrupted and the message got wiped out. I felt oh

well why worry, then I felt I have to. So here it goes a second

attempt.

I was inspired to write to you after reading your message to sadie,

I know this is very highly disrespectful and very annoying. But I

couldnt stop myself thinking that's exactly how I am feeling regards

to my husband and son nowadys. Why do I have to tell everybody what

they have to do. and I know the answer..to make them do the way you

want it to be done.

I like this forum because you can vent up as much as you want and

find a reason for why you are like that. A very secure feeling of

insecurity. I am afraid of taking responsibility of my actions and

thats how I know how others are doing the same. I like to say what

is wrong with some thing but I dont want them to feel bad. But then

I am compelled to say it and feel terribly guilty for hurting their

feelings.

OK I wish I had saved the previous mail because it was so indepth

and spontaneous. Now I am struggling get the same feelings again

back. I unable to maintain a particular quality I like. It was so

perfect the first time and now it is soo mixed up.

 

Ok I have to try harder the second time on..I get it..

 

But I am very tired again. I have to get back to my path. I have to

reach the destiny before it gets too late.

 

But I will later.

Durga.