Guest guest Posted October 24, 2007 Report Share Posted October 24, 2007 Sat Nam Chad, If you live in the San Diego area, then get yourself to yoga class tonight. It will help you " right yourself " so you feel grounded again and not so disoriented. This has been a very challenging situation here and the depth of your feelings are quite understandable. Yoga will help you to consolidate your energy and give you the love and support you call out for. The drugs are a nasty vampiristic illusion. To numb yourself, instead of going through this extreme challenge with clarity, will just complicate your life and postpone your healing. This may take every ounce of strength that your inner spiritual warrior has, but you can know that the energy and power of the Universe is infinite and you can leverage that. Keep your connection with the Universal energy clear so you get through this challenge. Call every atom of your energy back to your navel today and get to yoga class tonight. It will help. Diana Bellucci, San Diego " Uhm... last Monday my house burned down... so... I'm kinda drifting in and out of conscious activity. Everything is like a big cloud that doesn't make sense. I know I'm here to be alive... and I have the stuff I need to be alive... but everything is sad and hurts... and... I'm just... lost inside... " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2007 Report Share Posted October 25, 2007 Hi Chad, Three years ago our apt was flooded. We lost a lot of the already little we had. On top of that I " gained " a lot of flood related problems to deal with. And to be honest, for months things stayed difficult and complicated. I developed symptons of post traumatic stress disorder. You may have the same. Try to get some help, some counselling. It's best if you can. But I wasn't able to (no money) and even without counselling over time I got better. I did k yoga, meditation and exercised on my own (for free!) and this helps a lot. The most important thing: Don't give up hope. Things will get better, just hold on. Keep on going, one day at a time. Time helps. Things do get better. Best wishes, Betin Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2007 Report Share Posted October 26, 2007 Hi Chad, Accept my oneness, you're not alone in your experience. I had my house burn down also, so I can sympathize with what it's like. It sounds like both you and your friend weren't phsyically harmed in the fire? If so, that's a blessing. Even though only you can find the meaning and growth in your experience, I'd like to share an experience of mine, which might help you. I had recently been tricked into visiting a group that was a cult. I stayed there for a week, without knowing the reality, and during that time my thoughts and emotions got twisted around A Lot. Thankfully I left and then realized the truth of the group. And then I realized how confused and tormented my thoughts and emotions were. I didn't friends, family, and realized even my own basic perceptions weren't stable. I was more troubled and confused than I'd ever been, life was without meaning. Now I've mostly gotten through that experience, and I can see how it actually helped me to learn new perspectives. Although I feel like I'm starting my life almost from scratch, I can see that I Can Create my life again, and see it as a blessing. There are still challenges, and i'm getting job counselors and just moving one step at a time. What seemed impossible a month ago, is now just a small struggle sometimes, and a full joy sometimes... and I know that that trend can continue. Sometimes fires refine us, and the most severe fires can take longer to heal from, and also can allow the greatest refinements... allowing us to re-build ourselves using all the wisdom we gained since we were 'built' unconcsciously growing up. We get to consciously create our mind and emotions and sense of meaning. A quote that helped me a lot is by Churchill, " When you're going through hell, keep going. " Maybe god only gives us the degree of lessons that god knows we are ready for. Maybe you're ready for your experience in order to help us all? All we have to do is show up, say yes, and stay in the game, and we can overcome anything with enough time and care. How do you feel about everything? Sat Nam from a brother in learning Kundaliniyoga , " Chad Furman " <cybarc wrote: > > Hi all... > > Uhm... last Monday my house burned down... so... I'm kinda drifting in > and out of conscious activity. Everything is like a big cloud that > doesn't make sense. I know I'm here to be alive... and I have the > stuff I need to be alive... but everything is sad and hurts... and... > I'm just... lost inside... > > and scared... and weak... I've been smoking pot again and a few days > ago I took mushrooms again... It's all a lot... I've unglued myself > from myself... and yet I'm still here... > > the friend I'm living with smokes a lot of cigarettes and drinks > several times a week. I quit smoking last year and the nicotine > cravings are starting to resurface. I want to cry... and he thinks I > can help him quit smoking and drinking just by being there, yet he > doesn't want to quit... so its like... I'm not even trying either... > I'm just... being there... exerting myself (which isn't much) > > I'm really scared and sad and lost... can anyone offer anything? > > Thanks > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2007 Report Share Posted October 26, 2007 Hi Chad, I know how tough this is for your right now.? My house burned down in 1991 and I went through a horrible time.? Stay as focussed as you can, breathe, be one within your center, know that we all care about you and trust that life?can and will get better and better.? You are not alone.? It's OK to cry. Christy? Chad Furman <cybarc Kundaliniyoga Tue, 23 Oct 2007 6:42 pm Kundalini Yoga House burned down Hi all... Uhm... last Monday my house burned down... so... I'm kinda drifting in and out of conscious activity. Everything is like a big cloud that doesn't make sense. I know I'm here to be alive... and I have the stuff I need to be alive... but everything is sad and hurts... and... I'm just... lost inside... and scared... and weak... I've been smoking pot again and a few days ago I took mushrooms again... It's all a lot... I've unglued myself from myself... and yet I'm still here... the friend I'm living with smokes a lot of cigarettes and drinks several times a week. I quit smoking last year and the nicotine cravings are starting to resurface. I want to cry... and he thinks I can help him quit smoking and drinking just by being there, yet he doesn't want to quit... so its like... I'm not even trying either... I'm just... being there... exerting myself (which isn't much) I'm really scared and sad and lost... can anyone offer anything? Thanks ______________________ Email and AIM finally together. You've gotta check out free AOL Mail! - http://mail.aol.