Padhuka Sahasram-963

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Sri:

 

SrimatE Gopaladesika MahadesikAya Namaha,

 

Translation by U.Ve. Dr. V.N. Vedanta Desikan Swamin:

 

963. kim vA BhaviShyathi param kaluShaIkavrutthE

rEthAvathApyanupajAthamanEhasA mE

Ekam thadhasthi yadhi pashyasi pAdhukE! thE

PadhmAsahAyapadhapankajaBhOgasAmyam

 

Oh Paaduka! If You throw Your glance one me, I will be granted an

equality with You in the enjoyment of the bliss of the Lord's Lotus

Feet. Only that remains yet for me to experience. Because I have

reaped all others by my continuous engagement with sins (Any good

deed now and then has given me chances of small rewards too).

 

Only this remains: the bliss of communion with the Lord's Feet on

par with You!

 

Namo Narayana,

 

SriMuralidhara Dasan

 

Special Notes by V.Sadagopan (V.S):

 

1) UtthamUr Swamy's anubhavam: Oh PaadhukE ! What else

is going to happen anymore to me , who commits sins almost as

an occupation ? There is only one thing that can happen to me

through Your blessings . That is to become equal to You in enjoying

the experience of serving Your Lord's feet . May thou bless me to

reach a status similar to Yours ! I have enjoyed every thing else

and found them useless.

 

2) SrImath Andavan's anubhavam : Oh PaadhukE ! Committing sins

is my profession ( Thozhil/Vrutthi) . There is not a paapam that I

have not acquired . There is no end to the narakams that I am

destined to experience . How can I then dream of being blessed with

Bhagavath anubhavam under these adverse circumstances ? Oh PadhukE !

If You decide that I will correct myself over time and come out of

my miseries , I will continue to rot in SamsAram. I will never ever

seek or attain MOksha Sukham . If You decide however to take pity

on me and come to my rescue , then the divine glances of the Lord and

His PirAtti will fall one me and I will be saved from the

debilitating samsAra ruchi . I will gain ParipoorNAnubhavam of Your

Lord. The fact that You do not pay attention to my sufferings is

solely due to my accumulated sins . Swamy Desikan expresses his

nirvEdham this way .

 

3) Oh PaadhukE ! I have the occupation of commiting sins

perpetually ( kalushaika vrutthE: mE ). Until all these days

( yEthAvathA anEhasApi ) , I have not been the recipient of

Your mercy and the consequent boons ( anupajAtham param

kim vaa? ) . If Your merciful glances fall on me ( Yadhi pasyasi) ,

I will gain a blessed status equal to You in enjoying the glories of

Your Lord's Thiruvadi ( yadhi pasyasi tE PadhmA SahAya Padha

pankaja bhOga saamyam tath yEkam asthi)...(V.S).