PART I: SWAMI DESIKA EXPRESSES HIS ANGUISH - Anguish- Posting - 2 (1.4 to 1.6)

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SWAMI VEDANTA DESIKA'S

" NAICHYANUSANTHANAM " AND " SATVIKA THYAGAM "

(As gleaned from his StOtras)

 

PART I: SWAMI DESIKA EXPRESSES HIS ANGUISH -

Anguish- Posting - 2 (1.4 to 1.6)

(Anbil Ramaswamy)

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IMPORTANT NOTE

[As already mentioned in the Introduction, the Naichya AnusanthAnam is

applicable to us only and NOT to Swami Desika, we have to substitute

ourselves wherever Swami Desika extrapolates these to himself]

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1.4. " I am a break-promise "

 

viswOpakAramithi nAma sadhA duhAnAm

adhyApi Devi bhavatheem Avadheerayantham /

NathE nivEsaya vrishAdripatE DayE ! tvam

Nyastha swa rakshaNa bharam tvayi mAm tvayaiva //

(DayA Sathakam SlOkam 91)

 

Meaning

" Oh! DayA DEvi!

It is not that I did Prapatti on my own because I have no independence to do

anything. It is you who induced me to BharanyAsam and it is you who accepted

it too! Even after having promised never again to indulge in acts against

your wishes, ignoring your kindness, I continue with my evil ways. Is this

not an insult to you? Only you have to prevent me from doing any further

wrongdoing and make me worthy of eternal kainkaryam to your Lord Srinivasa "

 

Comment:

What a true reflection of our plight!

 

1.5. " I am Snake-charmer "

 

santhavyamAnam aparAdha ganam vichintya

trasyAmi hantha Bhavatheem cha vibhAvayAmi /

ahnAya mEvrisha gireesa DayE ! jahee mAm

Aaseevisha grahaNa kELee nibhAm avasthAm //

(DayA Sathakam SlOkam 96)

 

Meaning

" Oh! DayA DEvi!

Desirous of moksham, I have done BharanyAsam. After this, knowingly, I go on

committing innumerable sins. I am aware and afraid that I have to pay a heavy

penalty for it. To mitigate, I do also some expiatory acts in the hope that

your infinite grace will devour all my sins. Thus, I alternate between

committing sins and performing PrAyaschitha Prapatti in a never-ending cycle.

Is this not the height of indiscretion? In this, I am like a snake charmer

that lives by displaying poisonous reptiles. As he displays them, they bite

him. He takes recourse to herbal antitoxins and mAntric antidotes to be freed

from the effects of the poison. He again plays with the snakes only to be

bitten again and again, Thus, between bites and antidotes; he carries on his

livelihood. You should prevent me from committing sins again and again and

obviate the need for PrAyaschitha Prapatti. "

 

Comment:

Cf: Aarthi Prabhandam

 

1.6. Sri DEvi and Bhu DEvi - Are they jealous of you?

 

Avidhitha nija yogakshEmam AatmagnAnamabhijnam

Gunalava rahitham mAmgoptukAmA dayE tvam /

Paravathi chaturaih thE vibramaih sreenivAsE

Bahumathim anapAyAm vindasi sridharNyOh //

(DayA Sathakam SlOka 32)

 

(Addressing DayA DEvi, Swami Desika praises her saying that she has succeeded

where Periya Piraati and Bhudevi who rest on either side of the Lord had

failed)

 

Meaning

" I am the greatest sinner. I am the lowliest of the lowly and the most

depraved. I do not know to acquire any 'Punyam' by performing any meritorious

deeds. Nor, am I capable of holding on to what little Punyam I may be deemed

to possess. I know nothing about my " Atma' I have not even realized that my

Atma is different from my 'Sareeram, " that it is the eternal servant of the

Lord. Do I have any good points? None whatsoever. You decided to recommend

such a worthless soul to your Lord and I know he cannot refuse what you

desire. On either side of your Lord rest Periya Piraatti and Bhoomi Devi who

admire your feats and endorse your recommendation. Though you have succeeded

where they could not, they do not feel jealous about you but only adore you

because you have successfully carried out only their own wishes to save me "

 

Comment:

A nice way of offering tribute to DayA DEvi without offending the other

Consorts of the Lord!

 

(To Continue)

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