Can you help me understand better?

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Centro Yoga ''Jap'' <noi wrote: Hello Everyone,

It has been some time since have written but i read and value the gift of

what is exchanged on a daily basis. I have committed to a Kundalini yoga class

with a small group that has been causing some amazing transformations for me. I

cannot tell you the peace, clarity, and a genuine wonder for coming into who I

am every day and beginning to experience me and it is just wonderful!

I do have a few questions about some things I have been experiencing within my

body and life lately. I have been practicing every day now for about a month

whether it is 3 minutes or an hour and attending class once per week for an

hour.

First, i have been getting this tingling sensation in the upper part of my

left shoulder that feels like a heartbeat later but it does not have the rhythm

of a heartbeat all the time. I have been concentrating on the 3rd chakra where

i was recently told i had blockage. I have also been bought the book of the " 8

Human Talents " where I have been working on 1-3 chakras. Is it normal and what

does it mean? The beating sensation moved to the back of my left arm, like it

was in my tricept and I could almost control it when I placed my thumb and index

finger together lightly and tried to adjust the beat to a more rhythmic beating.

The beat is erratic and distracting in class and happens towards the closure of

the hour. Should I just let it be?

Secondly, when I am meditating with or without a CD for assistance I find

myself rocking from side to side. When I notice, I try to stop doing this but i

tend to go back to this motion left to right. It is very soothing to me and I

have just been letting it go. What does it mean and should I not be doing this

when meditating. It occurs most frequently when I have been meditating to the

cd " A Blissful Spirit " .

Thirdly, I bought a CD that I thought was for Kundalini yoga but it is for

nada yoga? The music and meaning really touches me and puts me almost in a

trance as I am thinking about the lotus flower and looking at the pictures. Is

this aligned with Kundalini yoga and if not, what are your thoughts on this

discipline? I want to stay on track but am not sure if blending two different

disciplines would be confusing and would dilute the outcome I so desperately

seek - finding me.

Fourthly and lastly, should i continue to work on my 3rd chakra which was told

to me to be blocked and then move to my 5th which was also told needed some

work? In my reading, I have been starting at the beginning because I wanted to

start out with a good base or shall I say make sure the roots of my lotus flower

are strong and ready for the next phase. Maybe there is no right answer but I

am the person who always wants to know " why " and what is next. It is hard for

me to let go but I am trying.

In closing, I recently (over a month ago before committing to the yoga) was 1

of 2 people in line for a project managers job I have been working towards for 3

years. After 2 months of extensive interviews I did not get the job and it

almost devistated me. I was in a state of numbness and could barely function.

The yoga has helped me focus but the outcome of this has taken the wind out of

my sails so to speak and I am having trouble getting this back. Does this mean

I am not following my purpose or that there is something else waiting for me?

When you look at me and my wanting to use my skills and abilities to inspire and

make changes, it all fits and I am so excellent at incorporating the personal

peice into the work arena where everyone wins. What went wrong and how can I

resolve what feels like such a loss and move ahead with what I need to do or am

meant to do? Is this the place where I figure it out? Why cant I let it go

instead of feeling like it is salt in

an old wound? Am I mourning an old wound or is there some lesson I need to

learn?

I am open to any suggestions for kryas that would be helpful.

Thanks to everyone for the listening ear and my apologies that the email was

long.

 

Sat Nam!

G