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2007 Report Share Posted October 26, 2007 Sat Nam, Wow thanks for all the positive feedback! I remember when I was first sent out to start an Ashram in the early 70's....and one winter we kept getting snowed in (Nebraska) so we decided to stay in town that day, my wife was 4 months pregnant, while I was at work a furnace exploded and the house was destroyed! I received a call at noon time telling me about my house...I was sorta in shock but luckly we called up the ashram in Kansas City and told them of our plight and the next day we were off to live with them in Missouri. As it was all I had was the clothes on my back and those weren't mine...I worked for a propane company I was wearing the companies uniform... Thinking back I realize we just took everything in stride ...we knew we would be tested and when it happened,,,,we just dealt with it! God gives God takes away...its all a dance! Sat Nam, Siri Chand Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 27, 2007 Report Share Posted October 27, 2007 It's very important that you show your friend that you have struggled to live a smoke free life. Sure, he's helping you by letting you stay with him but what good is that if he's hurting you with something that will probably last even longer? Maybe you should suggest that he try doing some kriyas with you and leave the area whenever he lights up so that it will be clear that you want to leave that page in your history behind you rather than adding it to your future Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 30, 2007 Report Share Posted October 30, 2007 Blessings on the group! Sat Nam, My friend has quit smoking Ciggarettes, my life is turning around and now all that's left is to re-focus my mind on what is truly important. That would be progressing forward with a positive and compassionate auir. Truly, thanks to all the caring souls in this world. You really do bring great joy into the hearts of those whom you may not even know you are salvaging. Simple words do tremendous feats, even if you pass it up as say-sos. Love, Truth, Light. Chad Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 30, 2007 Report Share Posted October 30, 2007 Sat Nam: Just want to let you know, Siri Chand and group, there still is an ashram in Kansas City and if your house burns down, give us a call, we'll be happy to be of service! KartaPurkh S Khalsa Your job is to deal with everything in life with affection, love and kindness. --Yogi Bhajan http://kartapurkhkhalsa.typepad.com/ http://kckundaliniyoga.com http://kartapurkh.smugmug.com/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 31, 2007 Report Share Posted October 31, 2007 Sat Nam, Nice one Chad. I'm glad that things are starting to work out OK for you. God Bless you. Love and Light . x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2007 Report Share Posted November 4, 2007 Dear Chad, Three years ago in the month of February, within 2 weeks of moving into a new home, the home was flooded because the landlord failed to perform basic maintenance tasks. Subsequently landlord evicted me on two hours notice, because I had confronted her about the very shortcommings that caused the flooding of my apartment. A long legal process followed, and I have to admit I didn't have a prayer, because, contrary to my landlady, I was not familiar with the legal system. This said, today I look back and I thank her for violating me, because it served as a catalist to go back to College, and become a paralegal professional. In one month I will have accomplished this goal. Everything happens for a reason, and I am confident that you too will be able to use this tragic loss in a meaningful way. But in the meantime I encourage you to continue living with integrity, and to find all the reasons why live is worth living. For starters, I am glad that nobody in your family was hurt, or worse yet, died due to these fires. It is my true hope that 3 or 4 years from now you too will be able to look back, and everything will be making sense. Kundaliniyoga , " Chad Furman " <cybarc wrote: > > Hi all... > > Uhm... last Monday my house burned down... so... I'm kinda drifting in > and out of conscious activity. Everything is like a big cloud that > doesn't make sense. I know I'm here to be alive... and I have the > stuff I need to be alive... but everything is sad and hurts... and... > I'm just... lost inside... > > and scared... and weak... I've been smoking pot again and a few days > ago I took mushrooms again... It's all a lot... I've unglued myself > from myself... and yet I'm still here... > > the friend I'm living with smokes a lot of cigarettes and drinks > several times a week. I quit smoking last year and the nicotine > cravings are starting to resurface. I want to cry... and he thinks I > can help him quit smoking and drinking just by being there, yet he > doesn't want to quit... so its like... I'm not even trying either... > I'm just... being there... exerting myself (which isn't much) > > I'm really scared and sad and lost... can anyone offer anything? > > Thanks > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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