His Death : My Failure by a moment

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When i cried 2 day's back, still, I could'nt get peace, he is no more now, he

was not my relative, not born as brahmin, bt, he was innocent, some 20 yrs old.

 

His parents used to call him 'Sadhu', living next door to my family house in

village, he belongs to a poor OBC family, i hve not much lived in my village bt

sometimes you love a person for no reason, and if you are in spirituality, you

dont recognise a reason for having a feeling of luv towards a person you are not

familiar.

 

In fact, i wanted to talk to him since i heard that he is disturbed, I got

opportunity to visit my village soon after my marriage for puja of Gram Devta,

it was a short trip of 5 hrs, it was in my mind to meet him, bt, i was also in

toxic days of marriage, i got time to goto his house, perhapse it was closed,

though, i was worried for him, i thought, ok, wd meet him later, my real

brother was facing some problems at his office and wanted me to draft a mail for

him, so, instead of asking somebody in village to call sadhu, i went to nearby

town.

 

I also had a fear in my mind that ppl of village and my family members wd

criticize me, so, i didnt do efforts to call sadhu, this is second time in life

when i missed my duty for such type of stupid reasons.

 

I wanted to counsil him both emotionaly and spiritualy, i could do effort to

begin process to balance his past live sanskars, but, you know, god's wish is

above our desires, i returnd to rewa same day evening, without meeting to him.

 

2 day's back, i came to know that sadhu has committed suicide.

 

Tell me, what's use of energy of mantra? Perhapse, if i could meet him and could

spend one single mantra's energy on his healing, today, he could survive, i

could also help him financialy though i m also not rich, bt, i couldnt do

anything for a simple lapse in decision making. You, pls dont miss a chance like

this in your life if you are capable.

 

Now, sadhu will never come, he is no more !!